When Humans Are Both Very Fallible And Divine...

I know there's a lot going on with all of you.

I just put a video on about the kundalini and I'm actually wishing to spotlight it in this satsang as well.

You know,

Most of us know about the kundalini and it's,

You know,

The sleeping serpent and it gets sitting at the bottom of our spine and in an unactivated kundalini we're just a normal egocentric person with all the limits of the ego but once the kundalini's been activated the creator starts weaving into your life.

Yeah,

That's like the ama energy and something absolutely invincible,

Divine starts up your spine and it starts clearing your chakras until,

You know,

A spiritual master the kundalini has reached the crown and there is total union of the human being and the divine.

Their issues are no longer blocking the light.

Apart from like two or three percent that a human being has to have an ego to to be on earth but the spiritual master's ego just facilitates the teaching when it's just a tiny little bit.

Okay,

So the challenge of when the kundalini's rising is it clears the chakras we get the experience of our resistances.

Okay,

So the resistance will come up like sometimes like that you're in a dark little room you can't see any light but your kundalini,

The god self in you is showing you your resistances so you can move through them.

It's showing you,

Giving you an experience of your resistances as part of you letting go of them.

We have to experience them in the process of letting go.

The question is,

And this really is an important question for all of you and this is really the the thing I see where you guys get stuck is and actually where it's difficult to help you in a way is where you believe the resistances so you can sit there.

Okay so your kundalini's clearing and you're experiencing your resistances and you know that's your experience you may feel really heavy,

Maybe depressed,

Maybe scared,

Whatever and there you are and you forget to keep steering to the divine you forget that you're climbing the mountain and you might have to use your will to make yourself take a walk in nature to help yourself or to turn on,

To pick up an inspirational book.

I mean,

Maybe your resistances,

You just want to say get into the line.

It's like we all have to save ourselves,

You guys.

Okay,

So some of you are moving around.

Okay,

Notice if you're moving.

Okay,

Because this is the issue.

We all have to save ourselves.

Nobody can do it for us.

The teacher can point and hopefully if she's a real one,

Be an example.

But we're the one who has to take the next step up the mountain out of these resistances past them,

Going higher.

Yeah this is where with our patterning we've all been taught to sort of come in,

Sit down and shut up and we're taught to be couch potatoes.

We're taught to be like passive consumers.

Give it to me.

Can I buy it?

Instead of being like a co-creator.

Yeah.

And please be very patient and no no being too hard on yourselves with this,

Please.

Because especially at the beginning of the journey when we're maybe,

You know,

The Kundalini is just clearing the Kundalini is just clearing the base chakra with the survival issues and then the sacral chakra with our emotions and,

You know you know,

The flow of the soul.

Lots of times our conditioning,

We took on a lot of walls.

We have to be very,

Very patient with ourselves.

But only we can do it.

It is that extra effort to take the next step to go.

I know I'm in hell right now,

But I know that it's really the hells in my dark glasses that I'm wearing.

And as I take off my dark glasses I'm going to feel and experience heaven.

Yeah,

That's it.

Yeah,

That's it.

You see,

We're all wearing the dark glasses of the ego and we all believe this crap,

You know.

And,

You know,

When our Kundalini is clearing our chakras it comes up up close and personal.

We are just covered with our limiting ideas.

We're just in it.

And it's not something that can be fixed because our evolution is done by something beyond us.

All we can do is just be with how it is and take the steps to help ourselves.

Pick up an inspirational book.

Turn on an inspirational video.

Do something to help yourself up the mountain.

This is the challenge.

I can feel it in all of you.

This is the challenge,

You know.

You guys,

I remember going to see an Indian sage who came to Canada and I was quite shocked at the talk at how scornful this Indian sage was about his audience.

And he was saying,

Well,

Basically you're just at the base chakra or sacral chakra level.

That's where you all are.

And I remember hearing this and thinking,

I think I'm farther than that.

