Divine Timing, Intuitive Healing

Welcome,

My name is Levi and today I want to talk to you about divine timing.

While this track is specifically speaking about divine timing from a loved one in the spiritual realm,

This can also include many other ways of divine timing.

So my mom,

Who has transitioned home into the afterlife on March 23rd of this year,

2025,

There has been many,

Many messages that I never thought I would see coming in so many different ways,

Shapes and forms,

So many complex motions around it.

But the divine timing is something that,

In particular,

That I didn't think I would see it as so profound,

You know,

So positive.

So my mom had been sick for quite some time,

Basically ever since I met her,

With end-stage COPD,

Which is a very,

A very bad lung condition.

It's where fluid builds up in the lungs and it gets hard to breathe.

People can choke on that.

There's many,

Many,

Many complications to it.

And then other things can definitely,

And most often do,

Fall in place as well.

So yeah,

This had been anticipated for quite some time.

So I had already experienced anticipatory grief,

Which is grief that you can actually see coming while someone is still living on earth.

So I had that for quite some time,

Along with other types of grief and loss,

You know,

Of our child,

My childhood with her,

My history with her,

Living most of my life without knowing her,

Et cetera,

Et cetera.

So when I made my move from where I was living before,

An 18-hour U-ride with my cat,

So just me and my cat,

To a new town where I didn't know anybody,

Not,

I didn't know anybody here.

So completely started fresh.

You know,

I was still in contact with her by then,

But shortly after I moved here,

I did have to make a really big decision,

And it was a very difficult decision.

Lots of different emotions tied into it.

And it's something,

It's a decision I thought about time to time,

But until I moved here,

I didn't really realize just how much I needed to make this decision,

How much I just needed to sever this cord,

But with love,

Right?

With love,

With gratitude,

With forgiveness,

And with the acceptance and the knowing that she did the best she could,

And she really did do the best she could with me.

And so at some point here in this new town,

She had violated my biggest boundary I had about three different times.

She did have borderline personality disorder,

Which I had helped her through that.

I had researched about it,

Right?

Well,

Basically studied it to learn how to help her better,

Learn how to be a better support to her,

Learn how to be that safe place because she did not have a safe person to go to.

The family that I'm also not connected to is,

Most of them are very toxic,

Judgmental,

Some are abusive,

Judgmental,

If I mentioned that already.

So she really didn't really have great support.

And so I chose to be that support for her.

As I said,

I studied this disorder,

And I came to a compassionate understanding of what it must be like for her.

Now,

Obviously,

I can't fully understand what it's like because I don't follow in those shoes,

But from what I've learned,

I could only imagine how devastating this disease is.

And so I had empathy for her,

Right?

I had sympathy for her.

I had love for her and compassion for her.

So I did my best ever since I met her,

Right?

And you know what?

I'm really happy with what I did and,

You know,

Recognizing now everything I did was enough,

You know,

And everything I did for me too in the relationship was enough.

And as much as there was chaos and dysfunction,

There was also love and compassion and companionship,

You know,

Little things that we could relate to one another,

You know,

Liking the same shows,

Liking the same crafts,

Like that kind of stuff.

So that ended up,

You know,

Being great.

But by the time I had to make this decision to leave her for good,

I really reflected on it for about a week before I did.

So in that week,

When I was deciding,

I made a brainstorm of what this might look like,

What I want this to look like,

Putting every single thought and feeling down on paper,

Not sending it right away,

Really making sure like that statement,

Right?

Is it true?

Is it kind?

And is it necessary?

And that statement is something I still live by to this day.

It's very,

Very important for me to live by that statement.

I don't all the time,

Obviously,

And I probably should be living by that statement a lot more than I am right now.

But you know what?

It's a work in progress.

And I could recognize that I have room to work on that.

And that's okay.

No one's perfect.

We all have flaws.

And,

You know,

Our shadow is a part of us.

Our shadow is not separate.

It's a part of us because we need our shadow to grow,

To work with,

To heal with,

To help reduce the ego.

So I finally got ready to write this letter.

And basically the letter was short.

