We have a fascinating and deep topic to look at today,
Something that over the over 40 years that I've been teaching,
I'm always somewhat shocked that there isn't any particular feature of our consciousness that cannot be brought into the light of attention and kept there that won't open up and tell us something more about the consciousness in which that particular creature,
A particular energy that particular body lives remember when i was a boy i was always fascinated at the beach with digging a hole close to the.
Ocean and reaching water maybe six eight inches down and then if you just dug a little bit more of the whole would start to collapse in on itself.
And the whole would get bigger and bigger and bigger later in my life around seventeen or eighteen years old without going into detail i had a.
I guess you would call it a vision that lasted six months.
But it was very similar to this idea of something that pours into itself and in this instance what i'm alluding to here is that we can take any subject and we do and we can we can just start to look into it and if we if we attend to the question inherent.
And what brought us to that particular inquiry.
The attention itself acts like a kind of ripening and developing not just of the capacity to attend to that particular idea or interest but to reveal continuously more and more facets of it so that one grows.
And this is important not in understanding of something outside of themselves but rather yes in in in a relationship that continually is realizing that what it is learning about is about itself.
So that consciousness learns about itself and we as the awareness of that consciousness grow in in our capacity to have a completely different relationship with what we're studying so that so that we if you will continually transcend whatever the former level.
Is that we were living at in relationship to that particular thing now let me get on with the talk here first i want to i want to make it clear i'm only showing you things i only want you to see.
Whether or not what i'm saying is true if you see it is true that's enough do not believe a thing i say test every word every idea so that you through your own experience can validate verify its truth if you do that then that truth will become yours instead of you relying on someone like this man.
Help you see something your eyes will begin to open by themselves it will get wider just like i was describing the way in which that whole opens up in the sand in which energy pours into content and content reveals itself so let's get started.
First we are assuming beings and some of this is gonna be tough because it were so inculcated we as human beings have been fully conditioned we have been bread quite literally at this point in civilization to use that word loosely we have been bread.
To be fearful bread to be fearful now don't make the mistake of thinking there's some terrible evil empire out of there some group of men and women that are determined to rule the world because everyone who wants to rule anything is first ruled by a fearful consciousness there is no intelligent group of men and women trying to do anything there is a group of idiots whoever they are who are so dominated by fear that they believe that they can get rid of their own personal inadequacies by dominating and controlling others so let's get all that conspiracy crowd out of out of the way.
We have been bread to believe in fear and part of that breathing is this idea that the more we fear losing something.
The more valuable it must be that's one of the major false beliefs it goes with this everywhere but the more i fear losing something obviously the more valuable it must be which is an absolute lie why is that an absolute lie.
Fear doesn't reveal value what's happened to us fear doesn't reveal value what fear reveals is where we have been victimized by becoming attached to independent upon unseen attachments and that corresponding dependency.
If you just think for a moment i don't have time to go you know dead slow so that we can hit every beat how can dependency upon something be valuable.
When by the very nature of dependency it breeds fear how can dependency on anything be valuable when by the very nature of dependency and the attachments that produce that we breed fear itself.
And yet it's so deep and it runs so thoroughly that when the moment of fear appears we never question it for one thing we don't even really know when the moment of fear appears all we know and again this is i don't say anything to you that i haven't seen about myself and understand about myself.
As dim witted as we presently are dulled by the edge of fear beating us into submission.
We're not even aware of the actual moment when fear grabs us all we know by and large are those moments where something in us finally goes oh my god look at that condition or somebody tells me look at the circumstances to be feared then suddenly were washed with this fear.
I want to help you understand this morning if it's at all possible to let you see a truth that all forms of psychological fear are a lie.
And that is long as we live under the yoke of that lie we will serve the creature that has placed it there on our back and on the shoulders of humanity until we're almost broken so badly that we don't even suspect what's happened to us as long as you and i equate the idea of security equate the idea of freedom with security we will always be looking at every moment in our life without knowing it unconsciously weighing and measuring that moment according to what our mind tells us that moment means.
And then letting that unconscious comparison determine the implication of that moment so that just as an example my idea of freedom is that the more people that like me the happier freer I am.
The more money I have the more possessions I can acquire the more competent and content I'll be the more confident I'll be that idea of freedom relative to security means that I am without knowing on it.