And I also thought,

Why are you being so disrespectful to your audience?

You know,

They're gods in human form.

They may be deluded,

But they're gods in human form.

But,

You know,

As time goes on,

I actually have a little bit of sympathy for this man because I understand now how in the West we are so locked in at the body level and we don't realize it.

So even when we go to,

You know,

Spirituality or spiritual training,

We might just do it at a limit of at the body level.

So we might do like yoga with just like a kind of,

Okay,

I'm getting increasingly flexible,

Like in a nuts and bolts way and lose the higher energy of yoga,

Of not even getting it,

Maybe pushing it away.

Yeah,

This is,

And this is,

I feel like where we Westerners,

We need great compassion for ourselves,

Okay?

This,

You know,

Think of it like the West,

Especially like Canada and the US,

We had the covered wagons 200 years ago.

I mean,

We were faced with physical survival,

You know,

Taking care of the body basically from nothing.

And women had,

There was no birth control and women had to make soap and do the laundry and raise kids and sitting in a hut on the prairies while the husband went out and looked for food.

I mean,

This is just 200 years ago.

So,

You know,

It's not surprising that we're body-based,

Certainly in North America.

And India has had these spiritual traditions for thousands and thousands of years.

It's way easier for them.

You know,

There were signs in the Himalayas when I was up there,

Traffic signs saying,

We love you,

We don't love your speed.

I mean,

For a street sign,

I mean,

How enlightened is that?

I mean,

You read the sign and you just feel loved,

You know?

Like even a sign like we cry when cars go over the cliff because they do,

You know,

They do,

The streets and,

I mean,

The narrow ways and roads in the Himalayas.

And,

You know,

In India,

They get these Jeeps and they just get packed with people,

Overloaded with people.

And yeah,

They do go over,

Yeah.

But the love that was in even the street signs,

It was so therapeutic for this Westerner.

Yeah.

So,

You know,

In the West,

We're starting from,

You know,

There's a level of alienation that our bodies are carrying.

And that's all healable.

It's kind of healable as you just kind of insist that it gets healed,

Like that you don't want another life struggling with this.

You just want it healed.

It's kind of what works.

But we need to be very,

Very compassionate with ourselves about this,

With this focus on our bodies.

So even,

You know,

In the spirituality and the internet,

There'll be focus on using spirituality,

Really,

Just to get a little more comfortable.

We need a little more peace in our mind rather than a real transformation.

You know,

Amma says that most of the people come to her because they're wanting to be happier as they pursue things.

And of course,

If we're focused at the body level and we're pursuing things,

We're just never going to be happy because we're ignoring the source of happiness,

Which is lodged in our hearts,

Which is our divine truth.

It's your you-ness.

It's your intrinsic you-ness that's just happy,

That's in bliss.

And we have been taught to run from this and we look for little bits of it through things.

We think we'll be happy if we have a house.

We might be happy for six months.

You know,

Before then you're stuck with the mortgage and the taxes and the plumbing erupts or whatever,

You know.

But there's an increased complexity here because we're mammals.

So in a way,

We do need a cave.

Yeah,

And this is the body-based thing,

You know.

We're mammals,

We need a cave.

So we think,

Okay,

I'll be happy if I get a house.

So what I work with you guys all the time is with this alienation.

With the alienation in you that stops your communication with your true self.

And that's where people fight with me too because I'm standing there going,

Hey,

Here's some alienation,

Do you want to look at it?

And they're going,

Hey,

There's no alienation,

Teacher,

You're wrong.

And I'm like,

Okay.

I get it,

I get it.

It's very unpleasant to have to face and transcend this alienation.

Or,

You know,

Which is also your ego.

But your Kundalini just does it.

This inner divine energy that you are just does it at a pace that you can handle.

The pace is set by basically your divinity.

You know,

And the more you steer towards inspirational material,

You know,

Meditation,

Thinking about your true nature,

The more you're making fertile ground for this transformation.