It was simple because that's basically,

That's basically one of the tools I learned in studying about her disorder is letters and texts and whatnot need to be short and they need to be simple.

They need to have words like,

For example,

And instead of but.

So a little,

A little kind of side note there.

So I made sure she knew that it's nothing personal.

I truly,

Truly love her.

I will always love her that I have forgiven her a long time ago that she hasn't done anything wrong per se,

But I did state in the letter,

My boundaries are continuously violated.

And with these specific boundaries being violated,

I do not feel safe.

You know,

The person she was connecting to,

I wasn't okay with that.

And I said,

I don't feel safe.

I need to do what's right for me.

And I need to let you go.

I stated in the letter,

How hard she worked on herself,

How she turned her life around,

How I appreciate our time together and our growth together and our healing together,

How I will hold our memories close to my heart and that I will never forget her.

And I put a note in stars stating,

You have a very kind heart and you are a good person.

Please keep this letter to remind yourself,

You are a good person.

So I said,

Goodbye.

I said,

I love you.

I'm grateful for everything.

You'll always be with me.

So what I did next was I put no return address.

So she can't see exactly where I'm living and no one else can either,

Just in case.

And I sent her the letter through mail.

And so after that,

It was done.

It was,

It was completely done.

So the next few days I started meditating and reflecting on what this experience was like for me.

And it was so profound that like there was complex feelings,

Like there was grief and loss on one hand of having to let go,

But never really having her in the first place,

If that makes sense.

There was grief of letting the one parental figure in my life go as well and not having that.

There was grief that there was a feeling that that wasn't even there to begin with.

Like I was the parent and she was the child,

Which I chose.

I chose that.

There was a lot of grief there.

And to be able to see that for what it was to let that go and to recognize my new start in my new town had a lot to do with writing this letter,

With severing that tie.

And once I could see after a while of her not being in my life,

I could actually start to see the amount of healing that took place.

I mean,

I was already healing before and I was already working on my healing before this,

But the amount of healing that I've done since I severed this tie was surprising.

It was profound and it was deep.

It ran deep.

And I recognize that,

You know that quote,

Right?

You cannot heal.

And this is spirit bringing this through for me.

That quote,

You cannot heal in the same place that you got sick from or sick in or however they word it.

And that quote really stood out to me.

And I could just see in so many ways how by severing that tie,

I was no longer limited.

I was no longer fixated and ruminating on this relationship.

There was no more studying.

There was no more preparing an entire dialogue of when my mom phones me or when I phone my mom.

This is the potential stuff that might happen.

This is the potential statements that I may use.

These are the words that I may have to switch.

There was no more of planning this out and recognizing that when I had to do this,

When I chose to do this in the past,

I didn't really fully understand how exhausting that was.

So in seeing all of this and I continue to see more,

I was just stunned to see how much healing had taken place after severing this relationship.

Now on the actual day that my mom passed and I just knew from intuition,

I am not connected with any other family on her side.

So this is solely based on my intuition.

So I'm sitting in my living room in my apartment that I'm in right now.

I'm sitting on the couch and all of a sudden I'm feeling like my heart is racing and there's chest pain and I'm sitting there like,

Oh my God,

Like what's going on?

And my heart just continues to like pound and it's like chest pain,

Like pain,

Like you wouldn't believe in the heart center.

And all of a sudden I just knew what was happening and I'm like,

Oh my God,

Mom.

And I even said out loud,

I was like,

Oh my God,

Mom,

Because she's all the way like more than 18 hours away from me,

Like probably like,

I don't know,

22 hours away from me.

And I'm thinking like,

Oh my God,

Mom.

And I could start to see her and feel her presence.

And so from the heart,

I next,

I feel panic.

And then I feel like my lungs are starting to close in on me.

So I'm feeling all of this and I'm feeling the anxiety and the fear.

And then I start to feel my toes go cold,

My feet go cold,

All the way up to my legs go cold,

The torso all the way up to the stomach go cold,

The stomach all the way up to the neck go cold,

And then the rest of the head to the crown chakra go cold and then nothing.

And then I call out next and I say,

Oh my God,

Mom,

Did you just,

And I couldn't even finish the sentence.

