Understanding Fear Of Death Live With Manal

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Welcome,

Welcome,

Welcome everybody to today's inspiration.

Really excited to see everybody after this wonderful,

Wonderful,

Wonderful long Labour Day weekend.

Alexa Klee,

Welcome to you.

I love the violet beautiful hearts.

Welcome to you.

Really excited about today's inspiration.

And I know I'm saying excitement about our topic,

Which is the inspiration.

Our inspiration today is about death.

And today's inspiration,

I didn't get here alone.

It was actually a output of our last few inspirations,

Our last few live streams where we all collectively arrived at acknowledging that the root,

The root of what we were,

We're talking and feeling is death.

I'm trying to speak slowly to let the room I see that everybody is populating in the room.

So I'll repeat a bit.

But ultimately,

What we're looking for,

What we're looking for is,

And my approach is really always trying to understand and recognize the root,

The lowest common denominator,

What is the basis of what we are feeling?

What is the basis of what we're feeling?

That's always the approach that I like to take.

And when we were talking last week about anxiety,

And I suggested to everybody that anxiety is actually a fear that we are not willing to acknowledge.

Let's remove the word anxiety and recognize that anxiety is a fear that we cannot acknowledge.

Good afternoon to you sporty Jen Good afternoon.

So now that we recognize that anxiety is a fear that we do not want to or cannot or do not want to or not able to acknowledge,

We started to explore well,

What are the fears?

What are the fears?

And ultimately,

What we arrived at last week is a lot of our fears were ultimately about death,

About death.

So here we are talking about death,

And we'll break it down into different ways.

Tracy,

Good morning to you.

And I believe sporty Jen and Tracy you were on last week when we talked about anxiety and said let's let's let's talk about death,

Because it just came up so much.

And so today what we're going to do is honour death.

We also had a live stream inspiration about alone and being alone.

And again,

When we came down to alone,

The the alone it came back to feeling alone was again a fear of death,

Because we arrive alone and we leave alone.

And so the lowest common denominator,

The root of feeling alone is also a fear of death.

So instead of feeling alone,

Instead of feeling fear,

Instead of feeling anxiety,

Let's go to the root of it.

Let's understand our relationship with death.

Let's explore it.

Let's understand the experience that we had regarding death.

And I know sporty Jen that you shared in a couple of venues,

But there was multiple for you.

And so in there,

There's a lot of complexity and there's a lot of layering,

Layering and layering and layering.

And every time we have an experience,

There's like these,

These remnants of it all over in different flavours and different rainbows of emotions.

And when we have another experience,

It brings out the first experience and then the second and the third and the fourth,

Until ultimately we discover what we are meant to learn.

So I offer for us all to explore together,

What are we meant to learn?

How do we approach death?

How do we see ripples and ripples,

Sporty Jen says,

And I noticed all that my Wi Fi is going from excellent to good to poor to to bad.

So let me know at any time I do.

I've never usually it's goes between excellent and good.

Let me know if there's any blips and if I have to repeat anything,

But right now it's on excellent.

So I hope it continues to be excellent.

So this is why we're talking about death.

That would not be not be a topic that I would be inspired to bring up without all of you and it leading to us an awareness of,

Oh,

We keep talking about a fear of death.

Tracy,

Beautiful.

I'm definitely scared of death.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

So what I would like to offer is what I would like is for us to collectively shift.

First of all,

Become aware.

We can't shift without becoming aware.

So we all know it's the five layers.

One awareness.

We need to become aware.

Today we are going to talk from an intellectual mentally becoming aware.

We cannot shift anyway without having an emotional emotional understanding.

So we're going to be aware of our mental and our emotional.

What sets our mental and emotional is our spiritual beliefs and our physical experiences.

So we will share we will calibrate we were honor our physical experiences.

We will talk to what our spiritual beliefs are,

And then move to seeing how to shift our thoughts and our feelings about death.

What I'd like to offer before I start asking any questions is life is death and death is life and without death,

Death is part of our circle of life.

So when I think of death,

The word life is very closely embedded in there.

So without and and why this business model or this life model that we have of this human journey,

Those are big questions of the why and I explore sometimes and different religion Eastern and Western will give you different reasons of the why.

But we're not going to say why,

Why or we can't necessarily answer why without us all collectively talking about our spiritual beliefs.

And but ultimately,

What we do know is that we are born.

We are born and we mostly come born alone.

Sometimes we might have twins or multiples of some way.

But even then you come out singularly alone.

And I know a lot of my spiritual friends will talk about a lot of that fear of death.

There's actually a resentment of that feeling of coming in and being alone and and and recognizing that what are we here for and we're feeling so alone,

Which is a really interesting thing because we're born alone and we die alone.

But that human model naturally includes death.

We cannot control it,

We cannot change it.

And it ultimately is a part of life.

Now,

That doesn't mean that that it's a part of life that it's not going to influence us on certain levels.

And many of us have been impacted in some way and there is a physical,

Very strong physical because on the physical,

We have lost our friends,

Our family,

Our partners,

People that are our love and our care and and our connection and our beauty and and and and connected to the identity of who we are,

Whether it's a partner or whether it's a sibling or whether it's a parent.

So part of that death ultimately is such a strong connection to the definition of who you are and who we are.

So in a physical loss,

Whether or not when we go to our spiritual,

We believe that there is no spiritual loss and they become angels maybe or they're back and they'll be reincarnated or their spirit lives on,

Their soul lives on.

Despite our egoic beliefs,

There is still a physical loss,

A strong physical loss.

And all of you know that I have said many,

Many times that whatever that physical loss is,

There needs to be a strong awareness,

Honouring beauty,

Celebration of those feelings,

Of those feelings,

Because without that we repress it,

We hearted ourselves,

We repress it and it will come out in some way in your life as anger or sadness or depression or something.

It will come out in a projected way that is not feeling like it's directly correlated to that loss,

But it is in its convoluted way.

So it will come out.

So the best thing is for us to become aware and go through the journey of awareness,

Awareness,

Acknowledgement of what is the desire,

The desire for connection,

For love,

For happiness,

For worthiness,

For freedom.

Then appreciate that life is,

This is life.

Whatever appreciation we want to go,

The celebration of life,

The understanding of cycle of life,

Understanding the beauty of life,

But a celebration and appreciation for the beauty of life.

And then we just somehow let go,

Not necessarily let go of the emotion,

The sadness,

The pain.

There might be things that we have to still live through as we go through our loss,

Mourning,

Whatever it might be,

But we will let go of whatever resistance that we can at that moment.

And we can tell you working and working and working until we let go of all that resistance and we can calibrate that to surrender,

To surrender.

So Jackie says,

Hi,

I'm new here.

How is everybody feeling?

How is this resonating?

What do we want to get out of with the topic and the inspiration of death?

Is this connecting?

Are you feeling anything?

And then the mental body,

The mental body,

The mental body,

Once we calibrate our egoic beliefs,

On our physical and emotional,

The mental becomes a focus.

It becomes a focus.

What are we going to choose to focus on?

And our mental might focus on the emotional.

We might show focus on the physical body,

Or we might go to the spiritual depending on where we need to be.

So what we want to do,

And that's what meditation is all about.

That's what our work is all about,

Is guiding the mind to focus on what we want to feel,

To believe,

To think,

And it depends on where we are,

What is for your highest good.

Jackie says,

Hi,

I'm new here.

Welcome,

Jackie.

Been afraid of death as long as I can remember,

Definitely since or possible earlier.

Beautiful.

Jackie,

What I would like to offer to you is at that age,

Somehow your sense of security,

Because I do believe that we all come into this earth,

These high vibe beings until life starts to condition on us and conditioning is a natural process of life and it's to be appreciated,

Not ashamed.

Our past is our stories to help us evolve as being.

So my approach also is to look at our past and honor it and recognize that everything we experience is helping to us to grow,

To expand,

To evolve.

So what I would ask you,

Jackie,

Is can you connect to what happened at that age?

Could have been something as simple as your mom and dad went on a trip and left you for a weekend and you did not know and it wasn't communicated in such point and so at that point you felt a disconnection,

You felt a fear,

You felt alone.

Can you try to go there and just trust that you'll know that what happened at that age?

Was it a pet?

Was it a sibling?

Was there a family member that maybe passed and your parents had that energy and then you took death as negative?

There was probably a calibrating event that occurred at that early age that created those beliefs and those fears of death.

Are you,

We can do it during a meditation but I offer it to you and I offer it to everybody if you remember I was fine until a moment that boom,

I was fearful of death.

Did I pick up energy?

Did I pick up beliefs?

Did I have an experience?

Let's find it.

Let's find it and let's translate it to the lowest,

Lowest common denominator.

