Q&A: Feeling Safe Enough To Navigate Our Inner Depth

Amma's Grace.

And may,

You know,

Being here with Amma,

Her love is so thick in the air,

And may it be transmitted to you even more than normal.

Yeah.

And may we ask for her grace to get the knowledge,

Because you can get it very quickly now.

Don't underestimate this.

You don't have to rush it or anything.

The comprehension will just be woven into you.

You just come with an open mind and open heart.

That's all you need to do.

And remember to believe in yourself,

Because it doesn't matter what you're struggling with.

You know,

You're God in human form.

And when I say,

You know,

I wish I had a video of what I was like,

Really.

So,

You know,

The upside,

You don't know the upside of where you're going to get to before you pass over the level of awareness that you're going to reach.

So just leave it wide open.

You know,

No,

No limits.

Yeah.

You deserve to be held in the love that's going to take you into a much higher vibration.

You're being held in it.

And it will just gradually be woven into your minds and your bodies.

Truly,

When I look back,

That's what happens.

That's what happens.

Premasuddha,

Like didn't know,

Like,

Really,

I mean,

I didn't even know what I was doing.

And I just got guided,

You know.

Okay,

So questions or observations for I promise you that Saskia Saskia,

Everybody's one.

Yeah.

I have a question.

Can you?

Can you hear?

Hear?

Yeah.

Can you hear me?

Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah,

I can.

I can hear you.

Yes.

Yeah.

Okay.

I feel like there.

Yeah.

Okay.

I just try.

I guess I need help with something.

It started many,

Many,

I don't know,

Maybe six months ago.

I told you about it.

My left leg and hip pain and I started limping.

And six weeks ago,

It got worse and worse and I cannot walk properly anymore.

I can just not stand or put weight on my left leg.

So I'm limping.

And it's okay.

I'm not in pain.

And I just,

I know it'll pass.

So I live with it.

But lately,

I got these pictures and it was I didn't understand one was my leg was stuck in Germany.

And I was in Canada.

So I felt like I was in a split between the two countries,

Which I still kind of can maybe understand,

But then it's faded.

And now my leg keeps feeling like it's in a bear claw.

Like I can't.

It's just in a bear claw and it's not a leg.

I can't I feel like I don't have a leg,

A left leg.

And I guess I need help with that.

That's good.

You actually need help coming down to your feelings to actually feel you have a very interesting inner life.

But you do what lots of us women do we get we get these pictures.

The pictures are composed of feelings.

And people,

You know,

Will will try to stay at the picture level with me,

But it's not solvable there.

It's solvable with you dropping down to feel what you really feel about things.

You understand this?

Yes.

Right.

Because you know,

Any answer that I can give you at the level of your question is just going to keep your mind happy,

It's not going to help your heart,

It will just keep your mind happy.

For a very brief period,

You'll go okay,

That's it.

And within half an hour,

The answer will be useless.

You'll realize it's just useless.

It's not solved anything.

Yeah.

Now Saskia,

The truth is you're very scared to get down to the truth of Saskia.

Okay.

Right.

It feels very blocked.

It feels like a block.

Yeah.

I mean,

We've been running often we've been running for ourselves our whole lives.

Have you been to the doctor like just in case it's arthritis?

And there's no arthritis?

Yeah.

There's a little bit.

There's a tiny bit he says,

But yeah,

It's it's been checked.

It's not really I don't think that's the reason.

And it's not really the physical.

I don't know.

Sweetie,

I want you to really think about my answer to your question,

Sweetie.

I mean,

I'll tell you,

You do not want to deal with your feelings.

Okay.

Like,

Really strongly,

You do not want to.

Okay.

Like,

It will be it's like your worst nightmare,

Actually,

For you to actually get down to the truth of actually how you feel.

It's like.

Yeah,

You you,

You started a little bit.

And then you go,

Oh,

Who knows what monster you'll find or.

Right.

And it's like you're scared little child energies coming up.

This is good.

Scared little child energy.

Right.

But I'll tell you,

It's very sweet.

It's very sweet to just get down to the truth of you.

It's like,

It'll be like the big door opening.

You'll be like,

This is what I was scared of.

Really?

It'll be like coming home,

Sweetie.

But you're going to have to steer there.

Because I'll tell you,

Lots of times students will try to like,

They'll,

They'll want to be on the spiritual journey,

Then they don't want to actually do the things like want to be on the spiritual journey.

But I don't want to feel my feelings.

And I don't want to be kinder to people.

And I just want to feel better.

And it's not gonna work.

It's not the journey.

But it's very human.

And you know,

Karmasutra knows this in herself.

There's nothing,

There's nothing in you guys that I've seen all in myself.

