The Journey Of Healing

Welcome.

Today we are talking all about the healing journey and all of the moving parts involved in the healing journey.

And interestingly,

Funny enough,

As I went to do this podcast as a live event,

I got locked out of my live event.

Nobody could hear me and I got completely locked out.

And I was like,

What am I going to do?

I can't get back into the live event.

But having been on this healing journey for quite a while,

I realized I had nothing I could do but just adapt to the situation.

And so I thought,

This sucks.

I feel sad I don't get to interact with my community today.

And I held that feeling with the feeling of how am I going to make this work?

I can adapt.

I can still cultivate something beautiful from what is here in this moment.

And just being able to hold that sense of abundance with that sense of loss,

With that sense of something was just taken from me.

I wasn't planning on this happening.

I don't know what to do.

I'm sad for those involved who aren't going to be able to hear the message of today or be in the session as they had planned.

But when life throws you something,

You have to respond.

And so my response is in the abundance of this podcast.

And just this deeper realization that healing is conditioned in the sense that we fear the lack.

We fear that we won't manifest abundance at the same time that we're healing.

And yet,

The healing and the adaptability is actually what creates the space to harvest our bounty.

And so let's begin.

And let's see what unfolds in the bounty of this podcast that was meant to be something different,

Where we were completely taken in a different direction.

And if you had signed up for the session and wanted it in real time in the live energy with me,

Let's see if we can just honor the space of the loss of that and also the space of you're here now.

And so nature and the cosmos and the divine and life teaches us so much about healing and the journey of healing.

Nature teaches us how to heal,

How to hold all parts.

The cosmos pour into us.

God,

The divine pours into us with enlightened wisdom or knowledge.

And it's really the coming together of what we're healing from in life and that wisdom that allows us to be wiser as we walk the path.

And walking the path is truly the hero's journey.

Because it's not easy to let go.

It's not easy to heal.

And it's definitely not easy to hold on to that sense of hope and peace in our body when we feel like we're suffering on the path.

When we feel like we know that there's stuff that we need to let go of,

But we don't know how.

What if we allowed?

What if we learned how to let go through an allowing,

Through an acceptance?

Because I don't necessarily think that it's that we let go of everything fully.

Each piece of our healing becomes a treasure to us.

We just let go of the parts that don't serve us.

The bondage,

The attachments.

And so we can think of it like leaves on a fall day.

You let go when it's time and the release gets to be loving if we allow it.

And just as the leaves don't fall forcefully from the tree,

Can we bear witness and allow and then cultivate a life where we live with,

We accept.

And so funny story,

Because we get to laugh on this journey as well.

Just as I was thinking about this metaphor of the leaves,

Just as I was thinking about this time together and what was going to come of it,

I looked outside my window and I saw somebody outside of their house shaking the base of the tree as if to shake all of the leaves off forcefully.

And I had a really big laugh about this.

I was like,

What is going on?

Why?

Why are you shaking the leaves off the tree like this?

And sure enough,

A family member came up to me and said,

Oh,

He just doesn't want to rake everything,

You know,

At the right time.

He wants,

He wants to rake it all now.

And it was such a metaphor for how we feel about healing sometimes.

We just want to get it over with.

When will it end?

I'm tired of healing.

I'm tired of this feeling of sadness or grief.

I miss the love.

I miss the person.

I miss the experience.

I miss what it was.

And,

You know,

We're in the season of fall here in Canada and the leaves are falling from the tree.

And next year,

I'm going to be in Canada.

And the leaves are falling from the tree.

And next year,

New leaves will grow in spring.

And so can we just be with what is here now?

And sometimes we're just like the man that I saw shaking the tree.

Sometimes we just want to,

You know,

Next season.

I'm done with this season of life.

Let's get rid of all the leaves now.

And as I say this,

I'm looking at the leaves actually right now on that exact tree that I speak of.

And half of the tree at the top is becoming bare.

There's still a few leaves up there.

But the middle of the tree is still abundantly full with beautiful yellow and brown leaves.

And,

You know,

It's actually pretty rare here in Calgary,

Canada that we actually get a fall.

Sometimes we skip fall and we go straight to winter.

Straight from,

It almost feels like summer to winter,

Which is a shock to your nervous system.