Sporty Jen,

How can you let go?

I feel emotionally stuck.

Sporty Jen,

I just paused to honour,

To honour,

To honour you and to honour your desire to grow and honour your desire to find the beauty and the pleasures and to reconnect with the happiness of life again.

I can feel that in you and if that's not existent,

Let me know if I'm reading it wrong.

So first of all,

What I would guide is,

I offer is can we start to change the way that you're calibrating to how you feel?

So right now you say I feel emotionally stuck.

Let's redefine that.

How is it that you're actually feeling?

Is it sad?

Is it angry?

And stuck means you're stuck at something.

So if I had a radio or if I had a TV and it was stuck,

It was going to be stuck on a certain number or a certain level.

Tell me what you are stuck at.

So the first part is,

That's sort of like the label of anxiety where I don't really want to talk about what the fear is.

So I'm going to call it anxiety.

Emotionally stuck is another label that also allows you to not really go in to the feeling that you have.

And what I would suggest and all of you,

If you have felt the feeling of being emotionally stuck,

So when somebody makes a comment,

I speak to that person and I'd love for them to respond.

But if I'm going into a direction that's not comfortable,

I want all of us to relate because we have all felt emotionally stuck.

But let's go deeper.

Sportygen is that emotionally stuck?

Sad?

Depressed?

Angry?

Um,

Numb?

Beautiful.

Anger.

I want to yell,

Scream,

Shout how I feel,

But the anxiety fear stops me.

Beautiful.

Anger.

What you just said is there is repressed anger.

Feel the beauty in that,

That you are allowing yourself to feel the anger.

So instead you're calling it stuck like a,

Like a four by four in the beach that just doesn't want to move forward and you're gunning it and gunning it and you just don't want to move forward.

Now let's call it anger.

So I want you today and now at this moment,

Find that anger.

And I can feel the energy in the room shift.

So all of us find the anger and I can feel the sadness because on top of anger below it depends on where you are in the line is sadness.

Anger is usually a high vibration,

More higher than sadness.

Um,

But anger is hiding sadness sometimes.

So it's a beautiful flip flop.

I prefer to see people angry than sad,

But angry is also hiding the sadness.

So see that anger that you're feeling.

See it and recognize that you didn't want to recognize it because you wanted to call it stuck,

Which you were stuck,

Which is fine.

That's what your body and your life and your mind and everything needed to deal,

To deal because sometimes it's just,

I'm going to use the word that I don't usually use guys,

But I'm going to use it.

Traumatic.

There's so much going on and we have coping mechanisms that allows us to only deal with what we can deal with at the moment and let us honor that.

It's a celebration.

It's a gift.

It's a gift.

I am upset,

Sad and feel lost,

But I know I also have grit,

Determination,

The positive side of anger.

Beautiful and sporty.

Jenna,

I have no doubt of that,

But let's not go there yet.

Let's acknowledge the feelings that you have felt that you have not been able to,

To,

To let out safely for whatever reasons because of society conditioning,

You had to be strong for other people.

You had to be supported that you couldn't that whatever reason,

It doesn't really matter why,

But still stay in the body.

I know that you have grit.

I know you have determination.

I know you have that desire for life because if you did not,

You would not be here to talk about death.

None of us would be,

We would be living our life in the rat race or in the maze or whatever we want to be calling it.

But we are here deciding that we are going to take moments to go within to truly understand how am I feeling?

Why am I feeling?

Should I be feeling?

I don't like that should,

But anyway,

It doesn't matter.

Judgment.

There is judgment.

So let's keep staying with how you feel and allow those rainbows,

The rainbow of motions to just sort of come to the surface,

To come to the surface,

To bubble up and to feel them and to savor them,

To savor them like a nice dark chocolate.

A fine wine is what they say,

You know,

Whatever it might be.

Savor the sensations of these emotions that you have not been wanting to see because it has been overwhelming.

I chose that language.

You can choose it to be differently.

Sometimes the sun comes out a way that it keeps going dark.

So I'm sorry guys.

So Sporty Jen,

Tell me how that's feeling and we're going to go into meditation today to feel into these feelings because I can feel in this room that there's so much feelings.

Obviously we're talking about death.

Obviously we're talking about death.

Sean,

Sorry I'm late for this.

This has also been my biggest fear since about the age of five.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

Tracy,

Since a young age,

Even as young as five,

I would cry over death.

Okay,

Beautiful.

Okay.

Let's go to this guys.

Let's go to this.

I'm going to do a mini meditation now.

And if you want to type in what you're feeling and what you've come up with,

Great.

If you want to stay inside yourself,

Great.

Let's do this now.

This is what today's inspiration is about.

Getting straight,

Straight to the root of it.

Straight to the root of it.

Okay.

Sporty Jen,

Beautiful.

I think it's conditioning.

My dad was always angry.

We're not allowed to cry.

So I think I have to recondition myself.

Beautiful.

Your dad was angry.

You're projecting that anger and you weren't allowed to be sad.

So and honour that.

Honour the beauty of that.

Honour the beauty of that.

Go through and today during our meditation,

We're going to go through all of the layers and layers and layers.

Death is complex in the land of birth.

They call it the five stages.

I think there's more.

I think it's a rainbow.

It's a rainbow.

But what is it?

Denial,

Anger,

Bargaining,

Depression and acceptance.

I wrote it down this time because you guys know I always say what are the five?

Those are the five.

Those are the five.

Those are the five that was defined one day by a psychologist.

I think there's a rainbow of a lot that we call them different things at different times.

And there's the complexity of other people around us,

Whether we have to hold them or they're not holding us.

So today it will be about truly seeing,

Feeling,

Being with those emotions and finding the compassion and the love and the acceptance and the honour for it.

And then we can let go.

Because we will honour that whatever I'm holding on to is what is meant to be for the moment and that I will surrender.

I will find the acceptance.

Ultimately,

We were going to go into a little mini meditation.

We still will be.

But Sporty Gens awoke a few things that I also wanted to say.

Death is also about control.

How many of us in this inspiration today are all about control and like to control their life and be in control?

How many of us are control in some certain ways?

I know that I'm a recovering perfectionist and controlling.

Sporty Gens is absolutely us.

We cannot control death.

We cannot control life.

We cannot control birth.

We cannot control death.

Death is one of the biggest teachers to teach us to surrender to life.

Death,

Illness,

A lot of those big,

Big things,

Divorce,

They're all really big teachers to teach us how to surrender and accept life and to let go of control.

Many of us have the misallusion that we are in control and that we control our lives.

Some of my friends really amuse me at the level of control that they have or they feel that they have on their life and it projects onto others when they're in group settings.

And the younger we are,

I tend to observe that there is more of a perception of control.

So let's recognize it's about control and guess what guys?

We have zero control.

I believe that we're creators of our life.

I believe that we are manifestors.

I believe that we are here to curate the life that we desire,

But that comes through allowing,

Trusting,

Acceptance,

Surrender.

It does not come through control and it's only when we surrender and allow that the things that we desire ultimately manifest.

So I wanted to bring up that beautiful,

Tracy saying,

This is so true about the control.

I saw some hearts coming up and Sean,

My auntie suddenly dying of a heart attack six weeks ago at the age of 60 has made me realize I know I was in control of their death.

Nope,

Nobody is in control.

We've got some people going at 10,

20,

30,

Some at their birth.

Some didn't even come out of the womb and some stay till their hundreds and who defines it?

None of us.

Not our socioeconomic,

Not what we come,

Not from the country we're from,

Not from who our father or mother are.

None of us control it.

None of us control it.

So we have the opportunity when it hits or before it hits for us to start to make the observations on life and to recognize that it's one of the greatest teachers for helping us to surrender,

To help us to give up on control,

To help us to accept and trust life.

And ultimately,

What are we trusting?

What are we trusting?

It depends on your egoic beliefs.

Again,

Your egoic beliefs is where we carry our identity and our beliefs.

This is what I label our egoic beliefs.

So what are your egoic beliefs?

What are your beliefs?

Is it in God,

Universe,

Higher power,

Inner being?

What are your beliefs?

So what these beliefs form your belief of life and death.

Do you believe that if you don't do well on this earth that you're going to go to heaven or hell?

Well,

Guess what?

If so,

That's going to have a lot of fear in the life that you're living now and the fear of death because you're uncertain of what your outcome is.

So one of the things that I'm going to offer today is that let's look at our egoic beliefs and find ones that allow us to be empowered and trust and love and honor this amazing life that we're in.

Sean,

I love yours.

I believe we are all energy and energy cannot be destroyed.

I love looking at us as energy and vibration because just like you said,

Sean,

It cannot be destroyed.