You know,

When the body gets out of whack like this,

You just being prayerful,

Just going forward with an open heart and noticing your body and what it goes through.

Just being with it will solve it,

Saskia.

You don't have to do anything to fix this.

In fact,

Anything you do to try to fix it will,

Will be be an error,

Even if you go like,

Okay,

Pramasutra said,

I have to feel my feelings.

So I'm really going to try and feel my feelings.

Don't even do that.

Don't do that.

Just,

Just have your new worldview be that,

Oh,

Okay,

I'm scared of feeling my feelings.

But it's,

It's nice to have toast in the morning,

I'm enjoying my cup of tea.

Sure,

I'm scared of feeling my feelings,

But it's okay.

It's the trying to fix and trying to evolve,

Trying to,

That,

That knocks us off.

You know,

Just,

Just wanting to love more.

You know,

Saskia,

I don't even feel that I can reach you right now.

I do hear what you say.

I do hear that.

And it's,

It's something I can hold on to,

You know,

This telling myself,

It's okay to not feel my,

That I'm afraid to feel my feelings.

Yeah,

It's okay.

It's like,

Yeah,

It's like self-compassion,

You know.

You know,

The only way I got anywhere was just through admitting this stuff and then just having compassion for myself.

I'm feeling,

I'm feeling like,

You know,

That I'm speaking and I'm,

I'm really wanting to reach your guys' hearts.

And I'm feeling that there,

There must be a big realignment that we're doing in the group because I'm feeling like,

Uh,

Not,

Not understood actually,

And not just by you,

Saskia.

So don't,

Don't worry.

It just takes time.

And,

You know,

What,

Okay,

Saskia,

Will you please tell the group what you,

Your big insight that you told me about?

Okay.

Tell the group what it was.

Well,

When Pramasutra was talking about trust,

Um,

All of a sudden I realized that I don't have any trust and something came up like,

Like love for the child I was,

And I felt love for the child that had to go through life without being trusted in.

And for the first time,

I really felt like,

I guess it was,

I think it was love.

And I guess it was also compassion for that little child that had to go through life with not trusting.

Right.

And that was,

Yeah,

That was it.

Right.

So just telling the group,

Sweetie,

You will end up moving into more trust because it's a safe group.

Okay.

And when we expose this stuff in a safe place,

We end up trusting.

And really what you're talking about,

The whole issue with your hip,

It's around,

You know,

The same lack of trust is coming up,

Right?

It's not getting better.

It's still hurting.

Do you know what I mean?

Like,

So can you see the,

Do you understand you guys,

Sometimes you,

You get insights and you'll go,

Okay,

I've got it now,

But you see,

It's an ongoing weave.

It's an ongoing working with that.

Seeing the distrust again,

Here it is again,

Your,

Your body's out of whack and it's not healing easily.

And you know,

What is it?

It's just,

You see these,

These things,

They don't go away overnight.

You work with it on an ongoing moment to moment.

In fact,

You may be working with lack of trust for years,

Saskia.

Like actually there's problems with lack of trust until enlightenment.

It's,

It's,

It's the gig.

It's the,

It's the terrain.

You know,

You feeling compassion for yourself like that is enough.

Just that was God coming through.

Do you understand?

You guys,

When you have an experience of self-compassion,

Where you really feel it,

That's God.

That's the whole thing of we're talking about.

That is perfection.

Having an experience like that.

Do you understand?

It's that.

It's not some bells and whistles.

It's that.

Yeah.

Right.

Okay.

I feel a penny dropping.

It's good.

There's no bells and whistles.

It's just that.

And then after that experience,

You would lose it again for the integration,

Right?

For the period of integration,

It would seem to go away.

Yeah.

It was good.

You brought it up.

But it's that and you keep working with that over and over.

And the self-compassion gets stronger and stronger and stronger,

And bigger and bigger and bigger.

Okay.

Right.

So how are you feeling right now?

Be really honest.

Saskia,

How are you feeling?

I can feel that again,

Just far away.

I can feel this.

I feel the compassion,

But far away.

It's not in me,

But I can feel it outside of me.

Okay.

Okay.

And it could be,

This could be part of the problem with your leg,

Too,

Is just that split.

You know,

You'll find out.

Get interested in it,

You know?

Like,

What is this?

And notice the data.

It's like your own private Sherlock Holmes thing.

You have to be a bit like a detective,

You guys,

Figuring yourself out,

Seeing connections.

It's true.

You kind of decode yourself.

Yeah,

Good.

So I'm feeling that you're feeling more safety to do that.

Yeah.

And it's what the what the satsang's for,

To help promote safety.

I didn't hear this part.

It's okay.

I heard it now.

Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Sweetie,

Just,

You know,

Just be with the pain.

Okay,

You're in pain.

Be with the pain.

Don't try to run from it or try to fix it.

Be with it.

Be in it.

Be with it.

Pray.

Don't run.

It will lift.

You'll be lifted out of it.

Okay.

It takes time.

It's good.

What you did today is good work.

Good.

Yeah,

You guys.

Life is painful.

Come on.

It is.

I mean,

It's glorious,

But it's painful.

Yeah.

Like,

Let's get real.

Especially in the world right now.

Okay.

I'll send you particular blessings.

And keep me posted.

Yeah.

Good.

Hi,

Prema Sudha.

Good,

Veronica.

Yeah,

I thought you had a- With Saskia.

You're not alone.

Yeah.

Yeah,

We could like send you all- This is very similar to what I had gone through as well.

With my right leg.

You know,

The hip is power.

And whatever left is a feminine.

Right is the masculine.

So,

You know.

Okay.

Any more questions?

Remember,

You know,

With evolution,

The normal human way is to just live horizontally,

To just go from experience to experience to experience.

But as soon as you really set off on the journey,

You start ascending.

And it's very hard psychologically.

It's harder on your psyche when you start going up.

And that's part of what you're suffering from.

That's part of your suffering.

Because what happens is you're clearing lifetimes that you don't even know about,

That you've forgotten about,

Or beyond your consciousness.

You know,

You're doing it while you're living this life,

And it will bring denser emotions,

And it will bring,

You know,

All kinds of feelings that you just don't know where they're coming from.

And it's from the lives.

Okay,

Good.

Laura.

Just what you said is happening.

On one hand,

I can feel myself going higher.

But I just got COVID again,

And it feels like my brain is hardening.

I can't think,

But I'm so angry.

And I don't know what to do with that.

So what do you do when that's happening?

Okay,

You watch the anger,

Sweet one.

You watch it.

You feel it,

And at the same time you watch it.

I keep writing it to Amma so I don't say it to someone.

Well,

Good.

You know,

It's underneath it is the deep grief of being out of touch with your soul energy.

You know that.

You know,

I have this funny disconnected feeling when I'm talking to you guys.

I feel like it's a great,

Like,

You know,

When kids come in from lunchtime and they don't want to be there,

And the teacher has to start teaching,

I feel like this.

It's kind of an energetic as if everybody's kind of like,

Oh,

I don't want to do this.

It's quite,

I've never felt this before.

It's very interesting.

Where have you gone,

Laura?

Come back.

Let me see your face,

Sweet one.

Can you pray to feel the grief underneath,

Laura?

I mean,

I know you kind of define yourself by your anger,

You know,

You kind of make it a big,

No,

But you do.

You do,

You define yourself with it,

And it's kind of like drop down,

Feel the separation underneath,

Feel the grief of feeling so suppressed.

There is grief.

Yeah,

Feel it.

Anger is a false power.

We think it's power.

It isn't.

It's not doing anything good for you at all.

And it's taking you away from your wisdom.

No.

Any time,

Sweetie,

You could allow this anger to heal,

You know,

Whether your brain's functioning or not.

Any time you could do it.

I can feel it subsiding while you're talking.

And I gave it down just before it just stopped.

Good.

And just ask for grace and to be open.

Good.

And remember,

This is a transmission.

So stuff can be dissolved just during the satsang,

You guys.

That's the whole point of raising things.

Remember?

I hope so.

Yeah,

But it's for you,

Laura,

To see your love affair with anger and to,

Like,

Give up this love affair.

Or at least start working with it.

Start working with it in a new way.

Like,

Okay,

Here's the anger.

Pramasutra tells me I'm playing games a bit.

Maybe I could just drop the anger,

Right?

Yeah.

Actually,

It's a little bit the same as Saskia.

Like,

You're scared to feel underneath.

You know,

You like the false power that the anger gives you,

And you're scared to feel underneath about what it's really made out of.

And I say this with the highest respect,

Sweetie.

It's like,

Over the time that I've met you,

You have done very good work.

There's no criticism in any of this.

I don't feel that.

Good.

Good,

Because there isn't any.

Yeah,

It's very results-oriented work.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

I feel there's more peace.

I'm so sorry you've got COVID,

Sweetheart.

Well,

We all send blessings to Laura.

COVID,

Yet again,

It's like,

Ah.

Yeah.

They haven't knocked me out yet,

Pramasutra.

I know.

You just keep going.

I know.

It's like,

I'll tell you.

I keep getting back up.

I'll tell you.

I'm betting on you,

Laura.

Like,

You've got my bets.

Like,

Yeah.

Right.

