Welcome,
My name is Dr.
Piper Grimm and this meditation is for moments when anger or rage feels close to the surface.
I'd like to know before getting started that postpartum rage is not a failure,
It is often a signal of exhaustion or unmet needs.
Let's begin our practice by just taking a moment to get settled,
Get comfortable and find yourself in this present moment.
I invite you to take a steady breath in through your nose and a long exhale slowly through your mouth.
Finding your breath at whatever pace you need and in whatever way you need.
Let your eyes begin to gently explore your surroundings.
Notice any shapes,
Colors,
Light.
You are here and you are safe and when you feel ready,
I invite you to gently close your eyes or soften your gaze.
Notice if you can bring awareness to where you feel anger or rage in your body.
Perhaps you have to bring up a memory or a moment,
An incident that brings anger forward.
Perhaps you are in the moment right now and can feel it oh so present.
Where do you feel that anger in your body?
What do you notice about that feeling?
Can you perhaps see it,
Feel it?
Is there a temperature?
Is there a texture?
Just becoming aware of that,
Not having to do anything with it,
Not having to make sense of it,
But just having an awareness of it.
I invite you to place a hand there,
The space that you identified.
And if there is no space,
I invite you to place a hand where it actually feels safe for you,
Where it feels comforting for you.
And with your hand in this space,
I invite you to ask your body the question,
Is there a need?
What am I needing?
What am I longing for?
What would be helpful?
I invite you to silently repeat the affirmation and saying to yourself,
I see you,
I'm listening.
And just noticing what the anger,
What the rage is telling you.
Perhaps you hear something new or perhaps it's an old tape.
Maybe there's silence.
Silence is also information though.
And be curious,
What are you hearing?
What are you seeing?
Not forgetting your breath,
Allowing your breath to be slow,
To be intentional.
We are here not to push the anger away,
Not to make sense of the anger,
But simply to hear and acknowledge it.
And with your breath,
I invite you that on every inhale,
You remind yourself,
I can feel anger and still be safe.
And on the exhale,
I can respond instead of react.
On the inhale,
I can feel anger and still be safe.
And on the exhale,
I can respond instead of react.
This is a practice of acknowledging the unmet need,
The longings that fuel the anger and the rage,
While also being able to be responsive rather than reactive.
Allowing yourself to feel the anger and still be safe,
While also being responsive instead of reactive.
Allowing yourself to sit with this,
With this acknowledgement of the anger and rage,
Free of judgment,
Free of actually fixing it,
But actually being with it.
Taking one more breath here.
Knowing that you can return to this practice at any time,
From any place.
Acknowledging how you can hold your anger and rage with compassion.
Thank you for joining me in this practice today.
I hope you are well.
Take care.