Like I just,

I couldn't even finish the sentence out loud.

I just,

Oh my God,

Mom,

Did you just,

And she knew what I was saying,

Of course,

You know,

Spirit always knows.

We can't hide anything from spirit,

Right?

And,

And my mom gave me a sign just then.

And she said,

Midnight,

Midnight is her cat.

And it was exactly in her voice,

Midnight.

And that was her sign like,

Yes,

This just happened.

So while it was traumatic,

I was very grateful to be that safe vessel for her.

I have never had that happen ever in my life.

You know,

I have had experiences with spirit since I was about four,

But I've never had that happen.

And I mean,

I could sense,

I could sense relief in the air,

As traumatic as it was,

There was also relief,

But throughout the rest of the day,

She was continuing to send me messages.

And I said,

And I still couldn't believe it at,

Like,

I went back and forth between like,

I can't believe this to like,

Oh my God,

This actually happened.

And so I said,

Mom,

If that was you and you were using my body as a vessel to cross over,

Send me images of a horse to confirm this.

So,

So anyway,

I put YouTube on,

Right?

And I put some healing music on the TV.

And of course it's one with ads.

So there's just healing frequencies.

That's it,

Right?

Just colors on the screen,

No images.

An ad comes on,

There's a horse.

And so I'm like,

Okay,

Yeah.

So I am not making this up.

This is real.

She's giving me confirmation right here,

Right now.

That night she comes to me in a dream.

Everything is significant.

Everything relates,

Makes sense to a T.

And I'm thinking like,

Oh my God,

Like this actually happened.

So this is where the divine timing really,

Really comes in.

I mean,

This is all divine timing up to here anyway,

But this is really what it comes down to.

Really what I want to talk about now.

So the next day I'm already set up to meet with an elder from one of my sacred circle groups.

And we were discussing a week before getting my spirit name.

So anyway,

We get chatting and she says,

So when a loved one passes over,

They're supposed to give you a gift.

And immediately I'm thinking like,

Oh my God,

It's my spirit name.

And sure enough,

She goes,

And I'm feeling like your spirit name is ready to come through.

And your mom is wanting to give it to you today.

And I had no idea,

No idea that having that profound gift would come from my mom.

Like having a special moment between the two of us,

Very sacred,

Very special,

Very magical.

I couldn't even imagine.

So my mom comes through this meeting with my spirit name,

Makwa Mishkeke Anini,

Bear Medicine Man.

And I'm like,

Oh my God,

It makes so much sense because we are both very connected to bears.

Black bear is one of my spirit animal guides.

In fact,

It's the highest one for me.

And I tend to go on the ladder.

My intuition gives me a ladder of like the top spirit animal guides and then kind of like that kind of thing.

And so the bear thing made sense and I'm also a healer.

So this all made perfect sense.

And I'm thinking like,

Oh my God,

It was just so amazing.

And so this divine timing,

This divine timing that took place,

It had set me up for so many other great things like learning my language,

Not just for her and for us and for me,

But there was also some component of doing it for the collective.

And I still don't know why,

But I know it's for the collective as well.

And so I started learning Ojikri,

Which is our language.

We are also from the wolf clan,

My Incan.

Wolf is another one of my spiritual animal guides and hers as well.

And so all this stuff comes through,

Beautiful messages from my mom comes through.

And I just,

Oh,

I just,

I will never shake that feeling of just so much magic in the air,

So much magic in the heart center from a loved one that I've never been able to experience that before.

And so for quite some time,

Actually up until today,

I had received little tiny bits here and there of like little tiny bits of messages with my mom,

You know,

Communicating,

You know,

I am a medium.

I am a psychic.

I do communicate with spirit regularly.

I've never really had any issues communicating with my grandparents.

You know,

Communication with my best friend has gotten a lot stronger now,

But it felt like it was taking forever to communicate with my mom.

And I had even questioned my own gifts.

Like,

Is there something wrong with me?

Right.

Is my intuition like kind of broken right now?

Is it my grief?

But then I connect with my grandparents and I have no problem.