But,

I mean,

It'd be great to maybe get back up with less anger now,

Because it doesn't help you.

Like,

Lots of times when we're sensitive women,

We think we need the anger,

Or else we'll be run over by a truck.

But it's actually the opposite.

But that's exactly it.

That's exactly it.

I know.

But,

Sweetie,

I'll tell you what is running over you like a truck is your own disowned power,

Your own disowned love power.

When you feel the grief under this anger and allow the unconditional love to come in,

Nobody will mess with you.

Nobody will want to mess with you.

They'll just,

Everybody will just you just,

They'll just treat you better.

You'll get your needs met.

Do you see?

It's this deficit inside that you're scared to clear that sets up difficulty coming from the outside.

Do you guys get this?

To the extent that we're not willing to feel the fear and the separation underneath anger and let our soul energy come in,

That energy will be used by the universe to constellate troubles and challenges coming,

Seeming to come at us by the world and other people.

But it's us doing it.

This is why when you get enlightened,

Everything gets soft.

Your wishes come true.

You don't have to fuss because there's no obstruction.

You're not obstructing God's love for you.

Okay,

Laura,

I'm going to be very blunt.

You won't be able to transcend off the earth plane until you like work with this anger.

But you might do it on your deathbed and transcend that way.

But maybe you could really give it over and ask Amma to help you and clear this deeper material.

Thank you.

Maxi,

Do you have a question?

You keep calling to me.

Hello,

Everybody.

I don't know.

I don't really have like a question.

I just felt a lot more trust and love since last week's satsang.

I felt like my trust to Amma and to how I'm going to work,

It feels lighter and it seems like solutions are coming.

Yeah,

I feel blessed on a lot of moments,

But there are also moments where I just feel lost.

It's good and I'm fine with it,

I guess,

In this moment.

Maxi,

It's really good news.

I'm glad that you're feeling more trust.

Yeah,

I had my first patient this week,

A little boy,

And it was just amazing to do it.

I felt so much grace from Amma because it seemed like a case in a book,

A homeopathy patient.

So it was like,

Okay,

Amma,

That's the way how I would love to work.

So yeah,

It felt really like,

How do you say,

Seamless.

Yeah.

Yeah,

It feels very good to me.

Yeah,

This feels really good to me.

And before I said yes to the mom that I could find a medicine for her son,

I was like,

Oh,

I don't feel like I can start working and I don't know and I'm not ready enough.

And then I just decided,

Okay,

I'll just do it.

And I prayed before the session and felt like so much love afterwards.

It was,

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

So that's what I call you did a Geronimo.

You know,

You just jump,

Right?

So you feel insecure and everything,

But then you just jump,

Right?

And then you were happy after.

That's it,

You guys.

That's it.

Yeah.

Get used to living that way.

Yeah.

And it felt like proof to me too.

I was like,

Okay,

That's what Pramasutra means and says,

Okay,

Just do it and try and look how it feels.

And it was,

Yeah.

That's it,

Maxi,

You too.

Yeah,

Me too.

Yeah.

That's what I feel too.

Yeah.

And when you get onto it,

It's so simple,

Right?

And then you wonder what was the fuss about?

Because you know what I mean?

But we get onto it when we get onto it.

And I remember that big rock like was lifted off your back,

Whatever.

Okay.

And you know what I'd say?

That rock was your disowned power.

And by,

Yeah,

By feeling nervous and still going ahead,

It's like you're taking your power.

Oh,

Wow.

You see,

You guys,

If we don't take our power,

We will get obstructed.

It's our choice.

Okay.

Because all that energy has to go somewhere.

So,

It'll start making a rock that sits on our back or else we,

You know,

We step forward and we come into our love power.

Yeah.

Oh,

Good.

This very clear example,

Maxi.

Thank you.

This is a great gift to everybody.

Yeah.

Yeah,

For me too.

It was amazing.

Yeah.

And I can feel all this pain in my body.

So,

It feels like it's like the big stone like used to be on me and now it's and still my muscles still have to work with it and get it like getting out of my body.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Right.

That's it.

Actually,

That's it.

This stuff just goes through.

It just yeah.

Yeah.

That's it.

And now you know what you're working with.

Right.

And you'll get the you'll get the feeling and you'll this is this is it.

This is what I call paddling your own canoe.

You start working with your self and your issues and your body.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It felt like a like a muscle pain like I did a lot of sports.

Yeah.

I was yeah and it's still yeah.

You did a lot of sports or it feels like you did.

I feel I feel like I did a lot of sports.

Yeah.

Yeah.

On my shoulder.

Like I was carrying the heavy stone kind of sport.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Um that that is complex is leaving when you feel like you've been doing heavy lifting for a while.