The form that I'm in now,

The form,

The word spiritual bypass came up this week or last week in a situation of an observation of people that go into spiritual bypass.

And what happens with spiritual bypass is that you're not honoring your physical and emotional being.

There is a physical being in life that we're living.

And if you're just going back to we are energy,

We are vibration,

We are whatever,

You don't honor the physical.

So that what I like to make sure is that we balance our egoic beliefs with the honoring of what we're experiencing the physical.

But what's leading?

What's leading?

I believe this is what leads.

This is the focus,

Your beliefs,

And then your mind,

And that you guide and you curate and you decide what the life that you want to live is.

That's what I believe.

That's what I believe.

So our egoic beliefs are a great way to help us calibrate to acceptance,

Trust,

And the beauty of death.

And if we could start to say beauty of death,

Beauty of life,

Life and death,

Those words become synonymous and we recognize that I don't want to live in fear.

I don't want to live in control.

I want to live from allowing from pleasure,

From freedom,

From freedom.

And all of that requires an acceptance of life as it flows.

An acceptance of life as it flows.

Okay guys,

Good,

Good,

Good,

Good,

Good.

How are you all feeling?

I feel like I really want to go into our bodies and discover the first time that we became fearful of death.

I feel like that would be really powerful for us to sort of go in because I heard a few like,

Oh,

There was a moment.

Let's figure out what that moment is.

And if we could honor that moment and honor the emotions and honor the experience,

Then that will allow you to let it go.

How does that feel?

How are you guys feeling?

Are you with me?

Are you with me?

I see a few hearts going.

Sean is I am.

Beautiful.

Tracy.

Yes.

Okay,

Fantastic.

Okay,

Guys.

I want to take a deep breath in.

And release.

Take a deep breath in and let all of the beautiful universal light just come in and purify your body.

On the release,

Just let go of any resistance that you can connect with.

And another deep breath in.

And release.

Having an amazing exploration of our connection with death.

With the intention to recalibrate the lens at which we view death.

And to honor and recognize the physical impact of the loss,

But to balance it with the appreciation and the love and the honor of the cycle of life,

Of the circle of life as that that is.

So just go into your body and just find the first time that you have started to take on the fear of death.

And you can go about it anyways.

If you feel in your body any tension,

If you sort of enter just sort of like an observer almost like you're flying through and going into your body just go into that body part and see what it's telling you.

You can also go through your emotions.

So if you can feel some of those emotions that Sporty Gen shared with us,

The anger,

The sadness or the resentment,

Just go through your emotions.

Just open yourself up just to knowing or to hearing,

To seeing.

Just sort of connect flying over your timeline,

Your physical,

Emotional or mental body,

Your egoic body,

Your knowing.

Sort of see where on your timeline did you adopt the fear of death.

Was it in the womb?

As a baby in your early weeks or months?

Your first year?

Second year?

Third?

Fourth?

Fifth?

Sixth?

Seventh?

Can you go ahead and fly through your timeline?

Take your time and when you find the moment and it might not pin it down but just sort of see when you started to feel fearful of death.

Pause at that moment and explore.

Was it an experience?

Was it an energy that you picked up?

Was it actually death or just feeling alone or abandoned?

Sort of gather the details as an investigator,

As an explorer of something that you may have buried but now is opening and sharing with you.

The circumstances that you have interpreted a fear of death because of your inability at that age or point in life to really understand it from a wider lens.

From a more evolved,

Emotionally aware and physically aware and mentally aware and spiritually aware place.

Honor the being that took in that information and preserved it for today or for the day that you are ready to grow and learn from it.

Recognize that that was a milestone for you.

A big growing opportunity that is actually,

You may have written it as a negative experience but now as we start and go through our timeline and recognize it actually is the most beautiful,

Empowering moment for you to really go inside and understand the meaning of life.

You may have prophesied it in a way that met you where you were but it was saved inside of you for you to transform it to empowerment.

Beautiful.

Gather all of the information and just acknowledge your desire to live from a place of happiness and worthiness and freedom and acknowledge that the outside world is teaching you to calibrate internally and acknowledge that you have a lifetime to take the external experiences and conditions and to grow into the person,

The woman,

The man that you would like to be,

That you are.

So take a moment to celebrate that moment,

To celebrate life,

To celebrate yourself,

To celebrate your desire for growth,

To celebrate death as a teacher.

Death is a natural,

Normal part of life.

And see at this moment if you can let go of any of the lower vibration,

Any of the energy that did not serve you.

Let go of any of the pain,

The anger,

The sadness,

The fear.

Just give unconditional love to you.

And if you didn't find that moment just give it to yourself in general over your whole timeline or even now give it to your whole timeline from the day you were born,

The moment you were in the womb till today.

Just give yourself unconditional love for knowing that you're doing amazing and the best that you can and life is exactly as it's meant to be.

And that resistance is the teacher to surrender.

Resistance,

Experiences is the teacher of surrender.

Beautiful.

And at this point just shake off any of the energy.

You want to take a deep breath in and let go of anything that you're connected with.

Take another deep breath in of the beautiful universal divine light and let go of all of the resistance you're connected with.

Take a deep breath in and release all of the energy.

And when you're ready open up your eyes.

One,

Two,

Three.

And let me know how do you feel?

What did you experience?

What insights did you gather?

Were you able to connect with an experience?

And if you weren't cognizant there is shifts that are going through because with the intention it happens at a time that is best for you.

So I just always like to say some of us see things very clearly.

Sometimes,

Sometimes not,

Sometimes always and some it will come later.

So just trust your body is going to deliver.

This is the point that ultimately I want us all to get at today is to move from a place of control to trust.

And the ultimate trust is that death occurs when it's meant to be.

And it's okay.

And it's a normal part of life.

And we will experience a physical loss.

And with that we will experience emotional feelings,

A rainbow,

A host.

And that's a normal part of being human.

When we calibrate to recognition that this is life and calibrate to recognition of honoring that we go,

We'll evolve and fall back into surrender and the acceptance and the beauty of life.

So how are we all feeling?

I feel the room feels very good.

So I can feel a shift in the energy.

Was there any deep awareness?

Is there anything that anybody feels that they want to discuss and bring to the table?

Did you feel when and why you adopted a fear of death?

Was it about being alone,

Abandoned,

Control,

Other people's energy?

Was it a death,

A death of a person or an animal?

Talk to me,

Talk to me,

Talk to me everybody.

Sean,

Beautiful.

Death of my pet rabbit when I was five.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

And so Sean,

Were you able to feel the sadness,

The fear,

The lack of control,

The inability to really share how you felt?

So maybe there wasn't a means for you to really vocalize how you feel and to at a five year old level,

Sort of process it.

Beautiful.

I felt that I loved her so much and that she was just gone at the age I didn't understand.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

And that's absolutely beautiful.

And that is life.

And death is a part of life.

So the question is,

Do you never get a rabbit?

So you never learn love?

Absolutely not.

But then we recognize that this is the human model.

Like this is what the human model is about.

This is the human design.

This is the architecture of how we experience life.

So the joy and the beauty is in us growing into recognizing some of the conditioning and the feelings that we've gotten and that we've grown into and to detangle from that and to recognize,

Oh,

When I was five,

I lost my rabbit.

And because of that,

I was fearful of death.

I just got two new pet fish yesterday and love seeing them swimming around,

Enjoying life and feeling them.

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

So that's beautiful.

And so Sean,

Let me ask you and ask all of you,

How was your connection to death now?

Do you feel such a fear as when we entered or is there a resignation,

An acceptance,

A surrender,

A peace when you come into the feeling of death?

And that's what the beauty is now.

Now when we layer a death on top of a death and experience on top of experience,

And then we never go to the root,

It just keeps amplifying and amplifying and amplifying the experience.

And that's why I really love to go to the root,

The lowest common denominator.

When was it actually formed?

And for some of you that enjoys looking at lives and past lives,

It could even have been formed in a different life.

I watched Atlas Cloud this weekend,

This really interesting,

Complex movie about timelines and reincarnations and how many things that happen in your life happen because of previous lives or ancestor,

DNA,

Genetics.

There's so many different ways that you can say it.

So we can do two things.

We can resist it,

Or we can figure out how to find a beauty and an honour and a love for it.

And to detangle from it and to find and calibrate to the highest vibrations of acceptance,

Of freedom,

Of love,

Of trust,

Of allowing,

Of beauty,

Of celebration,

Of honour,

Of recognizing that this is life's design.

I am not bad.

I am not broken.

I do not judge.

There's nothing that I need to fix.

It's all about recognizing and honouring and enjoying and flowing with the journey of life.

Good.