I'm like,

Okay,

I have some stuck grief and there must be an element to my mom's grief as well because spirit does grieve.

When they cross over,

They do grieve.

They do have to work through things.

They do have to heal.

Just because they're on the other side doesn't mean everything's like perfect right away and they're all happy right away and they can still have their little down moments.

They're not,

They're just not like the dark and negative down moments here,

Like here on earth.

They're a little different,

But they can get sad.

You know,

They can get sad.

So,

So,

You know,

There was times where I got messages like,

I'm,

I'm not ready.

I'm not ready to talk right now.

I have a lot of work to do.

I have a lot to process,

But I need you to know that I'm here and I'm asking for your forgiveness and I'll be back soon and I will be in touch.

And so that also made me reflect.

Have I truly forgiven my mom?

Because I thought I did.

Have I truly forgiven my mom?

So I went through all that loss and grief again and the answer was no,

Not completely anyway.

In fact,

I don't know if there's ever going to be completely,

But I kind of sensed that there was a lot more forgiveness that I needed to work on than what I had originally thought.

So I started to work on that forgiveness piece,

Really,

Really dug in deep and I managed to,

I managed to pull more,

More forgiveness to the surface and in many different ways.

And,

And it really started to,

It really started to release a lot of,

Um,

A lot of the,

Uh,

Childhood,

Um,

Loss and expectations.

And that's where it was deeply rooted in me,

The loss of childhood.

So I did a lot of inner,

Uh,

Inner family work,

You know,

Inner child work.

Right.

And I believe I've come to a place where I've had,

I've been able to cultivate as much forgiveness as I possibly can to the extent where I am very satisfied with it.

And it's also been able to allow me to finally,

Fully communicate with her now,

Fully be able to feel her presence and to be able to feel my own emotions fully,

To be able to sit there and,

You know,

With her and fully feel any,

Um,

Any pain,

Any sorrow,

Any guilt,

Any,

Any of those emotions,

Um,

To be able to be okay with that and,

And recognize like that it's my time to feel these things.

And I don't have to be the strong one anymore.

She's taken care of.

And I'm also taken care of.

I'm always taken care of,

You know,

By the universe,

But I get to take care of me.

And that was another reminder from spirit.

Right.

So anyway,

I'm sitting here today,

Which is where I,

I bring up this track and,

You know,

I'm,

I just happened to do a full deep cleansing of the apartment yesterday and today,

Because a new tenant is coming in.

Thankfully,

Because it's just,

It's going to be a better fit for me.

Um,

I can feel it.

It's going to be a much more positive space,

This new tenant coming in.

So I am very happy that someone new is coming in and I'm very much looking forward to the positive changes ahead.

So I get to sit down,

I'm getting to relax.

I just did my smudging.

I just did my healing and I go through spirit just told me to go through my old,

Uh,

Mediumship books,

Right.

That I had written down letters.

Like I have,

Uh,

I don't even know how many I have right now.

And so I was going through letters from spirit.

And of course I put the names on all of them or who jumps through.

And so I'm putting them all in piles.

Like this one's mom,

This one's Courtney,

This one's Jack,

This one's grandma and grandpa,

Et cetera,

Et cetera.

So I'm putting them all in piles,

Right.

And,

Uh,

All of a sudden I feel a tap on my head.

Um,

I mean,

I,

I get tapped and touched in many different ways and places,

But,

Um,

Usually the,

The feminine presence,

Uh,

Are,

Are on the head somewhere.

We're on the face somewhere,

Usually on the left side for me,

Everyone's different,

But it's usually feminine on the left and masculine on the right.

Um,

For those in between,

It's usually like either in the middle of a forehead or the middle of the back of the head.

So that's kind of like how spirit indicates,

Like,

I am neither gender.

I am both gender.

I am this gender.

I am that gender.

That's how they show me anyway.

Um,

It's kind of cool.

So I have my own little unique little system of like,

Wherever spirit taps on the body,

Whatever side I know who's who.

So it's like,

Okay,

That's helpful.

Thank you.

So,

So yeah,

I start to feel this tap in the head course on the left and,

Uh,

I just sit there.