And it's poetic in a way because what a beautiful time to just adore what's here.

And,

You know,

Maybe we want to do the work in a certain kind of way,

But maybe life,

Maybe nature,

Maybe God or the divine,

However you identify,

Is saying,

Can we just slow it down?

Can you witness?

Can you observe?

Can you bear witness to the beauty of each falling leave?

The leaves,

The leaves on a tree.

Can you bear witness to what's going on inside of you?

You could think of the leaves as a metaphor for the feelings or for the thoughts,

For the experience as a whole.

And can we hold all parts of the experience,

The joy?

And maybe if we're not feeling joy in our healing journey,

Can we hold what's there?

Because maybe the joy is underneath the grief,

Is underneath the sadness.

And maybe if we hold the grief and the sadness,

Maybe the laughter will just come.

And maybe we're filled with the pain from the loss that we endured or the anger because we just want it back.

Or the anger from the injustice.

I never want that to happen again.

And how dare it happen to me?

Perhaps we miss the love of the experience or the love that a particular person brought to our lives.

Perhaps somebody hurt us really deeply.

Perhaps that person who hurt us deeply just took and took and took.

Or perhaps that person who hurt us deeply reminded us of the values of our heart or loved us in a particular way that we were craving.

It doesn't have to be one thing.

In fact,

It's usually not.

I haven't been able to find one experience where it's just one emotion,

Where it's just one thing,

Where the experience is just grief or just sadness.

And I think what I'm realizing more and more and more is that if there was no love,

There wouldn't be the grief.

And we tend to get a lot of our wounds from relationship because it's in relationship that we either self-sabotage or we lose ourselves.

We attach to people in healthy and unhealthy ways.

We fail to uphold our boundaries.

We might have porous boundaries in one moment and then we realize there's something wrong here.

Something about this doesn't feel right to me,

Doesn't feel right to my energy,

How I'm sharing it.

And then maybe after that,

We implement really rigid boundaries and we deprive ourselves again of the love that we want.

And the healing journey is the journey to equilibrium,

To taking the unhealthy ways of being,

The unhealthy ways that we attach to people and things and circumstances,

To the ways of being that caused us to lose our balance,

Caused us to lose our equilibrium when nature intended for us to hold this equilibrium in harmony.

And so our relationships play a really big role in how we deal with our emotions,

Relationships play a really big role and so does our sense of self.

And creating equilibrium is creating harmony and balance between the two of these.

But sometimes it's challenging because the lessons to bring us back to harmonious living can feel cruel,

They can feel unfair,

Just as chaos appears in nature.

And our attachments,

Especially the ones that we developed in our childhood,

Play a really big role in how we show up in the world.

And our patterns,

The way we show up in the world,

Our attachments,

These have to be approached with compassion.

We can hold compassion for our wounds and our attachments and our patterns while also working to change them.

While also working to evolve and to shift beyond survival because a lot of our attachments and patterns,

They served us at one point.

They helped us survive because part of us is still primal and we're not looking to get rid of that part.

We're looking to hold that part with as much grace as we hold the evolution,

As we hold the abundance.

And we want the beauty in our experiences.

We want to know what it's like to be on the path,

To be on the journey of evolution of our soul,

Of our mind,

Of our hearts and bodies.

And sometimes it takes really painful experiences,

Karmic experiences,

To see that beauty and to feel life more fully.

And it can feel like,

Why is this happening to me?

And some injustices are not deserved.

But we can find peace within.

And we're going to talk more about that.

But I want to spend a little bit more on attachment because we want to practice non-attachment,

Right?

This is what we learned through yogic philosophy and Buddhism as well,

Non-attachment,

Because we know that attachment leads to feeling bound and suffering because we're bound to either our ideas or a person or a desire that it needs to be this way.

We need to have it in this way.

It needs to look like this.

And that can create a lot of suffering and that can create a lot of suffering through expectation.

And some of my most painful experiences have been with attachment.

But what I found is when you study it,

When you study your patterns,

When you study your attachments,

You begin to see the beauty in releasing yourself from them.

And it's never perfect.

It's very imperfect.

And they actually say,

You know,

Attachments are addictions,

Right?

If we can think of them like that.

We are addicted to an idea.