How is everybody feeling?

What is everybody thinking?

Is there anything coming to the surface?

I feel like a lot of the things that I wanted to talk about,

I have brought to the surface the four bodies of being honouring and I'm going to keep on saying it and keep on saying it and keep on saying it.

When we experience death,

The number one is experiencing your physical sensation,

Your emotional sensations.

Not overindulging on it,

Not writing the story that this is never going to end and that life sucks and everything is.

So we become aware of our mental and our egoic,

But honouring the physical and emotion and resetting it to mental and egoic beliefs that serve and power and allow you to get to a point of trust and surrender.

That's one of the biggest messages that I want and positive toxicity is a thing and it's not about being positive about something that feels negative.

It's about honouring all of the experiences but a recognition from an empowering mindset that life unfolds in a way to help us grow and expand.

That death is a normal part of life and that I will see how to detangle,

How to live,

How to love despite the external by going within the internal.

Am I connecting with everybody?

How's everybody feeling?

Talk to me,

Talk to me,

Talk to me.

Sporty Jen,

Do you feel that you still have that energy?

Should we go into a mini meditation and feel into that energy?

Guide me everybody,

Guide me about how you're feeling and what your thoughts are and anything that came to you.

You are the guidance of this inspiration.

So,

Does everybody feel good?

Does everybody feel like their intention for what they entered into today's meditation was met?

Okay,

Beautiful.

Sporty Jen,

I have anxiety still in my tummy but I understand the concept of death but I definitely the fear of loss coping with grief that gets me.

Okay,

Let's go in,

Let's go in,

Let's go into the body.

Okay,

Does anybody else before we go into this meditation and Sporty Jen,

I'm going to give you the opportunity to just process a lot of emotional energy in this meditation and talk to a lot of different things.

Does anybody else have any,

Are aware of any emotional feelings that they're feeling from any recent experiences with death?

Ren,

I have a fear with what's after this life.

Brilliant and what is the fear of that?

I think that's brilliant.

So,

Do you not trust that there's another life?

What,

Tell me,

Deeper into what that fear,

What's after this life.

That does it really exist or does it not exist?

And I just want to point in,

Point out as you sort of explore within yourself,

It's another form of fear,

I mean,

Sorry,

Control.

It's another form of control.

The way that I'm able to calibrate,

To surrender is accepting that there's some things in the design of life that we will only know when we're dead.

There's some things that we will only know when we pass and that I have to sort of surrender to the universe,

To God,

To inner power,

To source,

To higher power,

That there's a meaning to this whole cycle.

That's how I have that belief.

I don't have any particular belief and maybe that's the issue.

Ren,

That's beautiful.

It's not the issue,

It's the opportunity for you to start to choose what are the beliefs that are empowering for you that allow you to go to surrender.

It's part of your growth,

It's part of your expansion.

Some people were given religion and given certain beliefs when they are younger.

They might be easier,

It might be harder because they might not really resonate with the truth of who they are.

But your evolution is exactly as it meant to be.

So,

Now you get to welcome what is it that I'd like to believe?

How is it that I feel empowered?

How is it that I ultimately can fall into a place of feeling from trust and surrender?

So maybe this is an opportunity for you to start to dig and start to read and do you believe in God?

Is it about energy like Shawn said?

Do you believe in reincarnation?

What do you think happens to your soul and your spirit?

Does it really matter?

Can you trust that there's a circle and there's a meaning to life?

So you get to have the opportunity to explore what are the beliefs that I want that are going to help me surrender.

Shawn,

Beautiful.

I feel good in the sense I know I'm not the only person sharing this fear and we're not alone in our thoughts.

We are not alone.

We are not alone.

This came up in the anxiety.

This came up in feeling alone.

We are not alone.

And talking about recognizing that this is a,

This is a human,

Natural human feeling and it came from X,

Y and Z and that was all a natural part of life.

It's beautiful.

Erica,

I feel better recognizing death helps us surrender to life but I have issues with attachment to the people in my life.

Beautiful.

And talk to me more about the attachment to the people.

That you're fearful of them dying?

Is it the fear,

So is that what you mean by attachment?

So a fear of other people dying,

A fear of loss,

A fear of being alone,

A fear of not having them.

Let's dig a bit more into feeling that fear.

Feeling that fear.

Tracy,

I think I'm with him.

I'm afraid that there's nothing and I'm afraid that there is.

It's strange.

Beautiful.

I think this is all beautiful all because this is all coming and speaking to control because not knowing,

The unknowing again,

Control.

Beautiful Tracy.

You're saying what I'm saying.

The not knowing is control.

Can we accept,

Let me ask you guys a few things,

Okay?

Can we accept that there's some elements of life that we're not going to know and that this is called the architecture of life.

This is the design of life.

Can we accept those elements to life that we do not understand?

And Erica is saying yes,

Fear of my loved ones dying.

Okay,

Beautiful.

Can we accept there are some elements to life that we do not understand and we will not understand.

The things that I calibrate to are the resonating,

Reoccurring beliefs in Eastern and Western religions.

So I look at the Eastern world and the Western world and I really appreciate where things are aligned.

So there's a line that there's another power.

There's a line that there's a bigger meaning.

There's a line that there's something going on.

So I look at all of the things that are same,

Same,

Same,

Same.

And then I say,

Okay,

What are the same?

What are the same and what are ultimately all of the teachings and all of the Eastern and Western?

And the same is there's a bigger meaning.

Doesn't matter what you want to call it.

Everybody calls it something different and they think they're making it different,

But it's all the same.

There's a bigger meaning.

So if you just want to say,

Ren,

There is a higher meaning.

Sean says,

I accept the scientist in me always wants an answer.

So how's this for another meaning that doesn't even make you have to define anything?

There is a higher meaning.

I don't always know what it is,

But I surrender to what I know and surrender to what I do not know.

How does that feel,

Sean?

And I invite anything that I can know.

How is that?

That doesn't force you to have any beliefs,

But it honors the truth.

There is a bigger meaning.

There's a higher meaning.

Some people call it God.

Some people call it universe.

Some people call it inner being.

Some people call it higher power.

Some people call it energy.

Some people call it vibration.

And there's some things that we know.

We know that we want to be happy and that we want to love them.

We want to feel worthy.

We want to feel free and we want to feel good and we want to find happiness.

I already said that because happiness is a big one and we want to feel love and where the vibration and we're energy because we see energetically and we feel energetically.

We're energy processors so we're energy like Sean says I'm an engineer too I want to know the answers so we're energy and there's some things we won't know but we can dig to find the answers.

I love near-death experiences because for me they invite an understanding of what is after.

I love near-death experience stories.

I love them because you see people that lived one way have a near-death experience and then surrender because they know they know so you listen to the experiences of others so there are things we know the things that we won't know and we what invite knowledge.

How does that feel?

How does that feel?

Give me hearts give me words.

Sporty gen I have a mix of Buddhist thinking non attachment and learning lessons through life and past lives but then I also want to know when I die will I see my loved ones again so that part feels more controlling.

Beautiful and I guys I have every single question that you have and I have a control of wanting to know answers too and sometimes I choose the answer that feels good.