It's and you haven't done.

It's complex is leaving.

And especially anything around the shoulders.

Remember it's like where our egos we're taking responsibility.

We need to give it over to god.

But it there'll be a lag sweetie.

There'll be a lag.

You know it may take three weeks for the for the pain to go.

You know.

But you're on the right track.

Yeah.

And before that I had a lot of I had a lot of pain in my solar plexus.

Like I don't know how to describe the pain.

It was like a uh like a I don't know how to say like a rock with a that kind of digs into my stomach.

And it's much better now too.

Yeah.

I had this for weeks and even months.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It will it will come up and it's like that's what would happen to me too.

And I had a lot of solar plexus pain as I was clearing control.

I can't hear you now.

It's so interesting.

It's like when I was saying it was when I was clearing control.

Solar plexus control.

So you're clearing it.

Good pain in the solar plexus is control.

And remember it's leaving as you feel it right.

And you so Saskia remember the complex is leaving even as you're feeling the pain of it.

Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Can I share one more thing?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Today or from yesterday on I was going to my old family and we had a family dinner today.

And it's so interesting how I feel just more peace about all my family members like even with all their however they are I just feel more love and feel lighter with them.

It's so interesting.

Yeah.

That's it.

That is empirical data.

Yeah.

That's it.

That's it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's good.

It feels good.

And you went through many months of frustration,

Right?

To get here.

Yeah.

Right.

You kept going.

You kept going.

And you listened to what I said,

Even when it bothered you,

You listened,

And you kept going.

And that's it,

Maxi.

Then you then you Yeah,

And then this is your Yeah,

This is your empirical evidence.

And then it'll,

It'll this strengthens your heart muscle.

So what happens is it gets stronger and stronger and stronger.

And you get more and more lodged in peace.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yes.

It's worth it.

It's worth it,

Isn't it?

No,

That's it.

That's good.

That's it.

Good.

And I always knew you'd get here.

Yeah,

I always knew it.

It's very good.

It's sort of like you guys,

You'll find the door,

You keep sort of banging around,

Banging around,

And then you find the door.

And suddenly,

Everything kind of drops into place.

When your comprehension goes way up.

And,

You know,

You might have to stop looking at yourself the way you do,

You might have to stop looking at your problems the way you do.

Do you know?

You might have to allow yourself to change.

Maxi had to let herself change.

Okay.

So,

But when you find the door,

It's unmistakable.

And if you just keep going,

You will find it.

And then if you've already found the door,

Then it's up to you to to witness your ego games.

There's some of you guys who in some ways,

You're far along,

But you kind of want to keep playing the same games.

And you know what will happen is you'll just finally get so frustrated that you'll,

You know,

Give up playing the same old games,

You know.

And we have to be compassionate with ourselves,

Because who knows how many lifetimes are in the resistance that we're struggling with,

You know.

The resistance you're facing isn't your fault,

Okay.

Can you get that?

The resistance isn't your fault.

A lot of you think the resistance is your fault,

And that slows you down.

It comes from other lifetimes.

Jenna,

Have you got any questions or comments,

Sweet one?

Hi,

Everybody.

Yeah,

It's on my mind actually just to say thanks to everyone,

Because your stories,

And when you come forward and you bravely share your experiences,

It helps so much.

And Maxie,

In particular,

You were with me.

One of your stories was with me this week,

Because the last two weeks my ego has been really high and really running amok,

And some really gross things have been coming up.

And one of the things that I experienced was similar to Maxie,

To you,

The dream that you had around navigating like aggressive male energy through wanting to,

Kind of neutralize with your sexuality.

And that came up.

And I think had I not had your story,

I would have spun in that a lot longer,

And just discussed around that feeling.

But instead,

Your story came to me and I thought,

Okay,

This is part of the journey.

And it helped me to allow it to clear and get to a place where I was able to observe it and also see my fascination with the darkness too,

And how far away I am from my,

How I have gotten through my experiences from my heart.

And I was able to get there because of your stories and your experiences.

And that happens all the time.

So to everybody in this group,

Just thank you for your bravery and for coming forward and sharing your experiences,

Because it allows me to forgive my humanness and to see it all as a part of the journey.

So we really are doing this together.

And yeah,

So thank you.

Big love.

Yeah,

Good.

Yeah.

Well,

Well spoken,

You know?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Thank you.

Yeah.

And again,

We need compassion for the taboo around this stuff.

Because to me,

I'm like,

Well,

Of course,

This is what we women are like,

Like,

Duh,

Of course.

This is,

This is,

Of course,

Thousands of years.

This is what's worked.

This is how we survived,

You know?

Like,

It's not shameful at all.

It's very understandable.

Right.