We are addicted to a person.

We are addicted to a way of being.

And when you think of addictions therapy,

As an example,

They say that a person never fully heals from an addiction.

Like that addiction will always come up in their mind if they are,

If it crosses their path,

Right?

And so maybe healing isn't about getting rid of the scar.

Maybe healing is about learning to accept it,

Learning to love it,

Learning to see the beauty in it,

Learning to see how it's shaped your life.

And I think that's a really important part of healing.

Some of our deepest attachments can be emotional.

So energetic,

Highly energetically charged.

Because we had a certain dynamic with a parent or both,

Or other people in our family.

And this dynamic,

It's the first one that we have.

And so as we grow up,

We start to look for this dynamic within other people.

Because as babies,

We want that love of our caregivers.

We want the love of our mother and our father,

Or whoever our caregiver is.

We want to feel connected to them spiritually,

Emotionally,

Mentally,

Physically.

And so depending on how those relationships played out,

Which are never perfect,

Right?

They had their attachments with their parents.

There might have been life circumstances that prevented people from showing up in the way that they wanted to.

Because there's lots of injustice in the world.

Things happen.

And through our attachments,

We may have wounds.

And so,

You know,

Perhaps it takes people coming in and out of our lives to remind us of what's there.

What is up for healing?

What is up for me on this journey?

Because this is purpose.

There is purpose here.

There is purpose in this journey.

There is purpose here.

There is purpose in me discovering why I am the way that I am,

Why I show up the way that I show up,

Why I have patterns the way I do.

And if my patterns lead me to not accept healthy,

Loving connection and relationship in my life,

Then I'm going to want to know why.

And it's going to keep coming up for me because that's how smart our system is.

Our system will keep showing us things.

God,

The universe,

The divine will keep showing us things.

The universe will keep showing us things because the universe loves harmony.

And the universe wants us to live in a harmonious state.

And so I often connect a lot of attachments with this idea of soulmates.

And I want this to feel like a discovery for you because it is a discovery.

This question of whether we have soulmates,

This question of what is the healing journey?

Discover it.

Explore it.

Open yourself up to it in new ways so that you don't get stuck or bogged down with just kind of one way of looking at it or one idea.

Because just as we can hold all parts of what's going on inside of us,

We can hold the parts of this journey like we would hold a map in our hands.

Except for this journey,

We're writing that map.

We're putting our memories on that map.

We're able to look at it with a sense of reverence,

A sense of honor,

A sense of gratitude for what we've been able to accomplish in a state of thriving,

But also what we've been able to endure through survival.

And so coming back to this idea of soulmates,

We're going to use this as an example because I think some of the deepest wounds that we have at times can come from what happens when we're in deep soul connection or deep emotional connection because energy,

There's energy exchange there.

And though scientifically we know energy cannot be created nor destroyed,

There's this shifting and transformative states that we get into internally,

But we also get into this state and can get into this state with other people.

And that's how our interpersonal relationships are often affected because energy is emotion and as human beings,

We tend to be very driven by our emotions as well as our mental state.

And so how can we bring these two together to understand this journey of healing?

And so maybe you got very intermingled with another soul,

With another human being in deep relational intermingling.

Maybe you opened yourself up to them in a particular way and maybe they also opened themselves up to you,

But somehow you became intertwined.

Maybe your boundaries were too porous.

Maybe your boundaries were too porous.

But in this moment,

In this moment of enmeshment,

There was a point where perhaps both of your songs,

Both of your vibes became one.

Your way of seeing the world became enmeshed with their way of seeing the world.

Your consciousness merged with theirs for a moment or longer.

And for this moment or however long it lasted,

There was this deep sense of harmony and this deep sense of beauty,

But not something that maybe can last forever.

And because it can't last forever,

Because there's this transient nature to every moment that we have,

Perhaps this level of enmeshment caused great pain.

But not great pain because it wasn't a beautiful source of intimacy.

Great pain because we tried to attach to it,

Because we couldn't let it go.

Great pain because interpersonal relationships,

We want similar things,

We have similar values,

But we also have different values,

And different ways of being,

And different expectations.

Maybe in this relationship,

One person felt that they didn't want to give all that to you.

