On Unfolding And Becoming Oneself

Hello everyone!

Today is going to be a very,

Very interesting topic for me currently that I'm going through.

It's following the path of doing what really needs to be done in this world.

And as I talk to you,

I'm also having some tea,

So please,

Please,

Please join me.

Feel free to make yourself some tea as well and come with me to talk a bit about all of this beauty of the path of healing and becoming oneself.

When I first started this path,

And I bet you also did,

I started by following different gurus and different teachers and all of that.

And while there's a beautiful,

Beautiful energy about following somebody's teachings,

There's also no edge,

No bottom for what that is.

Because you can keep being a disciple for as long as you want and keep seeing divinity in another person and not in yourself.

But that will take you some time.

That will take you some time.

And honestly,

God knows how much it's going to take you.

Because you just chose to be there.

You just chose to be a disciple,

To be a good disciple.

There's nothing wrong with that.

There's nothing wrong with that.

It should be like that in every beginning of your path.

You should be with a spiritual teacher.

You should be following some teachings and some guided meditations.

Because at the beginning,

You don't know how to do these things.

This is very new.

You have to have some help,

Right?

But then,

I guess at some point,

You do come to realize that,

Okay,

So now I need to do something with my life.

I want to do something.

I want to be freer.

I want to be myself.

And it can be through actions.

Like,

Okay,

So for me,

I'll just talk about my own case.

So,

As I started doing the healing work,

Of course,

It started with working through all of the things that had happened in my life.

A lot of pain will come up and then I will just understand it and let it go.

And a lot of the journey was letting go.

It was not about healing anything.

It was not about going into an incident or situation and revisiting it.

And I know there are people out there who teach to go and revisit the incidents that had happened in your life.

But that's so not.

.

.

It's not the truth,

Okay?

Don't do that.

Do not do that.

The past is past.

And just like what they say,

El pasido pasado,

You know,

It has gone.

It is dead.

It is behind you.

What can you feel right now?

What do you want to feel right now?

And what does that tell you?

What does it show you about yourself?

It took me a long time to accept.

It took me a very,

Very long time,

Let me tell you.

Of course,

I have loved the people who've hurt me because that's what I heard as well.

Love the people who've hurt you.

Forgive them.

Keep on sending prayers of love to them every time you think about them in a bad way.

Of course,

You're going to think about them in a bad way.

Why don't we just be honest with ourselves?

It's not easy when you're hurt.

It's not easy when somebody did something really harmful,

Abused you in your childhood or was mean to you.

It's not easy.

So it is very normal to be mad,

To be angry.

And I would suggest that you first accept whatever you're going through because I used to have severe anxiety because I haven't accepted what had happened to me.

I just wanted to let it go and not have to do anything with it at all.

I didn't want to go inside there.

I didn't want to feel anything.

I just wanted it to go.

I just wanted it to go.

And that's fear.

And I understand some of these things are really hard to deal with.

But at the same time,

You are here for that.

Why did you go through that?

Because you are courageous enough and you are big enough to take it.

That's why.

And once you find that divinity within yourself,

Nothing can stop you.

I mean,

I used to think that I had to fix something about whatever happened.

But there's nothing to fix.

Just accept it.

I accepted my feelings.

I said,

You know what?

Those people did wrong to me.

And that's not okay.

And it is not just.

And I deserve this and that.

And I just stood with myself for the first moment in my life because all of the spiritual teachings,

As I've understood them,

Was like,

Okay,

So just let them be or have compassion and all of that.

But for me,

From my own perspective,

I never felt my feelings.

I never let myself go in the correct sense of the word.

Like really go for it and sob and let it out.

And some of us have that problem as well,

That we don't have that capacity to carry our own emotions and feelings.

And it's okay.

But I learned.

I learned to carry them.

And they were the toughest feelings ever.

They were the most outrageous feelings.

But still,

I carried them with wisdom.

I carried them with courage.

I looked them dead in the eye.

And all of the things,

The scenarios,

The stuff that I used to go and revisit in the past,

Trying to fix something or pretend it didn't happen,

None of that worked.

What worked is I listened to my own feelings.

I accepted whatever story I was hearing in myself.

And then I moved on.

I just decided to give that to God.

I didn't move on,

So to speak.

I just let it go.

I let go of that definition in me.

The definition of,

Oh,

I am a victim of whatever so-and-so.

Or I had this and this.

I gradually started to let it go.

I gradually started to no longer identify with it because I was so sick and tired of that story.

I was like,

You know what?

I've suffered long enough with this.

I'm not going to carry this anymore.

And magically,

You're going to start to notice that the story doesn't come back as it used to.

And also,

You're no longer afraid of it.

If it comes back,

You're just like,

Okay,

Whatever.

Because you know that that's just the ego and you're not the ego.

You're not the ego.

In the ego,

There's nothing to do with it.

You just let it be.

If it came,

Well,

Then it came.

Let it be.

It's like a cloud.

And the more you learn about this letting go moment,

You no longer try to control the flow of thoughts in your head because that's one of the biggest teachings that I really,

Really,

Really appreciate is that I no longer go inside my head and try to stop myself thinking about something.

The more I do that,

The more I know that I feel insecure.

The more I know that I'm embodying the insecure one instead of the trustful one,

The one that's courageous.

Because when you're courageous and you see something that's not yours,

You're not going to take it and you're never going to kneel down to take it because you know who you are.

You're grounded.

You're in your center.

You're in yourself.

But when you're insecure or in your off-center because you've been eating some bad food or been hanging out with some people that are not serving your higher purpose,

Your highest good,

Then you're off-center.

Then you're imbalanced.

So you tend to go into those holes of the ego.

So just trying to understand everything you're going through and knowing yourself,

Knowing thyself,

That's very important.

