And yeah,
I'm kind of bumbling with my being a human,
I think.
I try to control my journey and yeah,
That's what I felt after your message and I could see that.
Yeah,
I don't know if you have something to advise but yeah,
It's just what's coming up.
I felt like my normal day-to-day just caught me and I kind of was stuck in there.
Yeah,
And I'm trying to like control and schedule when I have time myself and it's not gonna help.
Good,
This is it,
Good.
So we go on the journey and we notice that we're asleep,
We're going back to sleep and then we try to control,
Right?
Now,
You guys,
You will stay awake when you really get that it's safer to be awake than asleep.
Truly,
When you get it,
You'll have no trouble staying awake.
Franka,
This is why I was talking about self-compassion,
Is actually I feel very few people get me on this.
Actually,
I feel very few people get me,
Which is a comedy.
It's just a comedy with you guys because it's like I used to be so confused and now I'm clear but I feel like it's not always clear to you guys but anyway.
Yeah,
Franka,
The half step is self-compassion for just going back to sleep and then trying to control your journey.
When you see it,
Just seeing it will clear it.
Do you understand?
You actually don't have to fix,
You guys,
You don't have to fix.
It's like when you see the darkness,
You stop doing it.
You will stop doing it.
Like it might be a bit delayed or you'll do it less,
Franka,
So you'll be less likely to try to control because you just know it doesn't work.
Just seeing,
You guys,
This is,
You know,
When the non-dual people talk about self-inquiry,
This is actually it.
When you say,
Who am I really?
That lifts you up into witnessing your life and witnessing what you're doing.
Franka,
The self-compassion,
I actually think there's a hope that you could get it.
It's like I can feel a flicker in you that gets it.
Do you know what I'm talking about?
Yeah,
I can feel that there's something in you that gets the self-compassion.
It's sort of like if all else fails,
You can always take refuge in self-compassion.
It's what I did.
I mean,
I would also take refuge in the Buddha and everything but there was this idea of self-compassion and then I finally felt it and that's what,
Over time,
I would wish for you,
That you feel it and once you feel it,
You have experienced God.
That's God.
It is the soul in you,
The creator in you,
The Amma in you that has compassion for you.
Your ego can't.
It doesn't believe in anything other than power and control.