Maybe they felt like,

If I can't have you in the way that I want,

In the way that I desire,

Then I'm not willing to continue in this way.

Maybe in the relationship,

One person was becoming more energetically drained,

Because one person was giving more than the other.

Maybe both or one person started losing their sense of self,

Started forgetting who they are,

Because they really wanted to hold on to this relationship.

Because when we feel deep levels of intimacy,

Or love,

Or connection,

We crave that.

And the only way to make that sustainable,

Is through healthy,

Conscious relationship.

And so,

I actually like to see,

When you have this kind of interaction with somebody,

This is a soulmate.

To me,

This is a soulmate.

I think you can have many soulmates.

I think even pets can be soulmates.

I have a dog,

Her name is Willow,

And she's a soulmate to me.

I have a dog,

Her name is Willow,

And she's a soulmate to me.

And it's interesting,

Because in her story,

Which maybe I'll do a whole other episode on this,

But in her story,

She has similar wounds to me.

She mirrors similar patterns to me in her upbringing.

And,

You know,

The life that she has now,

And who she became,

Because of the love and compassion that entered her life.

But her life is sustainable in this way,

And the love between her and I,

As soulmates,

Is sustained in this way,

Because we've built healthy,

Conscious relationship.

She has a home.

There is a place for the love to continue,

And a place for the love to continue and thrive.

And with any soulmate,

Both patterns and states of evolution,

Or ways that you can learn from one another in how you can thrive,

Are going to be revealed.

I don't think it's one or the other.

I think when we think it's one or the other,

We get into really black and white thinking.

It's kind of like an all or nothing thing,

Where it's like,

We start labeling,

This is bad,

And this is good.

But maybe the soulmates who actually come to us and reveal our patterns,

Are actually the ones who are most valued to us.

Because they're the ones who,

If we see it,

And if we love,

And if we honor it,

Whatever the outcome was,

They're the ones who held that deeper space of sacrifice.

Because oftentimes,

These,

They call them karmic soulmates sometimes,

These karmic soulmates of cause and effect,

Because that's what karma is,

It's cause and effect.

And so patterns are also cause and effect.

And karmic soulmates tend to get a really bad rep.

But I think when we,

When we overlabel things,

Sometimes we lose the meaning.

We lose all that it can be,

Because so many things can be true at once.

This is known as dialectics in cognitive behavioral therapy.

Many things can be true at once on the healing journey.

And I also think that this can allow us to tap into a deeper source of wisdom,

And also a deeper source of compassion.

Because when we label,

You know,

Whether it be someone came into our life and revealed our pattern,

While also revealing theirs,

And maybe it ended in a very hurtful way,

In a way of injustice,

In a way that we have a really hard time letting go of.

But then I've also been in relationship where it's gone in a really positive direction.

Because we've been able to build conscious relationship,

Even though it started out karmic.

And so a lot of the spiritual community would say,

Oh,

If it's a karmic soulmate,

Stay away,

Like cut it and,

And,

You know,

Let it go.

But I actually think,

And I've seen,

How healing in relationship,

Healing with the person that you got the wound,

Is one of the highest forms of healing.

Because it goes beyond levels of healing that are beyond.

I've also talked about this in other podcasts,

Agape love,

Sacrificial love,

Unconditional love.

This is a form of unconditional love,

Being able to heal in that relationship.

And sometimes,

You give it to the divine,

You give it to God.

But I still think that there's something there.

And there's something that in society right now that we don't do.

And that is,

We don't have like a really good forgiveness,

Compassion relationship with God.

We don't have a really good forgiveness relationship with God.

We don't have a really good,

Compassionate process,

When we get hurt by one another.

We lose our self of sense,

A self of sense of self,

And we become really angry.

This person made me do it.

This person made me lose my self of sense,

My sense of self.

Or this person did this to me,

And it took away all my peace and my harmony and my contentment that I had in my life.

But the truth is,

Is it takes two to tango.

It takes two to dance.

And so there's something up for you in that interpersonal relationship,

And there's something up for them.

And how beautiful would it be if we were,

If we would take it back to our ancestors,

And how our ancestors did healing and community,

Which was really like coming together.

I forgive you.

I'm sorry.

I love you.

And it didn't have to mean that these two would become best friends or lovers or get married.