And the more you start to let go of all the shit that you've been carrying,

And I really mean it,

All the shit,

All the drama,

All the shit that doesn't help,

You know,

Grudges with people.

Of course,

You're not a hateful person.

Of course,

But let that go.

You know,

You think about,

Thought about some,

Let that go.

You don't have to control it.

You don't have to say,

Oh no,

But I am a good person.

Let me love them.

Don't love anyone.

Don't try anything.

Let everything go and be in the beingness of yourself because something magical will happen.

Just stay there and be silent and be the one who's listening and not the one who's talking.

That's the most important part of it.

As Asha Nayaswamy said,

There are two people in your head.

One of them is talking and the other is listening.

I bet you are the one who is listening when you're doing your meditations,

Right?

Because you are not the person who is talking.

And if you start to be the one that's talking,

Then you have started to play with fire.

You have started to play with something in your head.

You started to toy with it.

But when you're just in the observing one,

All of a sudden,

Nothing just,

Everything just passes,

Nothing hurting,

Nothing is perplexing.

It's all just good.

So it's very important to embody that presence in yourself.

And the more you come back to the presence,

The more you stop to fight whatever is arising in your head.

There's nothing to conquer.

There's nothing to transcend.

You just come to this center of yourself and being in your center means that you are just here.

You're just here.

There's nothing else.

Just say,

I am here.

Once I was really weary,

Very unbalanced.

And I said,

I am here.

I am here.

Whatever is happening in my head right now,

I am here.

I don't have to go in there and try to fix it.

And then I saw it changed my myself.

That little mantra,

I am here.

I know that I am here.

It has changed everything.

And the more I started to let go of that,

The more something deeper started to come in,

Which is myself,

My deep self,

Which is the one who is inspiring me to do the actions that I really want to do.

Instead of ruminating about some stuff that really don't help me in anything.

Instead of living in the past or in the future,

I am now doing something that's wonderful and meaningful.

And I am just embodying my truth in every moment.

I am working on myself in the most magnificent way.

And I am showing up every day and doing the work.

And the only work that I do is letting go.

There's nothing else.

I don't even do affirmations anymore because I don't feel like I need them.

Myself is just there all the time.

Myself is here.

She knows what are the right things to do,

The right things to say,

The right answers.

And I used to really think that I have to wait for divine timing to do stuff.

But I've noticed something.

I've learned something very lately.

That divine timing is not but something that humans made up so that they can understand the reasons behind things not happening in their lives.

But the truth is,

Divine timing,

When you say,

Oh it's not happening because it's not divine timing,

You're actually saying because in the cosmic world there's no time and there's no space.

There's no time and space are just illusions basically.

And quantum jumping and quantum jumping to other realities means that you've upgraded yourself and you transformed yourself.

When you quantum jump,

What you're doing is you have made,

You have done the work through yourself.

You have done the work.

You've erased a lot of pain from the definition of who you are because you used to believe that you were broken or that you were somebody who was a victim or that you were somebody who was a bad person,

Whatever you were believing.

Now that you broke away from that definition about yourself,

You have quantum jumped.

Now you are ready to take care of newer realities that you've never imagined possible for you.

And I know this sounds crazy,

But the moment you jump from a definition that you used to carry to another one,

Your life basically shifts.

Your energy shifts.

The people you attract in your life shift.

The partners you will attract shift.

The job opportunities,

The financial abundance,

The circumstances you come through,

The synchronicities will happen furthermore.

Your dreams will be more vibing and more telling about what's going on.

Your perception will be much more sharper and your concentration is even better.

And as you quantum jump,

You're also going to start to notice how you have an infinite potential for growth.

And that is something to look into because the moment you notice all of these unconscious patterns about yourself,

That now you've known what they are,

And now you took notice of them consciously.

And now when they come back,

You refuse to go into those definitions.

You just stay and remain in your place.

Not toying with them and not trying to avoid them or fix them.

Just staying in your place as the observer,

Knowing that you're already there.

You're already your highest,

Best self.

And when that happens,

Gradually you start to ascend.

And gradually you start to embody your soul.

And your soul will start to take the command.

And the less,

The more you progress on this path,

The less ego you have about yourself.

Because it starts to fill.

You start to live in your soul and not in your ego.

And that's very important.

That's really,

Really important.

And then,

Of course,

You will start to do actions from your own soul and not from your own ego.

Not because you want to manipulate so-and-so or have so-and-so as a friend.

But you are actually just acting on your highest good.

You're following the voice of passion,

The voice of excitement within your heart.

And that is the truth of who we are.

We have always had God within us.

We have always had God within us every single moment of the day.

But when we say in divine timing,

It's going to happen in divine timing.

What we say really is,

It's going to happen when I work on myself.

And I am truly ready to receive that energy.

Because I am not ready yet to receive that energy.

And even if I receive it,

I wouldn't even notice it.

Because I am not on that wavelength.

It's like it's a vibration.

I need to tune into the vibration of the thing I'm calling into my life.

And if I am not tuned into it,

Even if it shows up,

I'm not going to see it.

So there's a huge,

Huge understanding there for me.

It has opened so much,

So much potential for understanding.

And also,

It's opening me on a cosmic,

Very beautiful cosmic perception of this world where we just keep on ascending.

And we're just souls traveling.

And we don't have to grab onto anything or anyone.

We are in ourselves,

The divine itself having an experience.

And it's just wonderful.

It's really wonderful.

And I hope you are,

I hope this helps you.

Really,

I really hope this helps you in your ascension journey.

I hope you grow and evolve to know your best self and fully embody it as you become the full potential of who you are.

Thank you so much for listening.

And I will see you in another episode.

Take care.