🎵 Knowingness and knower is the same thing that is the field at the back okay and that is separate from the mind.
That is why you can see the thoughts coming up in the mind.
So who is seeing the field of knowingness or knower?
That is separate from the mind not equal to the mind.
If it was.
.
.
Yeah It cannot be equal to the mind.
If I can see the phone means I'm separate from the phone.
Yes,
But I can't see my own self.
Do you get that?
So if they were one then there would be no distinction.
The knowingness would not be able to see a thought come up or a feeling arise and go.
But the knowingness knows that a thought came up.
Knowingness knows now there's a good feeling.
Oh now there is not a good feeling.
So the knowingness is separate from the mind.
Super clear?
Okay,
Now you tell me you're talking to me.
You're speaking to me.
Do you know that the lips were moving the head was nodding?
Yes?
Yeah?
Yes.
Do you know?
Right now.
No right now.
Right now.
While you're talking to it.
Right now.
So I'm conscious that I'm talking to you.
I'm seeing you through my knowingness.
And yes my hands are moving while I'm talking to you.
And there are thoughts in the mind.
Can you see that?
Yes,
I would say yes.
Yeah.
Yeah.
So now the knowingness knows this entire field.
Now you are there.
There's nothing to struggle.
It's not very big.
You're expecting it to be very different.
It is not different from our everyday thing.
Yes?
It is very simple that that knowingness is always there.
I forget that I am the knower.
I think I am the body or I think I am the mind.
I don't understand that I am the knower of the body,
Knower of the mind.
Got it?
Now I have to make it a practice.
Because so far we have been doing it in a different way.
We are lost in the mind.
We are lost in the water.
So it has to be a constant effort for me to make it a part of myself.
Well it's not even an effort.
It's just not getting engaged in thoughts,
Not getting engaged in the feelings.
That's it.
Yeah in fact there's more effort required to jump in and get engaged.
I'm saying don't get engaged.
Just be there.
Stand there.
Know that the feeling has arisen.
Anger has arisen right now.
I don't need to jump in and become one with it.
A thought has arisen to say this to her or be nasty to him.
I don't need to jump in and become one with this thought.
I am the knower.
That was my next answer.
Sorry.
Please catch me.
Yes.
I am the knower.
I am the knower of this thought.
I am the knower of this feeling.
It always starts like that.
First you know but you jump in.
You become one with that thought or with that anger and then you blast.
You create drama.
You do this and then you regret also why you created drama and you're lost in the mind for weeks together because of the anger,
Regret,
Anger,
Regret,
Anger,
Regret.
Seldom do you come back here and realize oh I'm the knower of all this.
I am untouched by it.
So we have to just make this more powerful to stand alone.
This guy jumps in and becomes one with the mind.
He has to just stand alone and it's not an effort.
In fact,
You have to drop the effort of jumping in.
Got it?
Yeah.
When you're talking,
As you said,
The sensation sometimes I can understand,
I can feel the sensations coming in me before I can talk but there are times when that gap is so thin you just first blurt out whatever you want to say or do and then you realize oh come back,
Come back to something,
Come back to yourself.
You're not doing the right thing sometimes.
I have to talk to myself but that sensation sometimes I get.
Sometimes it's a little late.
That's okay.
We will slip because of our past habit patterns.
We have lost lots of karmic impressions from the past.
So it's like those are sprouting.
And now I'm still not an expert.
So when it sprouts sometimes I will stumble,
Fumble and fall.
It's okay.
I stand up,
I dust my clothes and again I'm the knower.
I wear my hat and I forget about it.
There is no need to go on beating yourself.
Oh I stumbled,
Fumbled,
I failed this time.
No,
It's okay.
Done.
Be compassionate with yourself.
Let it go.
Next time when it comes,
I'm not going to let my topi fall off.
Yes,
You stand there with your topi right there.
I am the knower of this anger.
That's how you really become stronger and stronger and this emotion becomes weaker and weaker and weaker.
It loses its power on you.
That makes you very very strong.
One little victory will make you more powerful and ready for the second victory and then that will add up and take you to the third victory.
It's like that.
But even one little failure,
You don't let it pull you down.
You say,
Oh it's okay.
I have to be compassionate with myself.
It is just a past habit pattern.
Again I stand up.
So I have to keep doing this till I become so powerful that I don't jump in.
Soon you will realize there will just be a few karmic things that are left that are like a mark on rock.
Otherwise everything becomes like a mark on water.
It comes and it goes.
It comes and it goes and doesn't leave an impression behind on me.
You answered my next question.
Yes,
By doing this,
That is what is going to be the fruit of this free will.
Can we call it a free will?
That is my free will to do this.
Yes,
You can call it free will.
So the result of it is getting rid of your karmic impressions.
No,
The impressions will come up but I have become so strong that I don't flutter.
It's like that.
Not fluttering by not doing it and trying to become stronger.
What am I gaining out of it?
Strength that I don't sit and regret later that oh I said this,
I shouldn't have done this,
I did that,
I was mean or whatever.
Getting rid of my Agami impressions are vastness.
Yes,
Plus the suffering is cut down.
I would have suffered for the next three days if I would have gotten angry in this situation.
So I cut down the suffering of the next three days.