There wasn't that expectation.

It was a coming together.

We are of the same species.

And as Ramda says,

We are all walking each other home.

So maybe it's a good reminder for all of us.

If we were intimate with someone,

If we were intimate with someone,

Whether that be mentally,

Emotionally,

Physically,

And we hurt them in some way,

Maybe we overstepped our own boundary.

Maybe we self-sabotaged the relationship,

And we just feel like,

Well,

Is what it is.

But that can be hard.

It can be hard for the person who's seeking the forgiveness,

And it can be hard for the person who's waiting for it.

And so where could we show up differently?

And I'm not even going to answer it,

Because I think that it's something that we could explore,

That we could discover.

How can we do more of that?

How can we show up compassionately to give and seek the forgiveness,

But also not have so much expectation around it?

Let it come from a place of love and honoring of whatever that relationship brought.

And it just goes to show you how conditioned our healing process is.

It's conditioned by It's conditioned by beliefs that are helpful and unhelpful.

There's this belief that you cannot be abundant and manifest your next step if you are in this vibe of healing.

In the spiritual community,

There's a lot of conditioning around low and high vibrations.

We don't want to be in a low vibration.

We want to be more in a high vibration.

But all of it is part of the music of our universe,

Of our world.

And we are just microcosms of that.

And think of it like a song,

Right?

In music,

The bass drum is actually stabilizing and grounding.

And you can think of low vibration as stabilizing and grounding.

When we're healing,

Something is trying to slow us down so that we can be in the journey of healing.

It doesn't mean that we won't manifest abundance.

It doesn't mean that we won't manifest our dreams.

It means that we're able to make space while holding our dreams for a moment and allowing ourselves to go moment to moment without these fears that we're not going to get what we desire because we spend the time.

Because healing is a gift.

It's a gift to feel,

To feel love in our heart,

To feel gratitude,

To feel pain and grief.

It's a gift.

And it,

It shifts and changes who we are and who we become.

It allows us to hold more compassion for others,

Because we've suffered and we know they're suffering.

And you can find safe spaces to heal,

To be in this mode of healing where people can honor all parts of you and your journey as well.

There's a lot right now on social media and in the communities where it's like,

I'm going to find my tribe.

I need to heal in a place that's like cool and safe.

But oftentimes,

We end up going more towards like,

What is what is desirable?

What is cool?

What looks good on the surface?

And some of these communities are,

They don't feel safe to heal.

We show up to them and we're still performing.

And so it's,

It's,

It's,

It's,

It's,

It's,

It's,

It's,

It's,

It's,

It's,

We show up to them and we're still performing.

We're still trying to move away from the experience,

Trying to show people that we're okay,

Instead of going into it fully and completely and discovering what it holds for us.

Exploring it,

Taking off the mask,

Putting down the bags,

So that we can walk with what is going on inside of us.

And so I invite you to think about,

You know,

If you are in a healing,

If you are in different healing spaces,

Or if you're unsure,

I invite you to think about what's going to provide you that psychological safety so that you can fully be who you need to be moment to moment.

Meaning that you're,

You're able to hold what's happening inside of you.

And if you need to cry in that community,

You can cry.

If you need to laugh hysterically because you're just so nervous about what's coming up for you,

Then you can laugh and you can say,

I don't know what's going on inside of me right now,

But something funny is happening.

Right?

You need to feel safe in doing this work.

That's,

That's one of the most important things that I'd say about that.

Try different modalities,

Don't be afraid to try.

Blend modalities from spirituality,

Blend modalities from,

You know,

Physical activity,

Religion,

Mental health.

And that's a big one because especially being on the spiritual path,

It's a lot being on the spiritual path,

Uncovering your wounds,

Looking at your patterns.

This is big work This is big work and it can really impact our mental health.

And mental health has developed a lot of really cool tools that allow us to be able to mentally hold because our body is different.

Our body can hold a lot.

Our body can process many different emotions at the same time.

Whereas our mind tends to jump back and forth and likes to compartmentalize things.

The mental health community and professionals within it who've developed tools like cognitive behavioral therapy,

You can learn so much.

I learned a lot about self-compassion through the mental health professional community,

Because I think I realized over time,

As I was on my own healing journey,

That I had really good discipline and I was really good at staying disciplined at what I said I was going to do.