Yes yes I believe that my really strong good friends here in this life and the people that I don't like have come from past lives that their stories their stories in the past and the stories in the future and that feels really good to connect on the spiritual level to say there is a meaning that's bigger than I understand it feels so empowering to me so the things we don't know we can choose to have empowering or disempowering thoughts I will invite you to find the empowering ones I invite you to find the thoughts that let you say hey yeah this is okay oh wow here's my control oh wow this is my wanting to know oh wow this is me trying to be non-human when I'm human so Ren says yes it's like I want to know for sure perhaps it's a fear of uncertainty yeah it is it's a fear of not knowing it's a fear of control it's fear of surrender it's a fear of it's it's powerlessness I don't know I'm powerless that makes us feel powerless how was that guys how do you feel Shawn wants to know that makes you feel powerless guys I think that's a good one how many does how many resonate with death making you feel powerless because control is about power Shawn yes makes does that say makes me makes me completely powerless beautiful beautiful death makes us feel powerless we don't know we're uncertain we're fearful beautiful we feel powerless Steve I can absolutely accept and embrace the mystery of life in this context in another context having nothing to do with do with that there are things I cannot embrace except nor will beautiful Steve beautiful so see that your control is existing in some aspects of life and not and use the aspects of life where you can accept to teach the part of you that cannot accept use your muscle use that strong arm to help that weaker arm beautiful I can accept and embrace the mystery of death I love the way that Steve said it I can accept and embrace the mystery of life the mystery of death and Shawn Shawn said above that there's a beautiful Netflix series about near-death experiences I I don't think I watched it let me know what the name of that is red I watched a lot of them and read a few books about it I read a few books two three years ago after I lost my mom which made me scared was some of the people didn't have a nice experience they felt lost and scared I'm talking about clinical death experiences Ren yes we can find we can find examples of everything my approach to life is finding ideas thoughts and beliefs that empower me earlier on I realized with religion that it's beautiful but there's a lot of fear there's a lot of death there's a lot of a lot of if you don't do X Y if you don't do Y Z and I'm like you know doesn't really feel good and then I realized that I like to calibrate to feeling good and so I'm going to think about life and all of the things that feel good and pick the empowering thoughts and pick the thoughts and the beliefs that ultimately lead me towards feeling happy and free and and so Ren you sound like you're a clean slate slate with your beliefs start to play and pick and find the ones that have a nice flavor find the ones that that that that taste empowering and positive and resonate with truth happiness resonates with truth when you feel good it feels it's resonating with truth resistance means that there's something that you're trying to calibrate to that is not truth so get in invite the opportunity to welcome spiritual beliefs that guide you to surrender understanding allowing accepting these are the beautiful words of life honoring honoring what we do not know Tracy dying to be me by Anita Morgan I haven't read that one Sean it's called surviving death on Netflix still showing as far as I know yes sorry guys we're gonna take a quick sip of water yeah I did watch a few episodes of that there was an element of it that was a bit dramatic that I had trouble watching with it I wanted to sort of get the cliff notes of it and undramatized some of the elements of it with the music and stuff but yeah I enjoyed it beautiful beautiful okay guys powerlessness so let me ask you something a lot of our inspirations we come back to the truth is us aligning with our inner power that being in this world from a place of grounding and from empowerment is aligning with our inner power not being strong and powerful over others not empowering others while empowering others is a good thing but being aligned with our inner power so why don't we calibrate that our powerlessness is because we're looking external to ourselves rather than internally the more we do these inspirations the more I realize that a lot of our resistance comes from the calibration to external conditions inner power allowing happiness worthiness freedom comes from calibration with our inner power with our inner truth so death is another opportunity for us to calibrate to our inner truth how does that feel and sporty jet I still have you on your mind with those emotions that I wanted us to go into meditation just so you know you're still here as we as a conversation evolved again how does that feel how can we address our powerlessness to how can we address that and one thing I want to say and I know that many of you know we'll talk about this all intellectually the shift happens when we shift it emotionally so we're talking into intellectually so we can calibrate our beliefs and our thoughts and and the way that we at our identity but the real growth happens emotionally so we're gonna do the emotional work and that's what the meditations are the emotional work to recognize the resistance in the and the low vibrations that ultimately allow us and enable us to shift so how is everybody feeling how does that all resonate how is our powerlessness because that's one that I want to get back to alignment with inner power let me ask you guys intellectually give it to me with hearts and give it to me with comments do you all recognize that death is a sign of powerlessness and that's the fear it's the powerlessness Jen saying yes I agree saying is one thing but we have to believe it for us to surrender beautiful and that's the emotional work so does everybody want to see and feel their powerlessness can everybody feel their powerlessness Steve I absolutely believe that heaven and hell are playing out on earth so do I don't ask me what that means it sounded good at the time no no I whatever that meant I agree I believe that heaven and hell exist on this earth I believe it because there's things that happen that are horrific and there's people that are living the most grandest life heaven and hell happen on this earth I believe that strongly oh you just said something very interesting intellectually to emotionally yes yes there's people can say things intellectually to me all the time and I'll say yes yes I intellectually understand that I teach it but right now I'm not emotionally feeling it so I'm not in any way asking us to the search how we feel in any way what I want us to do is calibrate and then shift calibrate shift so I got all the hearts that I was looking for powerlessness now I want to know are you all willing to recognize the truth in the calibration is with our inner power that a powerlessness is by being externally oriented and that inner power is internally oriented give me with hearts give me with words and if anybody has any resistance to that let's talk it out yes sporty Jen yes I guess the emotional difficulty is the repressed feelings were not processing and shifting yes if Sean was given the moment to talk about his grief with this rabbit and feel it and cry it and and live it and honor it and and to bury him and to to put him away and to do all of this that fear at five might not have been could have been a celebration of the love for that rabbit but his parents were conditioned there are condition we're all condition condition condition condition then we're not all therapists we're not all whatever I don't know if I'll be able to handle that there how it will be I know that there's some people that have had death in their life and it's not sitting on them they've found a way to shift it because of their spirituality their religion what it might be not everybody has experienced death in some way not all of them are sitting in grief in a bit but not all of them have had all of these stories of it so I know we all have different things but not everybody is held up in death so many of us are and it's distorted in different ways but the point is that there's now an opportunity for us to to become aware of it and to process it and to shift it and to honor because the truth of the matter is if we accept everything that happens to our lot in us in life then life is perfectly wonderful because we're accepting everything it's the resistance to life that is making us upset just think about it something happens not as you like it you accept it there's no energy there is no energy it's the resistance to life showing up in a way that we don't want it that causes the resistance you that did you guys like that did you guys like that it's the resistance to life do you like that because this is coming back to the inner power and the powerlessness because the in the resistance comes from us again calibrating to external rather than internal I didn't realize that this was going to come back to inner power I'm actually intrigued with this are you guys with me Steve I don't know if I could feel what powerlessness feels like but something if I go to fight it or question it it feels like it's like we have power but we have no power I don't understand this I think that you're so deep today Steve maybe every day but today I'm calling you on it we have power it's our inner power but we have no power here but we can give our power to here so in our ability to control our physical life I believe we're the creators and I feel and I believe we're connected to infinite power but we do not have the but we cannot control life which makes us perceive power I think the way that you're using power has different power in the spiritual versus the physical power in the emotional versus the mental I feel like those power is external power versus internal power that's what it is I'm gonna rewrite your question Steve now using adjectives I would like to feel what powerlessness feels like okay I don't know but something if I go to fight it or question it it feels like if we have we have internal power but we have no external power we have internal power but we have no external power we have the power about how we believe what we think how we feel and who we are we have that full power we do not have power about what is going outside of us including our deaths and our birth and the birth of our babies and and that and the health and the envy and the living of those alive around us but we have the inner power to accept to surrender to love to find happiness to find the teeth to find empowering thoughts to believe that there's a meaning and there's a design to this human journey that I would like to understand and invite a higher knowing of I invite surrender I invite love so it's inner power and external power we have infinite internal power we have access to connection and surrender with external power we have access you guys this is deep do you like it are you connecting with it is it resonating we have infinite access to inner power and we have infinite access and connection to external power Steve I think there's something unconscious that thinks it can control the outcome yeah yes this is our desire to be in power this is our desire to be be in control this is our desire to control life this is our desire to make because we are creators what's the difference between creating life and asserting life what's the difference between between desiring and creator in it but surrendering it to allowing it versus asserting it that's the difference in manifestation so I don't know how many of you believe in manifestation and enjoy reading things about manifestation manifestation requires you to desire to create to envision but to surrender to the external power to make it happen we don't have the external power to make things happen but the more we surrender that we allow God the universe inner power whatever it might be to allow things to happen so death is the greatest infant a invitation for us to differentiate between inner power and external power between ourselves and God between ourselves and and the universe if we're like Sean and we believe it's all energy it's all energy but there are still forms of energy and I believe that the physical forms of energy the physical manifestation there's resistance and I see the heart so I think a lot this is resonating because you guys today we're going deep we're going deep and Steve unconsciously we all want to control and there is nothing we can control so are we willing to let go of control those were my series of questions about powerlessness and inner power because it's about control powerlessness is about control don't be sorry to ask anything sporty Jen if my trim butter brother had left a note before he took his own life would I have processed it in any better if I'd known so many questions but it doesn't change the outcome or loss yes Jen your brother gave you no answers yes suicide is such a complex one and such a one that would have so much anger and resentment and and guilt and and self projection and another host of complexities because we're talking about something we can't control that the universe and God controls and we have to surrender but your brother chose to do this and in his choosing he left you out of things that you would have or didn't know that you would like to know that he held the answer to so there is a significant complexity in suicide so let's honor that that there is a host because now you have a physical being that made a choice that impacted you and he could elect you questions so no longer is it about an anger with God and God you didn't tell me and God why did you choose and God God God or universe universe or higher power higher power you guys know I like saying God but put in a synonym for whatever you believe unless you don't like me saying God and tell me that I'm happy to use that's why I try to use universe more than God because more people accept universe and God but anyway blah blah blah blah I went on a tangent so sporty Jen instead of you talking to God and knowing that there's things the mysteries things we don't know your brother your twin brother made that choice and he chose not to share what was going on in here and here that made him choose that choice so there's another host of complexities but like you said but I think you really go so quickly to finding the intellectual rather than processing the feeling so I'm gonna invite you to become aware of that sporty Jen and tell me if that that if that resonates I think you're quick to resonate on quick to intellectual eyes what you're going on then feeling that feeling how do you feel about your brother not leaving a note it doesn't change the outcome or loss so yes we can intellectual eyes and say it doesn't change it and I'd still be struggling but let's stop and feel that feeling let's get out of the numbness of feeling how does it feel you love him you adore him and it's not gonna change any of this but how does it chip feel and if you don't want to write it that's fine but if you want to write it for the power of us all to see you share it I know it's my adult response but my child response is so angry with him there we go go into that child and feel the anger don't move into intellectual eyes and going here until you formally and fully formally is not the right word fully process this emotional level there's so much emotional resistance within you sporty Jen that you would really benefit from a lot of deep diving into your physical body to understand the resistance the emotions that are all buried in there because you had so much that it was very difficult the process but recognize that you love you you miss him but you're really angry with him that he made a choice that affected you in such a way affected you and your family and he didn't even give you answers and honor that honor that honor that it doesn't mean he's bad it just means that that's how you interpreted a set of experience and he might share something and have a different thing that's all valid but honor the validity the validity of your feelings of your emotions of your stories stories is the wrong word your experiences of it good Sean is back with a recharge battery or at least it plugged in we missed you Sean okay so how is everybody feeling I really like that we've gotten into control and powerlessness so can we accept that we have access to infinite external power that's what all of the religions are about Eastern and Western is about recognition of a connection our connection even though we're in the physical realm of infinite external power and sporty Jen if there's anything else you want to put in there put in the window as well everybody I want to see hearts and I want to and I want it do we recognize do we recognize the hearts are coming because there's a bit of a leg always do we recognize our connection our connection do we recognize that that connection Steve your comment and so timely that connection only can happen when we're in alignment our physical emotional mental and spiritual in alignment and Steve says going in hurts ish yeah who is it that said it last time they said ooh going into my emotional body hurts I said yeah that's probably because you haven't cleaned it up in years like going into my garage if I haven't cleaned it season by season by season it's terrible but my inside house though it's dusted and it's cleaned and do it cuz I cuz I'm cleaning it daily vacuuming it regularly but if I want to clean my garage the attic it's gonna be really different than cleaning my kitchen or my bedroom so is your body like your garage like your attic like your kitchen or you're like your bedroom how frequently are you going in how frequently are you really exploring your emotions and your reactions and your feelings how frequently are really honoring what's going on so yes Steve going in hurts ish because we've been conditioned not to go in because when we wanted to be sad we were told to suck it up that life is okay that things are okay when we want to be sad we were received with anger but it's okay nobody did wrong nobody is bad nobody meant in tear it meant poor poor intentions just part of human conditioning John's rabbit is gonna die animals are gonna die people are gonna die now how we deal with it at five or fifty seventy thirty forty Sean I don't remember if I know how old you are just depends on when I'm ready to grow and expand from this when I'm ready we're here it's again it's the universal the university 35 shod 35 it's it's the it's it's it's just the design universal the human journey design the architecture of our human journey we come independent we have no choice no control we are these little babies that unless we're fed changed and taken care of that we expect a sense of security some people get it some people don't and all of that conditioning then at 18 19 20 25 16 14 were adults and we have to do it on our own and that's when we have the choice to say what are we gonna believe how are we gonna think and what do we want to be and some people will continue the path that they were on and some people will create a whole new life because they say I don't want to do what my parents did we have choice we have choice that's the alignment with inner power well just typing I'm 35 gave me a wave of anxiety to think that the fear of getting old beautiful beautiful many people would be envious of 35 could we just honor that age is beautiful and age is just what it is and and it's just how we feel internally not externally put it in 35 is another way of being fearful of death because the older we get is we think we're approaching death and just sort of honor who we are and our life and our zeal for life and that if I can be on a track where life is getting better and I'm being freer and I'm becoming worthier with feeling a sense of worthiness because you always are ultimately worthy that I'm living life perfectly can we go there Sean can we go there sporty Jen I felt guilty that I live lived and he died beautiful sporty Jen get to it get to it get to it I feel guilty that I lived and he died I feel angry with God because my sister died of cancer and she didn't want to leave this is very powerful stuff Manal and I want to adopt a healthier way of feeling all aspects of life sporty Jen beautiful you go had a lot of trauma and you shared it in attaining your authentic life all of the different things and yes it's freaking overwhelming and and I had to sort of reflect and I'm like okay again the conditioning in life you were meant to experience a lot of death and so what does that say to me that says to me that you are have some powerful learnings and teachings to get in this life that you picked and again you can choose that you picked or that God picked it doesn't really matter but it was picked you picked a life where you're experiencing significant amounts of death and and and pain so there's something really big for you to learn and to evolve and it's powerful but you're only gonna do it by stopping and feeling every anger and feeling the overlapping of it and the complexity of it and the pain of it and going back within your body to whatever age that you experience them all and seeing where you buried it and seeing where you feel it and just loving it acknowledging it acknowledging it coming aware of it loving it and just really celebrating it and then saying I meant to grow I will grow from you I am meant to grow I will grow from you I am meant to grow I will grow from you because if we look at every experience of their opportunity from for growth all we do what we grow and that's what life is about growth and expansion boom growth and expansion growth and expansion why do I do the waves we're human it's gonna blip we're gonna blip we're gonna have experiences things are gonna happen it can't be this life will not be a straight line it will not be linear but let's find the upward trend let's find the upward trend and that's what I'm talking about Sean with your 35 are we upward trending are we getting happier freer,