I stop what I'm doing.

I listen,

I sit down,

Make my body comfortable,

Loose,

Relaxed,

You know,

Make sure I'm not tense.

And I close my eyes.

I feel I fully listen,

You know,

Not just listen with my mind's eye,

But I listen with my body.

Right.

And I can feel her and she's coming through.

Right.

And I'm,

I just know,

I just know this is not going to be just another tidbit.

This is going to be a full on message.

And sure enough,

She gave me a full on message.

Today was the first day I have been able to fully communicate with her.

And so there was messages about,

You know,

Just the messages that she brought through were everything I wanted to hear from her.

And I never did everything I wanted to hear from her so badly came through today.

There was some advice given and,

And spirits telling me basically to kind of skim the surface with this message,

Because sometimes spirit,

When spirit says to skim,

Like skim the surface with the message that usually indicates to me.

And I feel like that's what's indicating this to me right now as well.

This message is for you,

Save this message for you.

So that's what I'm doing.

So yeah,

There was messages about everything I wanted to hear from her.

And I never did,

You know,

Helpful advice,

Really funny jokes.

If you are not aware that spirit does swear and can swear,

They definitely do.

And they definitely can.

And there was some of that in a funny way.

It wasn't in a,

It wasn't in a negative energy way.

It was in a funny way,

Of course,

You know,

Spirit is love language,

Right?

Light language.

And that can include swearing,

Because it is humorous.

And,

And to be able to laugh with my mom,

And to just have that light side,

And not expect that laughter to quickly turn into something else that's not wanted.

That was also profound,

Like,

To have this communication,

Be healthy,

And joyful,

And supportive.

I mean,

It was just magical.

It was absolutely magical.

And so a lot of the messages too,

That came through were like,

You know,

On the lines of like,

You can do this,

Like,

You know,

Things about,

You are ready for this,

Stuff that's coming up,

That is going to be challenging.

And I don't really know exactly what it is,

Because I'm not supposed to know right now.

But something is going to be challenging,

That's going to be coming up pretty soon.

And it's,

I have a feeling it's to do with dark energies in another,

Quote unquote,

Family.

I don't consider the other two people family,

But anyway,

Something dark with them,

And the other two energies are still on earth.

There was a message of like,

I'm fully prepared.

And it's amazing just hearing that,

And not doing anything with that,

But just hearing it and believing it.

Profound.

And so all of this is setting me in motion,

Like setting me in a place where I have,

I mean,

I've already gained a lot of confidence and a lot of self-worth.

I've already come to love myself,

But this has just amplified every single bit of healing that I've done in my life.

Every single bit.

This has amplified it,

Like times 10.

And some of these things feel like they might take eternity,

But it's here.

It's arrived.

Also,

There's something significant about that.

It's arrived for the collective.

I'm just putting that out there.

Take it or leave it.

But that feeling of I'm ready,

And not actually having to prepare,

But just knowing what to do when this,

That comes is profound.

I am fully ready and capable of anything.

I am fully in tune with divine timing.

I am in alignment with my soul's purpose,

With my soul's destiny.

These are affirmations I'm being called to pull through as well,

Not just for me,

For the collective as well.

And I'm just grateful for the magic,

For the divine timing.

No matter what emotions arrive,

No matter how the shadow,

The ego pokes through,

Divine timing is perfect in every way,

Shape,

And form.

Absolutely perfect.

So I'm very grateful to have this experience.

I'm very grateful to have these gifts.

I am grateful for my shadow self and my ego self because they are things,

They are aspects that are a part of me and in me that I choose to use for my highest good,

For the next big thing,

For the purpose of continuing to create and manifest and birth new things into my life for the highest good.

I hope you found this track insightful,

Informative,

Helpful.

If you have any feedback,

Feel free to mention in the comments.

If you have any questions,

If you have any similar experiences,

Feel free to comment as well.

Feel free to send me a message.

It is a pleasure to play with you today and to speak with you.

I appreciate you listening.

I wish you a blessed day,

Evening,

And until next time,

Much love and gratitude.

See you soon.