Knowing dependent on those images that I'm identified with to remain fixed so that anything that comes along and challenges that condition.
The image I hold as to what it is that makes me a secure person in that heartbeat that security washes out the door.
And we don't even know that that happens in that moment all creatures have instinctual fear let's get that out of the way.
Instinctual fear is natural and to be quite clear there is never anything negative.
In a moment where we react through an instinctual fear never all negative fear all sudden onset of something that produces suffering for fear of what may come.
All of that psychological fear is taught is part of a consciousness as I said that has been bred to believe that somehow or other the condition that we are looking at is responsible for the conflict and the fear that we feel in it.
Now let's go slow enough so we can carry everybody along.
Number one we all know the story and we may ourselves have challenged it you know somebody says hey let's go jump off of a bridge with an elastic cord tied to our ankle and you go I don't think so.
What are you a chicken are you a coward and in that moment I don't want to be seen as a coward no I'm not afraid well then let's go do it besides which you have to go through your fears.
Someone tells you in order to be fearless and that has a certain ring of truth to it and so you go okay and just for the sake of it God willing you go you jump off the bridge the bungee cord.
And when you jump you boing boing and your body is pumped with adrenaline and you go oh my God that's unbelievable.
And they go see I told you but here's the point while it's good to meet a condition that you fear the condition that you meet and go through that fear does not bring about the end of the fearful consciousness that produces at the drop of a hat the next fear.
So here I am I jump off the bridge with the bungee cord I'm all pumped up I get home and I'm thinking I've conquered fear and then there's a message on my voice in voice messaging it's my doctor and he says he wants to talk to me about something important.
Boom fear again if we are ever going to understand how it's possible to be a fearful human being we have to begin to be willing to challenge not the condition that we fear but the consciousness responsible for creating the fear the thing that's feared and the self that lives with that fear.
Going through conditions we fear are like you know like the FBI catching gang members but the head of the gang remains hidden and out of sight and draws to himself or herself all the corresponding instruments that evil needs to manifest its deed.
We are not interested in corralling the conditions that cause the fear we want to know if we want to be free at all what is the nature of this consciousness in which and through which this fear is created that's what we're interested in if we've reached that point.
Some of us are still and I know it's true we can't help it we wake up every morning with God as my witness and before an hour has gone by something has passed into this mind telling us what we have to do how we have to get it done the way it needs to be done who it is that has to be spoken to in what terms and to accomplish what.
And we never suspect that every last moment of that impetus of whatever it is that we feel like is pushing us through we have to acquire that every last one of those moments is produced by a consciousness that has produced a moment of fear and then needs something or someone you.
In order to get to be the instrument not of freeing the fear but of proving there is something to be feared so that that fearful consciousness can continue to hold us as it does our real enemy to use those words.
Is far more intimate than any situation at work than the mortgage than all the rest of those things all of that the enemy is embedded in an unconscious nature.
That first without our ever knowing it in fact we come into a consciousness that's already embedded if you will with certain attachments and a corresponding identity to every last one of those attachments that we don't even know we have and that corresponding identity is derived from everything.
That this consciousness then subsequently starts to resist anytime anyone threatens that identity and what does that do what does that amount to it forever separates us.
In that moment from the possibility of being present to the prison that we were in prior to the pain.
This is a critical fact to understand we are encased in a consciousness that makes fear before that consciousness points to something to be feared consciousness unconscious nature points to the things to be feared so that we can be occupied trying to change the condition.
Instead of allowing the moment when that condition appears triggered as it is to start having some understanding of this consciousness so that we can begin to attend in a completely different way.
This whole idea that the way we remain secure and confident is by dealing with our fears know it's exactly the opposite the only way we will ever know what true confidence a true security is to begin to understand and enter into the actual source.
Of that fear let me slow down most of us know absolutely no other form of security than what we have acquired in this life what is my security based in.
My financial position the number of friends and family i have the people who's good opinion i have one the promise of tomorrow.
To be better than today and if you look closely you will see that every last thing that you see as a source of security.
Is also the source of your fear not the condition finances friends and family not that those things themselves are the source of fear.
They're natural at their level in human life no the source of the fear is that this consciousness are present unconscious nature forms without any indication at all that we are aware of attachments.