Worthier and and those of you that this is your first time I say that we're calibrating to three things that we are inherently free,

Worthy and love but we don't always know it and conditioning has taught us from it and what we want to do is condition back to that.

Growth,

The love,

Worthiness and freedom.

Sean that's what it was it's as I get older it's another year closer to that that was the root of anxiety.

Beautiful so see it Sean see it because the truth is you could have died at 30 and you could die at 105 so if we're gonna start judging by the growth of the rate going then we're never being present with what is.

Let's get back to the presence of what is.

Accept that when it happens it will happen.

Recognize the fear of what's happening keeps me from living the free life and the beautiful life that I want and I'm gonna choose to live freely and beautifully and present and any fear keeps me from being present and I am going to choose presence.

I'm gonna choose beauty.

I'm gonna choose pleasure.

I'm gonna choose happiness.

Sean how's that resonating?

Everybody how's that resonating?

I'm seeing the hearts I like the hearts because it means it's resonating.

Sporty Gen love that growth and expansion dig deep beautiful Sporty Gen.

I can see now that your work is going into all of that repressed energy all that repressed emotion and I'm happy to go past the one and a half mark I've always put an hour and a half and go into your body because that's what I really want.

I'm Valerie hello Manel and everybody else glad I'm here glad you're here too Valerie.

Sean it feels so nice to choose a presence not future.

Yeah it really feels nice when we finally recognize oh my god I'm living in the past.

Grit guilt I'm living in the future anxiety and fear and true beauty of life is when I am present now and death is living in the future it's fear it's anxiety which is fears that we don't want to call and it's not being present and it's feeling powerlessness and it's not trusting and surrendering and it's life it's life death is life.