But I wasn't always kind on that journey to myself.

And what I noticed is I was actually creating more wounds because I lacked the self-compassion on the healing journey that I needed.

And now I feel like I'm in a place where I have that and it makes the journey more hopeful,

More bearable,

Where I can actually get back up after falling down.

Which is why I think,

You know,

Even today when all of that happened and I couldn't get into the session,

It was easier for me to adapt because I had that self-compassion.

Whereas before I thought self-compassion sounds kind of weak,

You know,

It sounds kind of weak,

Like I don't know if I'm going to be able to motivate myself with having self-compassion.

And so what does it actually look like?

It looks like when the thoughts come on your healing journey,

Which they will,

When the emotions come and you feel like I can't be here,

Like this is going to take me down,

It's saying to yourself,

It's okay that you feel this way.

That person did hurt you.

That person triggered your biggest wound.

Maybe they stuck a dagger in it,

You know,

And self-compassion is saying how you,

How you're feeling right now is justified because all emotions are actually justified.

It's our mind and our thoughts that charge that,

Like that further charge things up for us.

And so it's really our thought patterns that need to shift,

Our ways of thinking about the healing journey,

Our ways of thinking about what we're capable of doing on the path.

And so self-compassion might say,

You know,

Right now you really need,

You really need to cry because what that person did was hurtful.

And sometimes it says,

You really need to let go of that shame because that's not yours to carry.

That's a whole society's to carry,

Those beliefs,

That shame.

And then self-compassion is being with it,

Being with the emotions.

But we don't have to,

You know,

Force ourselves to suffer as soon as that we feel that opening inside.

And so this is,

I guess,

An emotional healing technique that I use is,

You know,

Maybe you cry for hours and then you feel this opening and you're like,

Okay,

I can see that there's an opening for new energy to come in.

And so maybe you do a meditation if,

You know,

If you're able to,

But it's recognizing when and when not is a good time to do that meditation.

Maybe it's going for exercise,

Going for a walk,

Moving your body.

Maybe it's a forgiveness practice.

And I have a really good forgiveness practice in matters of the heart.

So I encourage you to check that one out if you haven't already.

Maybe it's some EFT tapping and you're gonna,

You know,

Now that you've had a really good crying session,

You know,

You've released a lot of emotion,

Sat with a lot of emotion.

Maybe it's doing some EFT tapping around knowing you're worthy,

Knowing you're loved,

Releasing attachment.

There's so many good ones online.

And if you ever want to chat more about that,

It's been a really helpful tool for me because it connects the body and the mind and all of the different parts.

We can always chat more and I can give you some helpful people that you can go to for free who do this kind of work.

I use a lot of this work,

But I don't actually have videos on tapping or anything like that.

I'm not sure if I'll add that into my creations.

We'll see.

You know,

When there's prayer,

There's giving it to God,

Giving it to the divine,

Recognizing that through our connection with something greater than ourselves,

We can reflect on the journey and be held in that in that place.

You know,

And maybe it's the divine and God who gives us that energy to hold the compassion for that person.

Because I'm telling you,

There's been some people in my life that I thought I would never be able to have compassion for again.

You know,

And when we're in that state of anger,

That's all we see.

We just see red.

Or when we're in that state of sadness,

We can't see how we could hold compassion for them when we're holding all the sadness.

But I can tell you that over time in the healing journey,

I've been able to hold the gratitude with the grief.

I've been able to hold the love with the grief.

I've been able to hold self-compassion just as the greats of our time,

Buddha.

In Buddhism,

They speak a lot about compassion.

Compassion is like,

I would say,

One of the great foundations of Buddhism.

Or like Jesus.

Think of Jesus's story of unconditional love.

He was betrayed.

He suffered greatly.

He showed up in the world to do wonderful things,

And people did horrible things to him.

He wasn't seen for who he was.

He wasn't seen for what he did.

He wasn't seen for who he was.

And then he was crucified.

And yet in all of that,

He still held compassion.

And when we're able to do that,

There's resentment just goes.

It just doesn't exist in the space anymore.

And somewhere in holding the grief with the sadness,

With the compassion,

With the love,

The holding of all parts,

It starts to rebalance us and bring us back to a state of equilibrium.