It becomes dependent upon circumstance in order to continue the sense of contentment the circle circumstance provides so that the moment it looks like something's going to change anyone of these conditions.
Friends and family are going to disapprove of me because what i did so therefore i have to control the circumstance to make it look like i'm not what they see is being any last moment like that does what.
In that moment all of my security goes out the door because it never existed in the way i imagined it did because it is the self that imagines itself secure that lives in perpetual fear that what it has imagined will be threatened and proven false.
I don't know how far along the road you are but at some point a man or a woman who aspires to know anything about the divine has to realize the relationship between the amount of fear they have.
And their dependency upon what they call security and when that starts to happen if it's at all recognized person starts to ask what other.
Kind of security is there i'm tired of waking up in the morning and being afraid of someone at work tired of looking at the news left or right and fearing that something's happening.
Beyond my control.
As if you had any control to begin with by the way talk about a false belief as the father of fear that you control anything that whole idea is nothing but fear hiding itself as ambition what would be this.
Other source of security if it exists at all no longer feeling the need to protect myself from what i fear but rather seeing in that moment the nature that creates it and then transcending that level of consciousness altogether what would that what kind of security with that bring about let me tell you a quick story to illustrate some of these deeper ideas here's a.
Woman a young woman successful woman but a self working meaning a woman who isn't just out there in the world filled with ambition trying to pad her nest with all the things that these possessions prove she is all that nonsense.
No she's also a spiritual woman and she's been working hard and it's time for her to own her own house.
This is a metaphor please this is not this is in the world that she's looking through zillow and she sees a house that's beautiful.
And it seems to be listed a little below market she's thinking what's wrong with this house and she goes to see it and she's reading about it she learns that one of the reasons that it's listed below market values because it's supposed to be haunted.
And a number of people who've gone in there they've attested on the upper whatever it is whatever platforms are that they saw this and that and there was a sound and a woman but never let she wants to go see for herself.
So she goes into the house she looks around and the counter some of these things and at first she's scared.
But at a certain point because I got to go through the story quickly at a certain point she goes ahead and she buys the house and when the first day comes she gets the key and she moves in there she is standing in this living room big stairs going up you know the big space.
And she's standing there and all of a sudden out of the wall comes this creepy looking zombie like thing and then some floating dark shadow out of the other wall and then some kind of apparition red dripping stuff all over it out of it and they and they they start to close in on her like the sun is starting to close in on me.
I didn't close the blind if it gets bright deal with it.
And they're closing in on her and she says hold it right there hold it right there.
I don't know who you think you are you're trying to scare the wrong person i'm the new owner of this house and you no longer have any right.
To remain here i'm the new owner of this house and you have mistaken me for someone i am not in that little idea.
Set something god willing that resonates that you recognize it will be this is my house this is my temple this body this consciousness and which the soul and spirit well has been given to me and it's been given to me to reside with in not to live in fear of what it has become attached to and dependent upon because it lives in an unconscious state.
This is my house and i will not live with anything that frightens me in it no matter what it is no matter how that spirit that dark force that that energetic body is dressed.
I'm just trying to address here this idea that there is a completely different order of security that's possible for a human being who begins to recognize they are living with and continue to live with.
Fearful thoughts and feelings that visit them at the drop of a hat anytime a condition challenges what they're identified with so what is this new order of security.
Every scripture east and west presents it to us if we had ears to hear how about he prepares a feast in the presence of my enemies.
What does that mean what was christ talking about what is this feast in the presence of my enemies all said and done who is my enemy.
That person that circumstance that unwanted condition seen as a threat to my peace of mind.
Who's appearance by the way in the moment even suggested creates in that moment a palpitation of the heart because something in me in that moment looks out and it does doesn't it it sees an enemy at the gate.
And because all of that unfolds all of that energy that negative reaction transpires so quickly i have no idea whatsoever that in that moment literally waiting in this unconscious nature.
A series of interconnected attachments dependencies and corresponding identities multiple legion of eyes.
Each and every one validated by what it is attached to and derives its identity from it is waiting there and in that moment i wonder if you could follow me suddenly triggered a voice.
Let's whisper that you can't even hear it but you can feel it race through you oh what now what's the implication of this moment we're so used to living.