I Steve I identify with every thing but if it sometimes Steve and I feel it okay Steve I think you're feeling about emotions identify with everything but when I feel it then I don't like it I don't get to feel it the first time and then I feel numb think you're talking about your emotions when you don't like it it means that you're resisting it and you're calling it bad that your anger is bad your sadness is bad your fear is bad when we don't like it that means that there's a judgment on it that's why I like to guide us all and again Sporty Jet I know you talked about in your abdomen that anxiety let's go to it now Steve go to a feeling right now in your body everybody pick a body feeling that you have right now feel an emotion or feel a physical sensation okay everybody go there Steve fix something that you're finding find some sort of resistance so if you want to feel it in your body or if you feel it emotionally which is still in your body but if you want to find it localized or more generally okay I've got my spot now sort of go into it now there's a part of my body that's been hurting for the last couple of days and I've been resisting it and not liking it and feeling that it's wrong to hurt so your emotion you might feel like it's bad to feel sadness it's bad to feel angry it's bad to carry that so feel it recognize your resistance that you're holding to it it should not be I should not judgment and control Steve look for the frozen and frozen is resistance to feeling if you want to start with frozen that's fine frozen is a resistance to feeling Andrea hello to you so feel it now sometimes your physical or your motion can give you insight to what you're feeling it could be a story it could go to an emotion it can tell you a moment when you were younger just like which Sean went in and you could feel like oh that was my rabbit dying at five so when you dig in it's connected to memories and it can bring in your recall see whether there is any recall that you get when you feel into your emotion your physical so mind it I can feel a sense of control and feeling out of control so the physical pain that I'm feeling feels out of control I connected with mine so everybody connected Steve feel you're frozen and you're frozen is resistance to feeling now honor it see your emotion and see your physical sensations from a place of love and understanding feel it from a desire to understand it and to accept it Steve accept you're frozen you now acknowledge for me it was my control so everybody find what it was what's the desire what's the deeper desire surrender freedom acceptance for me it's freedom so acknowledge acknowledge be happiness worthiness freedom trust knowledge sometimes you have to see what you don't want to recognize what you do want I want you to shift it in the positive not I do not want to feel out of control I want to be in alignment with my inner power so if you're thinking in the negative invite what it is the positive Valerie it's trust beautiful so if you're thinking in the negative invite fully invite the positive appreciate yourself the moment the experience life recognize that life is here to teach us and it's about us learning to be students of life find the beauty in the celebration of life again removing resistance that this is all bad to say oh this is life this is teaching me this is a teacher this is an experience Andrea beautiful inner joy and Valerie trust beautiful for me it's freedom and that this point you could let go let go let go of that energy that connected with let go and sometimes like I I couldn't like let it go physically by sort of shaking it off or wiping it off breathing in beautiful air the universal power air and breathing out all the resistance breathing in and breathing out and then surrender surrender finding a beautiful surrender in life signing the beautiful surrender acceptance of love and the beauty of life life is beautiful my approach is for us to recalibrate to the beauty in life so many beautiful elements of life we've been conditioned to not see life as beautiful we will recondition to see the beauty of life okay everybody how are you feeling come in to me come back out of your bodies and back into the room if you want to stay in your body and you want to go through it again and if you feel any other any tension or any feelings tell me how you feel sporty Jen did that deal with what you were feeling in your abdomen everybody talked to me beautiful letting go of the need to know why this is beautiful this has been brought up a few times Sean brought it up to it's needing to know Ren said it too it's not knowing letting go of the need to know why these things happen in my life I want to surrender so much this is very helpful beautiful so guys want to know is a form of control wanting to know is a form of control control the external whatever you're meant to know will come trust so sporty Jen see what the feeling of needing to know feels like find that feeling everybody everybody everybody that talked about wanting to know and having that feel if you could feel that feeling okay feel that feeling Steve desire doesn't have to make sense either I'm just trying to figure it out you just gotta let go into it yes you got to go into it to let go you just got to go into it to let go and you go into it without indulging in it you go into it with curiosity acceptance exploration love honor beauty okay so did everybody connect how to go into it Ren first of all trust that you can know that you can and again invite you could either invite it by bringing in a thought or if the emotion is present or if you could feel it physically in your body so there's three ways to enter your body one is you invite thoughts a negative thought that the desire to know or not knowing so you talked about death and you said well I don't know what's gonna happen so think of that thought and then see how it makes you feel and then go into that like you're savoring it like finding some like complex tastes that you're trying savor those emotions to go into it sort of like Steve is talking about feeling frozen and sporty Jen talked about that too that's we were resisting the feeling what we want to do is sort of relax and go into your feeling and sort of feel sadness feel the wanting to control feel that fear tell me if that helped so everybody go into your needing to know and see if you can label it control maybe worthiness that you're dumb that you feel dumb and you feel like you don't know maybe it's about happiness that you feel that you need to suffer and struggle so go into that like what does that needing to know feel trust lack of trust powerlessness you can really feel it and want to really have fun with it fly over your timeline and figure out when did you get conditioned into that feeling as a baby in the womb I always like to start in the womb you could even start before that when you start to really have fun with it starting the will as a baby as a toddler the child your mom your dad when your caretakers your siblings and experience what conditioned you to feel like you need to control your powerless need to know sporty gen that very strong powerful resistance to not feel how it really feels I think this goes back to childhood again Jack lack of trust not being to express myself without fear beautiful ray I blame puberty beautiful beautiful now instead of blaming and going back to that childhood try to come in from a place of love now recognition that the lesson that you're growing the growth and expansion you're having today couldn't have been without these moments those no one's being negative recognize that they're there that the stepping stones for your growth that when you play your movie back of your life those were pivotal moments that are allowing you to grow so the first ship that we want to do is how we can open ourselves up for these experiences that have been labeled as negative or resistant building as being a catalyst for growth and to find compassion and love for the conditioning that you have been uniquely given to guide you to going within yourself Steve yes all that making me want to drink I'm kidding but not yes drink is a great way to numb our feelings so it was beautiful so that's beautiful yes it is not what we haven't learned to feel our feelings this can feel overwhelming just we'll take it slowly guys inspiration by inspiration meditation by meditation what do they say the arc wasn't built overnight Steve I know now I have to go into that yes yes but you don't have to you're choosing to because you're choosing to grow and expand so sporty Jen and and ray go to those moments and everybody go to your moment that you're feeling Steve go to your moment and then see if you can find how to switch it to compassion Sean it was Rome that wasn't built in a day the arc was built over a few days too Steve I'm so sorry it's so so sad so unconnected find that moment of unconnection then find the moment of unconnection so I ready go through your timeline again and find that moment beautiful there's something about honoring yourself that feels empowering honoring little Jen sporty Jen that's beautiful beautiful ray honor puberty Hubert pre-pupil betic I'm not saying the word right ray honor that time in puberty what is it what is it that made you feel no longer that that puberty is such an interesting between child and adult and so many changes to your body and and and discomforts and yeah my time during puberty it doesn't hadn't in the past given me warm fuzzy feelings and awkward and and child but adult and and all this stuff but again if you had a difficult period during puberty was conditioning that was meant for you to grow into the man that you are the person that you are so everybody just sort of put love and compassion over the those experiences that we have been conditioned to resist love and compassion over those things that we call trauma or hard or difficult that we can't connect with that were pain love because that was for your growth maybe not then maybe it took you a while to carry it but absolutely now if it's coming into your experience those were meant to help you to grow and that is beautiful wonderful so connect with it acknowledge again the deeper desire for growth for expansion for trust for love for freedom sort of feel into it celebrate the human journey the architecture of life the art the design the great design of life beautiful actually brilliant now let go of any resistance anything that's at the surface of feeling disconnected of not of feeling hardened of not being willing and if we doesn't matter we're gonna chip at it we're chipping at it we talk about it's a muscle it's a muscle we're gonna chip at it until we're fully resistant free there's some things that I continue to work on that happened to me when I was younger and it comes out in different ways but less calibrating ray my inner child sees that time as a loss of freedom to just be beautiful ray beautiful and can you tell that inner child that you're unconditionally free and that you will journey towards a beautiful life to resonate to that truth of your ultimate freedom and that life does feel unfree at times and that's just part of the beautiful conditioning of life can you tell that inner child that you're gonna work with that baby and that child until they calibrate to the truth of your full freedom that as humans we are fully free the model the design is for us to be free and our beliefs our thoughts our feelings and our inner self and that the feeling of not being free is a natural part of the conditioning natural part of the human evolution but you're gonna work back to calibrate to full freeness ray can you tell that child that does that resonate just like how beautiful it all is we all have different things that we were conditioned to and that we're going to but we're all the same because we can all relate to the Rays loss of freedom we can all relate to Steve's not being connected we can all relate to Ren's resistance we can all relate to sporty gems anger and sadness we can all relate to Valerie's desire for trust but our stories are different and our timelines are different and the way we got here was different and the people that we are different it's beautiful Valerie sometimes writing my inner child helps me a lot to acknowledge her yes I love looking at the inner child and and loving of the inner child and recognizing all parts of our body have different ages Sean we talked about you being 35 but there's elements in you that are younger you have told us before actually you told us when I forgot what session it was it was your your age and it's it's beautiful it's beautiful just write your inner child writing from your higher self to your to your to your other self your higher self to your human self and and just sort of having the different voices coming in from your ego because your higher self to your physical self hi Ray I can tell him but I think he's still ticked off willfully little thing beautiful honor that anger and ask him where that anger is coming from and and tell him that that anger is great because that anger is leading you to freedom that anger is leading you to your greater desires so see that to anger see that ticked off and honor it don't bury it honor it honor it and honor him for for for being resolute in that anger until we could see that anger until you could see that anger because first you talked about it seeing as a loss of freedom and now you're really going into the feeling of it the anger of it so feel again I love to taste feel taste taste the multi dimensions of those emotions of that anger honor it recognize the beauty in the human conditioning normal what's not normal is us making this all bad sporty Jen I visualize meeting little Jen and allowing her to speak or just giving her how beautiful allow her to speak to yell to scream to be angry to be happy to just to do all the things until she comes into her piece a toddler when they're having a tantrum the best thing is to allow them to express it to express it to let it come out the best way to deal with the toddlers tantrum tantrum temper tantrum is to allow it if it's safe it's safe I remember once my little baby who's no longer my little baby in Disney is having a temper tantrum I think you wanted some candy or something and it was in one of the stores in Disney and I remember he was number three so at that point the stuff I didn't take seriously and personally personally not seriously but he was I don't know what he did during the store and I remember there were people around and I'm like is he yours cuz he's not mine and just the way I did it he got out of himself really quickly cuz he realized mom's not giving me this intention and I'm getting what I'm wanting but see the temper tantrum see it acknowledge it honor it Sean my friends coming for tea so I need to go but thanks Manal and everybody great session fantastic Sean and Sean you didn't come for intuitive eating and that was your request it's online now so I hope that you were able to watch it was actually a great I don't think you were on there but fantastic but it is getting late at 146 how is everybody feeling could go into your billing I know I feel really sad I missed it it's online it's 90 minutes it's a talk and it's fabulous I think there was a really great things in it I think you'll get some good thing out of it so go for it and watch it but and we'll do another one again soon but it's great to see you so how is everybody feeling how is everybody feeling did you get to get out that energy and and are you feeling reconnected with who you are Sammy says hello he's coming in and Sean is gonna watch thank you for being here today fantastic how is everybody feeling did I get us out of our bodies quicker or did you give your bodies that compassion and love and it's all about going deep into our bodies and and honoring and acknowledging all of the stories and just freeing yourself of the resistance that is within your bodies good Andrea only 345 morning here so still sleepy feeling happy to see you meet you I'm so happy to see you too and today or tomorrow I'll be scheduling something for the evenings for you sporty Jen I'm shattered Manel tell me what shattered is but thank you so much that was truly amazing think we all did good you're shattered is that positive or negative sporty Jen because I wanted to go into all of your feelings I don't know if we captured it shattered good or bad Manel how do you do this all the time I mean is it heavy can you walk away like not caring if this is your work oh my god Steve I feel fantastic this is beautiful this is beautiful this is beautiful you know I don't like saying the word healing because to me healing means something broken we are all willing to acknowledge things that we have been kept trapped within us this journey to me is an honor for everybody to be open and share and say I am scared of death and like oh so am I oh so my eyes oh so why why did you get it my cat died my dog died my parent died my this died my whatever and for us to talk about it this is human journey we've been taught to be ashamed and to think that experiences are negative it's so beautiful I do feel so helpless or something I want to help people so much Steve the best way for us to help others is by going inside it's going inside and for so long I wanted to help people and I had to go inside inside inside and then people that were drawn to you would come to you and then inspiration everything would allow things to happen so you keep going in keep doing your work and you are helping even being here the way that you're talking but you are helping us talking to each other sporty Jen sharing her stories sharing her anger sharing her resistance helps us you talking about not feeling connected helps us all you are helping we are all helping and we all have different ways that we empower and that we lead and that we're part of each other's lives it's beautiful sporty Jen exhausted but good positive and uplifted fantastic sporty Jen I want to make sure that we got into yours and and you have the tools you have the tools and when I meditate at night sometimes I do it but with a guided meditation and sometimes I just go into my emotional body and I'll pick an emotion sadness and keep finding it from my body everywhere through find what the stories that come with it be surprised when new stories come up or the old reoccurring surprise at stories oh wow ups I I see that okay I appreciate that boom let it go let it go let it go so so it's a journey it's all part of the journey feeling everything Steve feeling his helplessness feel that helplessness if you're aligned with your inner power you are aligned with beautiful power it's wonderful we're all where we're meant to be we're all growing we're all expanding and we just create the intention to calibrating to hire we will do that so beautiful exhausted but good positive uplifted sporty Jen I'm so happy to great hear that Ashley is feeling great as well thank you Ashley sporty Jen I think if that's a good way to learn to process I like that yeah we've all taught been taught intellectually everything we all know intellectually everything it's not the intellectual guys it's the emotional that's keeping us from shifting let's just invite it let's just explore it let's go into it let's understand and it's also the egoic what are the beliefs what are my identity how am I gonna calibrate to empowering beliefs let me let go of beliefs that did not does not and did not serve me and let's adopt beliefs that really empower me and liberate me and free me let's do that and we do it inspiration by inspiration meditation by meditation attaining your authentic life it's amazing it's beautiful okay I feel complete is everybody feeling good I see some hearts is anybody is there anything on the surface that anybody wants to talk about that they're feeling how is everybody I love the hearts I really love the hearts when they come up because sometimes I talk and I'm like is this being received and I see all these hearts I'm like oh it is it is it is everybody everybody everybody do I take the heart that everything is good so Thursday we're talking about creativity it's all about connecting with creativity Thursday at 11 a.