And the journey of healing starts to just feel a little bit more magical.

Like,

Wow,

I can do that.

It's not only pain and suffering,

And not feeling like I have a way out.

It's not only this fear of loss or void,

That it's never going to come again,

Or that it's going to happen again to me.

And so where can we embrace the great mystery of it all?

Where can we lean not on our own understanding,

But start to discover the healing journey as this beautiful discovery,

Like a flower that blooms without force?

Where can we begin to see the people on our path as the ones who,

You know,

Saved us from that bear,

Saved us from going down any more paths,

Like the one that we've been on multiple times.

Even if the outcome was undesirable or unfavorable to us,

Where can we begin to see all sides?

Where can we begin to see the gifts that were given,

Even when it feels like this person that came into my life gave me light,

And they gave me darkness?

But what were they teaching me?

Because when energy is it's not you taking my energy and me taking yours,

It's connection that shows us things about our own energy,

And what's going on inside of us.

And remembering to be a part of it,

And being a part of it,

And being a part of it,

And remembering too,

Because there has been some great injustices,

And it's hard to say like,

You know,

How we can forgive for those.

But just remember that injustice belongs to the divine,

It belongs to God,

It belongs to the universe,

And how the universe was created.

Everything has a cause and effect,

This is what karma is,

The path of karma is understanding that everything has a cause and effect.

And the universe's goal is to bring everything into harmony,

Which is why sometimes we don't get what we want out of relationships.

But we don't have to keep abandoning ourselves,

We get to have this beautiful journey of healing while cultivating the life that we want,

While knowing that we're held,

We're held by something greater than ourselves,

That desires harmony,

Meaning it's working in the highest good for everyone involved,

Even when it doesn't look so.

You know,

And maybe what we believed in the past,

Whether that be about healing,

Whether that be about relationships,

Whether that be about ourselves,

Where can we come to acceptance and love as we let go,

But also embrace the truth and the reality because there is some harshness that comes with the truth when we swallow the truth,

But there's also a great deal of love,

There's a great deal of love that comes because even if we never have that person in our life again and even if we don't have the outcome that we want,

They never apologize for what they did to us,

Or the patterns of our childhood we feel like,

How do we get justice around those?

The love is there in that something came to you so that you would understand,

Something came to you so you would see your pattern and gave you the opportunity to shift it and change it and there's so much beauty in that whether no matter how much you lost there's so much beauty in that and love because that's like a universal kind of love it's like I love you so much that I can't see you continue walking down this path,

I can't I can't,

I don't want to watch you jump into cold water for other people anymore but not take care of yourself,

Or I don't want to see you hurt other people anymore so I'm going to show you what your pattern is because when you hurt other people you hurt yourself and I don't know any love greater than that and so as you digest the truth of whatever is coming up for you in your healing,

In your healing situation,

Know that there is love coming from something greater than yourself coming from something greater than yourself always and don't suffer in silence so I'm going to end this beautiful time together as we discuss the healing journey with seek support when you need it I can't stress that enough and I know it's really challenging because sometimes what we actually need is mental health support and we're afraid because it's so stigmatized we don't want to be sick we don't want to be like classified as being sick and you're not sick you're not broken so I just want to remind you of that but when things get overwhelming they can get really overwhelming really quick and you deserve better so if you ever find yourself in a situation where your spiritual community is not able to give you the help and support that you need or you know you're going to a gym and you're working out but the people around you can't support you in that way seek the help that you need and trust me when I tell you when your mental health your spirituality your physical health when all of that comes into balance and you were unafraid to seek that support you're going to thank yourself you know and I hope that you do you don't need to come thank me because just this listening and connecting and being here and showing up for yourself that gives me gratitude in all of the ways I feel the love and the energy from all of you all across the world I was looking at just all the people like from so many different countries that I just couldn't even imagine and so I just envision you doing your healing work and encourage you whatever's coming up for you whether that's the love that you need to give to yourself or the love or the apology that you need to give to someone else or seeking the support so that you're able to do that because sometimes the wounds keep us from doing those things I invite you to do it and I invite you to do it with loving energy as you embrace the truth of your journey have the most beautiful beautiful day