In a hail storm of hellish interpretations of the moment provided for us by a consciousness that never stops measuring and comparing the condition that is passing through us to its meaning relative to the content of itself.
When we feel that sudden surge of fear it's because there is an instantaneous moment where something is telling us what does that imply oh no i better do something about that and we're addicted to it.
What god is my witness you'll see if you ever get along the road for there is something in your consciousness that actually goes looking to what you call your conditions in life.
So that upon looking at those conditions it'll have one reaction or another it'll either have a sudden okay everything's okay.
This is good or more likely oh something's teetering something shaking i better get in there and get busy trying to figure out how to deal with this fear and the fear doesn't exist apart from.
A consciousness that without our understanding it at all has in that moment written started and produced a horror story based on its interpretation its negative interpretation of a moment.
It tells you what that moment means and the minute that that consciousness starts defining the meaning of a moment that it can't know by the way suddenly i'm sitting there and there's the implication.
There is no such thing as a fearful implication without comparison see it how can i have a fearful implication of this moment without comparing it to a moment that i was secure in.
So no implication without comparison and no comparison of any moment without knowing in advance the meaning of that moment and what it means to them or to what i bring into that moment with me.
So something in me already knows the meaning of the moment doesn't it just let that sink in something in me already knows the meaning of the moment before the moment comes.
I ask you to see it is that possible a moment made in a relationship between heaven and earth between the entire cosmos whatever that may be at whatever level.
And this individual consciousness and there's this interaction and this nature believes it knows the meaning of that moment before it's happened obviously it can't.
So what is it that it knows then it knows what it tells itself the moment means so that it can scare itself and in scaring itself set itself up to try to control the condition.
Change it get a grip on it change that person and the evidence is overwhelming that not one thing that we've ever done in our entire life has done anything to change that with that fearful nature.
All we do is get involved with all kinds of human beings one after another and never realize that and i wanna i wanna get to this point excuse me.
All fears you wanna write something down all fears are old all fears are old no psychological fear exist without an unconscious nature unconsciously comparing what is to what it brought into that moment with it all fears are old.
There's no such thing as a new fear and yet everyday in one way or another it seems to us is suddenly here's this fear again here's this thing that i have to worry about what am i gonna do.
I'm not moment again i want to bring it up because the point of this talk is i want you to start catching this this this this.
This reaction.
Implication i'm gonna go to dinner with my family why am i nervous because something is implying.
I have to be a certain way or they need to respond to me in a certain way so there's an implication of your implication we live under the weight of an unending fearful implication to life it's there with everything.
What what what what am i why do i never stop thinking what are all the thinking about all that worrying what are you worrying about i'll tell you what you're worried about.
You're worrying about something that is implied to you that if you don't have a handle on what is about to happen or coming soon you don't have a handle on it.
You're going to lose something of critical value behind every single fear write this down if you want.
Behind every single fear it's motivating force to use those words is an implied loss of something that were identified with.
Behind every implication every fear is implied loss just think for a moment so i live with an almost unending stream of implications that imply,
If i don't do something i'm going to lose something of value and because i'm so caught up in that consciousness and it's a temp to control life.
I cannot see that in every moment i let one of these thoughts and feelings tell me who i am and what's the value i have lost my life in that moment and handed it over to a consciousness that cares nothing,
Anything other than the continuity of itself at the expense of the soul that could and should be developing through it.
This is my house i'm so used to letting this is what's hard to describe i'm gonna work at it to like succeed in some way or another i'm backing up to try to get out of the light so that my.
Images of two goofy if i said to you.
What's your route for a glass of wine and i said you know i'm something bothering me what is it i feel all the time a certain search sometimes i call it anxiety sometimes i call it stress sometimes i call it you know kick in the pants but i feel this search.
Is it a good search what's the nature that's what i'm saying to you i don't know but but they're suffering in it something is i feel compelled to act.
I feel compelled to worry i feel compelled to take flight or to fight i feel compelled.
In that moment will everybody feels that your friend says you say well they might not i've never realized that how constant it is what kind of life do i have if the actions that i choose to do i'm being compelled to take.
If the things that i'm driven to think about and worry over is it really me doing that thinking is it really me worrying what i know because i had this moment where i saw that this worry in this spirit it's killing me.
