Hello everyone and welcome to the meditation channel.
If you're ready,
Close your eyes,
Get yourself in a comfortable position and listen to my voice.
And beginning to follow your breath,
Getting yourself into a peaceful state,
Into a relaxed state,
Breathing in and out,
Breathing into your heart,
And just taking a moment to embrace yourself as you are right here,
No matter how you feel or what's going on.
Full acceptance and being present.
Today's meditation is designed to help you process resentment,
Anger,
Frustration,
Negative memories,
Whatever it may be towards your family.
Many of us had hoped for a happy family,
For a family that supports us,
But sometimes life doesn't go that way.
And as time passes,
That negative emotion never leaves,
It's like a ghost haunting you.
And so today,
We're going to give ourselves the gift to release some of that tension,
Some of that toxic energy,
Allowing ourselves to be present in a peaceful state,
In a state where we feel free.
And so to begin with,
Let's acknowledge where we're at.
It's okay that you feel the way you feel.
I'm sure you have a very valid reason.
This is normal to feel and react this way.
And so inviting yourself to awaken those negative emotions,
Whatever is going on with you right here,
Right now.
Just facing it,
Just being honest with yourself,
Being raw and vulnerable.
And taking a moment to acknowledge your protective mechanism.
Maybe it's anger,
Maybe it's frustration,
Maybe it's resentment,
But I invite you to look deeper into yourself and see beyond this mask.
Diving deeper and deeper to how you truly feel,
Softening up your heart for the moment.
You don't need to protect yourself right now.
No one is judging you.
No one is here to give their opinion.
It's just you.
And underneath that shell,
Underneath that wall,
That armor,
Allowing yourself to see yourself wounded,
Sad,
Hurt,
Vulnerable,
Fragile.
Deep,
Deep down,
Being truly honest,
Disappointed,
Let down,
Betrayed,
Keep digging.
And if you begin to feel emotions well up,
Let them be there.
See your inner child.
See your inner child before they knew how to protect themselves and defend themselves.
So fragile.
And in your mind's eye,
Just seeing them,
I want you to visualize yourself as an adult now,
Sitting by them,
Comforting them,
Hugging them,
Letting them feel all of the emotions.
And remembering what happened,
Asking yourself,
What did my younger self need at that time?
What did they need and never got?
And so telling them,
It's not your fault.
It's not your fault.
Let them know how loved they are,
How precious they are,
How all of this has nothing to do with them.
Maybe take the time to explain how adults are hurt themselves and never healed themselves.
And they're asleep.
You know you better than anyone else.
You know what you needed to hear at that time.
So comfort yourself.
Tell yourself everything.
Praise yourself.
Love yourself.
Help yourself.
And now seeing that younger self beginning to grow older,
Taking you to another timeline a little further down.
Maybe you're a teenager now.
And once again,
Noticing the damage,
The repercussions of their actions onto you.
And once again,
Show up for your younger self.
Remind them that they're loved.
Remind them of everything you told them the first time.
Explain everything to them,
Why your family did what they did,
How none of this is your fault.
Let them feel and see the truth.
Taking that pressure off of yourself,
Allowing yourself to calm down and receive the information that is going to help you.
And continuing to move through time now.
Another timeline in your past,
Closer to your future,
To your present.
And once again,
Sitting by your own side and telling yourself everything again,
Reminding yourself,
You are worthy.
I see you.
I love you.
Comforting yourself once again and giving yourself the love that you needed at this time in your life.
Maybe they needed validation.
Maybe they needed to be seen.
Maybe they just needed company,
Whatever it is.
And moving through time once again,
Now coming to the present.
And taking a moment to comfort yourself here and now.
Seeing yourself as you are now and also seeing your future self that is healed by your side.
Feeling the love and the comfort from yourself,
Knowing that you will heal,
You will overcome this.
And now your future self sits by you and says,
When you heal,
They no longer have any power over you.
You will no longer feel the pain,
The resentment,
The anger.
You will look back in time and feel sorry for them.
They missed an opportunity.
They missed a chance.
And they never really truly understood.
But this is not for you to fix.
This is not for you to do.
Your job is to love and care for you.
And so with that,
Your future self places their hands on your chest.
A beautiful emerald green light enters your heart,
Melting away that darkness,
That heaviness,
That wounding.
All of that love that you wanted from your family,
Now you have it in this moment,
Right here,
Right now.
And so ask yourself,
What was missing?
And give it to yourself here and now.
And whatever you're holding on to,
Whatever's been haunting you,
I want you to give your future self permission to take it from you now.
Set yourself free.
This does not mean you let them get away with it.
It means you let yourself be free.
You let yourself live the life that you deserve,
Free from them,
Free from the past.
And so taking a deep breath in on the out-breath,
Just seeing that darkness being removed.
Another deep breath in and letting it go once again.
And suddenly now your future self hugs you and they slowly,
Slowly merge with you,
Becoming one.
As they do this,
You absorb their wisdom,
Their healing and their light.
You are them now,
Free of all,
Free of the pain,
Free of the heaviness.
Feeling light,
Open and healed.
I encourage you to continue to stay in this meditation for a little longer.
But if you're ready to return,
Begin to bring yourself back very slowly and gently.
Expanding your awareness outwards.
Taking a few deeper breaths,
Intentional breathing.
Maybe beginning to wiggle your toes and your fingers.
And when it feels right,
Open your eyes.