Right,

You guys.

Really?

Yeah.

Dispassion,

You know,

May your dispassion increase so that you allow more and more of these old repressed things to come forward so you can heal.

This is what I mean,

The when I say,

You know,

The repressed feminine,

When she comes up,

She's covered with mud,

Because she's been pushed down so much.

And we go,

Ooh,

But it's just so understandable.

Yeah,

So please take your permission from from this one,

Because I'll tell you,

I encountered all kinds of bizarre stuff in my self.

You know?

And,

You know,

Both men and women are twisted.

We're all twisted from the truth of us.

And lots of times,

I think,

Saskia,

You were talking that you felt this twist in your body releasing out some months ago.

And that twist,

That is the ego's twist.

Yeah.

And it's so funny,

I'll tell you something.

I remember having done like such a lot of work on this twist.

I've been working with this twist.

And I was talking to my brother,

We were getting together with a family thing.

And he turned to me and he said,

You know,

Um,

Yeah,

That's true.

That's true,

Janet.

It's a bit what you're saying is a bit twisted,

But it's true.

And I'm like,

It isn't me that's got the twist,

Buddy.

I've been clearing mine.

Yeah.

Right.

With this,

The ego will have the twist.

It's a big red flag.

And if you can see it,

If you can see it in somebody else,

That twist and see it in yourself.

If you can see it with somebody else is doing it,

You can see it's like,

Okay,

They're in their ego.

Just for your information,

Not judging them,

Just like,

Okay,

They're coming from their ego.

They've got this twist.

There's a lot to pay attention to.

This is what I'm saying,

You know,

Like,

Yeah,

Please don't feel bad about this stuff.

It's like fascinating the weave of all this.

All the tricks we might find in ourselves.

Not funny.

I'm feeling like there's a feeling of abundance coming.

Don't presume on this,

You guys.

It may be financial abundance,

But it may also be kind of an emotional abundance where you just feel like well-fed emotionally,

You know,

But it's as if there's abundance coming.

Somebody that we haven't heard from ever is Ruth or Susan.

You guys want to speak?

Don't want to put you on the spot.

Susan,

Did you want to speak,

Sweetie?

Hi.

Good to see you.

This is Ruth.

Hi,

This is Ruth.

Oh,

Ruth.

Okay,

It's Susan's picture went on.

Okay,

Ruth?

Oh,

Oh.

No,

It's good.

Speak.

Well,

I spoke to you that one time,

And you gave me some,

I think you said not to speak about it,

So I don't know if I should say,

But I did what you told me to do.

Did it help?

Burning a letter,

Yeah.

Right,

Did it help?

Good.

Yes,

Everything changed after that,

And all the,

I guess you would call it angst that I was feeling went away,

And then lately I've been feeling very,

I guess it's like a feeling of light inside of me,

And a lot of love and compassion for others and myself.

Wow.

Yeah,

It's been amazing,

But right now I'm feeling like really tense and anxious for some reason,

And I'm afraid that it's all going to go back to the way it was before.

Okay,

So you're feeling tense and anxious now,

Right now,

Just as you're speaking?

Yes,

Just,

Yes,

Since being on this,

Yeah.

Well,

Sweetie,

If it goes back,

We can speak again,

Because you will find the door.

Don't worry.

Okay,

Yeah.

I mean,

I know these things go up and down.

Yep,

They go up and down.

It's like you don't know.

Yeah,

I just.

Yeah,

So,

Okay,

But it's really good to feel the tension.

Yeah,

The tension,

Just know that the tension you're feeling is fear,

So it's really good it's coming up,

And you can just be with it.

It's like embracing it.

Of course you're scared it's going to go back.

Yeah.

Right,

Of course.

It's just like a little kid.

I'm scared the nightmare is real.

Yeah,

And it just,

It's been so good to let go of all of it.

It's okay.

Right,

So,

Okay,

Just,

You know,

Again,

Just witness,

Like,

You,

You're,

Ruth,

I,

I feel you are coming out of darkness.

I,

I am feeling it.

You,

It's like,

You are not to worry.

You are coming out of darkness.

I'm getting this message from the universe.

Oh,

Wow.

Okay,

You're coming out of darkness.

Don't worry.

Don't worry.

You're coming out.

You,

You just are coming out.

I can,

That's what it,

That's what it's been feeling like.

It's been feeling like overwhelming,

Almost like I could let go and just go somewhere else.

Yep.

But I don't want to let go because I'm here on earth,

If that makes sense.

Yep.

No,

Because you're,

You're,

You're leaving the concrete reality.

You're leaving the love affair with concrete reality.

You're,

You're moving,

You're ascending while you're here on earth.

And that's what Amma wants us to do.