And it's killing me ostensibly in order to keep me secure i'm being buried by thoughts and feelings that are always applying i gotta go i gotta do i gotta get i gotta rush.
So that i can come to the end of that search and that's something and it doesn't make sense.
I'll tell you the truth the odds are your friend was a you know what maybe you should shrink but i tell you that what's actually happening is a beginning of recognizing that we've been living under the the the the direction of a dark nature and unconscious nature.
I cannot wait to look out and find a condition that it can then say oh no what what's the implication of that.
And then as soon as it got that implication and that search starts to move through this body and it does it brings with it the hormones all the glands kick in everything validates,
The sense that if i don't do something about what's implied i'm going to become the victim of a loss and i'm trying to get across one idea.
And that is the moment that i listen to and identify with any fear regardless of psychological nature i have lost the opportunity that that moment itself brought to me.
And what did that moment that presently we see as monsters because we see what we're told the moment means what is it that moment actually brings to me first,
Sorry for the light we haven't had much sun recently i would have pulled the blinds there is no implication in any moment no moment implies anything if you want to use words.
A moment is the revelation of all the constituent elements that have been brought into creation in that instant so the moment is there if you want,
Is a kind of ceaseless instrument to reveal the content of everything that is coming into that moment so it's not implying anything no moment.
Talk the moment doesn't talk to you it doesn't need to talk to you it's showing you everything that you need to be given in order to transcend the consciousness that that moment is actually revealing to you,
That's how dark things have gotten this unconscious nature dedicated as it is keeping us in the hands of something.
That needs to keep its attachments dependency and corresponding fear hidden it will imply that that moment has come to take something from us but if you've understood anything,
That i said the moment doesn't talk who's talking a consciousness dedicated to burying.
The revelation of that moment so that that consciousness could see through that moment the content of itself including its own attachments the dependency in the fear that spread through if you hear,
Voices talking to you about the moment and that's nothing see what is the word you were used to sorting out what the moment means.
How to free yourself from the fear by listening to the consciousness that produce the fear and in that conversation promising that it's going to bring an end to that conflict that's what the moment is showing you.
I show you what i speak.
Is what a moment has shown me and i just stretch it out a little bit so that you and i can take a look at this thing the anatomy of a fear the anatomy of the implication the anatomy of every single movement of consciousness because we are created to be aware of that consciousness not serve it.
That's the meaning of i don't know who you think you are but i'm the new owner of this house i am the new owner of this new understanding.
No i don't so much on it as i want to live with it and from it so that when i walk into the moment.
How's that event how's.
That particular instant when i walk in whatever it is that appears in there my relationship to those operations.
Is one that understands they are creatures content bodies whatever they are they are moving into that house and through it but they are not allowed to stay in my house once i bring the light of understanding to their existence.
No moment is unwanted without something in us knowing in advance that the moment is to be feared we cannot know in advance.
What a moment is to be feared without something attached to independent on a condition that entered that moment as i and when that i would not particular.
Sense of self is suddenly shaken to the core by something that threatens what it's clinging to.
Task in that moment is not to allow what it says this is the implication you have to do something to allow that search of stress and fear take us over the task is to consciously step back and observe what i've been telling you.
Just take that one idea why is my mind so busy telling me what i need to worry about.
See what i'm caught up in worry do i ever think to myself i've been worrying for four thousand years and i've never changed the fact that i'm still worrying my mind never volunteers that information because it is identified with the action and it's content it never it cannot see itself you and i can see our own mind.
We can understand that if i'm afraid it's an old fear and if it's an old fear that means it's dead.
And if it's dead then what in the name of god is giving it life you formulate your own questions your own inquiry into the experience.
So that through your willingness to enter into that moment rather than allowing what's the implication rather than allowing that thought that nature and sort of allowing that to take over you step back and you watch it step in and try to take over and then through your understanding of its actual nature you reclaim your house and you reclaim your right as a human being to be.
Truly fearless not because you're strong not because you're wise not because you're good none of that nonsense but because you have placed yourself consciously in a relationship with that which reveals to you the truth of yourself and the truth of yourself is being given to you moment to moment endlessly.
Live from that and you will know security that cannot be turned into a fear.