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There's a bunch of topics that were requested last time that I'm gonna put on the schedule for the next few weeks things are normal now that back to after Labor Day things are back to back to normal I'm so I'll have things more regular Steve do you know I have a meditation and a talk calling about whether it's the thought or the feeling is it the thought or the feeling that's first sometimes thought sometimes the feeling sometimes we feel something when we feel it did you know that Steve did you know that were you playing with me sometimes the feeling you walk into a room and you got a feeling you're walking down the street and you look behind your back you look and you see somebody's looking at you you get a feeling you you're doing something you're minding your own business and all of a sudden you feel great or you feel like oh shit I got I said shit you're not supposed to say that you feel like something something why do you feel embarrassed but that's okay we'll talk about that but sometimes it's a feeling you know you're just washing dishes and then a feeling comes over you to call somebody to do something sometimes it's a feeling and sometimes it's a thought that makes the feeling that you're doing something and you get this thought that is your feeling so that's the beauty sometimes it's that sometimes it's the feeling and becoming aware when is it my thought when is it my feelings when is it that I can affirm with my ego with beliefs to rescript my thoughts and when is it that I have to honor my feelings to process it sometimes we could go top down sometimes bottoms up so it's that awareness that's the process to feeling and becoming embarrassed I'm embarrassed becoming empowered oh was that my thought or my feeling oh it started with the feeling I got that feeling that feeling told me to go call so-and-so I just called so-and-so and they had some great news for me oh I just thought this now I felt scared oh now I'm thinking about my past oh wow I lost my focus instead of being present I'm thinking about something that happened yesterday now I feel bad that's thought feeling so even you now when I said that you said nope embarrassed now but okay boom that embarrassed was from a thought oh no there was a judgment did you know that no I didn't now I'm embarrassed boom that was a thought so the beauty is in understanding when is it a thought when is it a feeling and what's the best way to climb out of it what's the best way to climb out of it whether it's by honoring the feeling and then we processing your beliefs and your thoughts or it's whether you just we affirm what your beliefs are and then allow that to do and it just depends on how strong and how conditioned that feeling is so that feeling came from when you're three or four you can't just shift your thoughts you have to go dig deep understand the emotion and then ultimately let it go does that answer Steve I love I love I love the connection between our bodies and I love the empowerment of knowing it and and and being liberated from it and and just and just last week when we talked about it I talked about deconstructing how we talked about deconstructed key lime pie and that you got the lime that's different than the cross that's different than the cream cheese and what I like is deconstructing our beliefs from our thoughts from our feelings from our being so we can really start to understand where is it coming from Steve yes a lot of these concepts are new and they were never trained and it's okay because that's where it's the muscle it's the muscle that I keep talking about let's build up our muscle yes hard to think like that never trained but it's okay exactly it's exactly it's okay but it's okay not in a way to like dismiss but it's okay I'm learning it's okay I'm growing it's okay I'm expanding so the it's okay is coming from a point of truly not dismissing and not not connecting but from a true place of understanding compassion and love good good but that's a fantastic question anything else anything else on the surface everybody feeling good fantastic well I am feeling fantastic I want to thank everybody for being here today I thought it was wonderful I didn't realize that when we came to death it was going to be about alignment with our inner power and connection with external power so I really feel like there was a huge shift for me in my understanding that to really be in alignment with the beauty and the acceptance of death that I need to be aligned with my inner power and also connected with that infinite external power and to honor it and it's that alignment which will ultimately lead me to the peace the peace and the acceptance and the surrender to life and death so I love you all I hope to see you on Thursday if not there are many inspirations coming up you are all amazing this is not an easy topic to talk about and you all made it so easy and so beautiful and so powerful and so empowering you are all amazing I love you all my love always