Oh,

Wow.

This is what I did.

This is what I'm teaching.

This is,

These are ascension satsangs,

Really.

Uh-huh.

So,

Yeah.

So,

No,

You're,

You're,

You're good.

And if,

Just,

If there's any,

If you encounter any difficulties,

Just raise them in satsang,

Okay?

Speak.

Okay.

Okay.

Thank you.

Don't,

Don't stay quiet if you're distressed.

Speak.

But,

Sweetie Pie,

Even as I'm saying this,

Understand you are coming out of darkness,

Both things.

You are coming out of darkness,

And if you experience distress,

Speak to me about it.

Sweetie,

So,

But you are coming out of darkness,

But if you need any help,

Speak to me.

Right.

Susan.

Susan.

You had a question.

You said Susan before,

So.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So,

Ruth,

We're,

We're finished,

And I'm gonna,

I'm,

Susan also wanted to speak,

So we're moving,

But good work,

Ruth.

My hat off.

Really.

Bravo.

Every,

Everybody's impressed.

Thank you.

It's true.

Okay.

Susan,

Sweet one.

Hi,

Prama Sutra.

Hi,

Everyone.

Um,

Last week's satsang was just so amazing about grace,

And I've just been,

Like,

Really,

Um,

Just focused on that,

And I felt it in the satsang itself.

I've been having an issue with my sister and trying to solve it in my ego,

And I just let it go.

Like,

It happened in that moment.

It just felt so powerful,

And,

Um,

I just dropped the power play.

Do you know what I mean?

Yeah.

And,

Um,

And it's just,

Like,

Everything,

Like,

Okay,

My,

My husband and I are in business together,

And we're,

Like,

Thinking about closing it.

It's all gone to shit,

Blah,

Blah,

Blah,

But,

Like,

Money keeps appearing when we need it,

Without trying.

You know what I mean?

Well,

You know,

Like,

People show up,

Weird,

We're doing weird projects,

Like,

Whatever.

I just,

I just feel it,

And then,

Like,

It's really,

Um,

Friends are asking me about what's going on.

Um,

Oh,

The other thing I was thinking about,

So my father passed away Christmas Day last year,

So we're coming up onto one year,

And that's part of,

Like,

The stuff in the family.

It's all,

Nobody,

We don't know what order anything is anymore.

Do you know what I mean?

Yeah.

And so we're all dealing with that.

I'm dealing,

And,

And,

You know,

And I'm dealing with my mom,

And she's,

Like,

She got married when she was 19,

You know,

And,

Um,

Oh,

God,

Like,

She really gets to feel,

Like,

The patriarchy now,

Because she's just always had this protector.

And,

You know,

Things with my mom have been difficult,

But I,

I realize that,

Like,

I enter my,

My family's,

Like,

We don't talk about feelings.

Yeah,

I know,

But it's,

Like,

I,

I realize I've been entering my family,

Like,

In a combat,

Combative nature,

Like,

I put the armor on,

And I got my sword,

And I'm ready to go to battle,

Because that's how,

That's how it feels in that dynamic,

And I just dropped it,

And I'm really trying to focus on,

Um,

Just really being kind,

Trying to really be more gentle.

I,

I am,

I want to be more gentle in the world,

And it's funny how it's easier with strangers sometimes,

Um,

Than the people close to us,

And,

Um,

My friends and stuff are,

Like,

Noticing it,

And asking me questions about what's going on,

And then my daughter,

Too,

Like,

I'm,

Like,

Everything with my daughter is feeling so close,

And it's just wonderful.

She just registered for spring classes,

And it's always such a pain,

And she's,

Like,

There's so much grace,

Mom.

I got all my classes.

I just feel grace in my life,

And,

Um,

I don't know.

I'm,

And I'm just feeling it,

Because when I first started,

Um,

When I,

I was seeking a spiritual teacher,

And found you,

And it was random,

And then,

You know,

When you start,

Like,

Peeling back the layers,

It was so fraught and painful,

And I felt like I was in a boxing match with my ego,

And a lot of that's dissipated for now.

I expect it probably returned,

But it just feels like I'm really enjoying thinking about energy.

I'm really enjoying praying to Amma.

I love this thought saying it means so much to me.

I feel like I'm getting back to myself,

Um,

And it kind of feels exciting,

And I'm just in,

Like,

A kind of a positive place right now,

And,

Um,

We had that,

I think it was a question-answer.

Someone was talking about dealing with friends,

Friends falling away,

And I have this one friend,

And I'm a very loyal person.

Um,

I like to return what's been given to me,

Especially if it's,

Like,

A friendship of 30 years or whatever,

But,

Like,

This one friend is so negative,

And I'm having a hard time.

I don't want to listen to it,

And I assume I'm just probably mirroring my own negativity.

It's like I've been in,

But it's really hard when she,

Like,

Um,

Talks so much about self-hate,

And I,

And then I feel judgmental,

And I,

So it's just,

I'm just trying to be softer around things like that,

But I,

I still,

Um,

It's a bit of a struggle,

And I'm watching my energy.

Like,

I spent the morning with my mom yesterday.

She asked me to help her with an errand,

And,

And then when we were done,

I felt completely depleted,

So I've been thinking about that.

I'm going to stop you.

I'm going to stop you,

Because it's,

There's so many threads,

Right?

Yeah,

I'm sorry.

No,

No,

No,

No,

No,

It's all,

It's all good,

It's all good.

So,

What the image I,

As I was,

As you were talking,

I just felt like someone had their face,

And gone outside,

And it's a beautiful,

Sunny,

Warm day,

And they turned their face to the sun,

And the sunlight was on your face,

And it's like,

You're reaching the light now.

You're experiencing light,

And it's,

It's so great,

Susan,

And you've earned it.

It's so great,

And it's real,

And it's real,

And just keep on coming to satsang.

I mean,

It's,

It'll just,

You know,

So good.

I know,

I know.

I'm just doing everything you say.

I started doing the subliminal,

Like,

Like,

Audio stuff.

I love it.

It's so perfect for my brain.

It's,

Because my brain won't stop,

And I got,

Like,

A really,

Really great ego.

So,

So tell the woman who's depressed to listen to subliminals.

Yes.

Yeah,

And tell her,

Tell her that it's hard to keep listening,

Because you found a way out,

And you want to pass it to her.

So,

If she won't do the satsang,

She,

She might do the subliminals.

So,

Take it,

Take an action.

Okay.

Yeah,

I feel,

I'm a little wary of,

Like,

Telling people what to do.

Like,

I,

I want to,

I want to tell her to stop,

Right?

And give her,

Hey,

Listen,

Sweetie,

It's kind of,

It's sort of mean to sit there and listen and judge.

It's like,

It's loving to give her,

You know,

Something,

You know,

When you're swimming,

You're drowning with,

With a life preserver.

You're giving her a life preserver,

And then see if she takes you up on it.

Yeah.

You know,

You could tell her that we all have to save ourselves.

Be,

Be blunt and truthful like Pramasutra.

You guys,

It works.

People love the truth.

It's just so much easier.

Just be straight,

Truthful,

And loving with people like Pramasutra.

You guys,

You,

I say terrible things to you on,

On one level,

But you know it's coming from truth.

So,

You,

You digest it and let yourself change.

So,

We can be like this with our friends.

Model it.

Yeah.

You can tell her that you,

That you're having trouble listening because you're feeling so much better.

You know,

So.

Okay.

That helps.

Thank you.

You know,

All I teach is truth.

It's like,

I'm just teaching you to be truthful.

It's like,

Tell her to three weeks,

At least three weeks,

Twice a day.

Subliminal.

Yeah.

And see how she feels.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay.

Good.

Yes.

Thank you.

Thank you.

You know,

Yes,

You guys,

I mean,

Really,

We make life,

We make life so difficult.

Yeah.

But I know,

I know,

But I actually,

Truth is a bit taboo in our culture,

But this is how we change things.

And,

And when the women come forward with the true feminine and they speak,

You know,

Speak lovingly,

But from the hip,

Things will change.

And,

And Amma says that,

That a woken up woman,

That the whole universe comes in behind her,

Right?

I think that she gives birth.

So,

The level of support that we get from the universe when we start moving into it,

I mean,

It's,

It's how Premasuda got here is,

Is because of the level of support that the universe gave her.

Yeah.

It's good.

Thank you,

Susan.

And thank you for all your likes.

I appreciate the likes and you guys,

You know,

I love,

I love all of it.

Thank you.

Well,

Thank you.

The likes,

Likes helping you guys.

There are a lot of in the videos,

There are little short clips that help that,

That Jenna did so beautifully that will help shine a light on issues.

You can scroll through and look for them.

Yeah.

And like them,

That would be good.

Yeah.

This is,

This has turned into a really good question and answer.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay.

Yeah.

I'm very touched.

Thank you for everybody coming forward.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You see,

This is how things change.

It's magic.

Love is magic,

You know?

Yeah.

Thank you for coming,

You guys.

Thank you for showing your hearts,

There in your souls,

Showing your hearts and,

And then we just discover how loving it all is,

Right?

It's just,

It's always that under the fear,

Under the separation,

It's all just so loving.

Okay.

Blessings,

You guys.

All my love.