And the more you go like,

Well,

I'm such a mess.

It's so hopeless.

I've got all these faults.

I'm never going to get it.

The more you're dousing this spring within you,

This silent spring of energy that's wanting to rise up.

Yeah,

That's your Kundalini.

It's like a silent spring of incredibly clear mountain water that's just wanting to rise up and cleanse you of all your ego misunderstandings from many,

Many lives beyond this one.

So it takes time.

So the more you side,

The more you hitch your wagon to the star of your transformation,

The more you just want to serve the divine in everything you do,

The more you're allowing this silent spring of your true divine energy to come up and cleanse you.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's it.

Okay,

Good.

This is very good what you're doing,

You guys.

Good.

Yeah.

I'm just feeling what's going on in all of you.

Yeah.

You know,

As a group,

What I'm getting is this energy of your being,

Silent spring of your Kundalini,

Which,

You know,

Amma activates with hugs,

But it can be activated even through words,

Even through like attending a satsang like this.

It's like when you're ready,

It just will be activated.

And I can feel how it's as if many of you are just so tired of the old thing replaying and this old feeling of kind of an exhaustion that comes when we're using our ego energy.

It's a kind of efforting,

Exhaustion,

And it's as if you're,

All of it,

All of you are really tired of this.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

Good.

Good.

You know,

It's just admitting this stuff.

If you can just admit stuff to yourself,

You know,

Admit the truth to yourself.

Admit the truth to yourself.

That is,

That is the most accelerative thing you can do.

Admit the truth to yourself and then turn to the creator,

Turn to Amma.

That's it.

Yeah.

I see you guys need a big warm hug right now.

Mm.

You're the beloved of your souls.

You're beloved.

You know,

We're the beloved of Amma.

Like when she hugs us,

We're the beloved.

She's our beloved.

But we're her beloveds too.

You guys,

Your soul,

You're the beloved child of your soul.

Please.

Oh,

You're all squirming.

Lots of squirms there.

You're the beloved of your soul.

You are just adored.

Yeah.

Mm-hmm.

That's it.

Your soul's been with you through every lifetime,

Waiting for the lifetime where you would open the door for it.

Really.

Like this patient,

Unrequited lover,

You know,

Who loves us and we're ignoring them.

But life after life after life,

Waiting for us to open the door and allow this love in.

Yeah,

Allow all of our fears and misunderstandings to be loved out.

Yeah.

And our fears and misunderstandings are just the mud of the lotus.

You know,

The bigger the darkness,

The brighter,

The bigger the flower.

Mm-hmm.

There's nothing wrong.

Yeah.

There's nothing wrong with,

You know,

There's nothing wrong with you guys.

There's nothing wrong with us.

This is just what it's like.

You know,

This is what it's like,

Alienated cultures with trying to wake up,

Wanting to live in truth,

Coming from a very body-based culture.

No wonder it's hard.

No wonder,

You know,

It takes a while.

Yeah.

Mm-hmm.

But,

You know,

The Kundalini is what does it.

You know,

Your evolution.

I mean,

Once it's been activated,

It's like the God in you and it will just clear you.

Yeah.

It's so funny,

You know.

Sometimes I say just a few words and it freezes all this.

Yeah,

Your Kundalini does it.

You basically are going along for the ride.

All you can do is just use that extra effort to take the step up the mountain.

It's like I said in the video I just posted.

It's like you're climbing the mountain.

So it's like,

How do you climb?

Do you climb thinking about how great it's going to be at the top and what a viewpoint,

What a view you're going to see?

Or do you think,

Oh,

I'm hot and sweaty.

My feet hurt.

I'm hungry.

Why did I ever come?

Is that going to get you up the mountain?

It'll get you very slowly and you'll have a terrible time.

So don't do that.

Focus on where you're going.

Focus on the divine.

Yeah.

I know.

It's comical.

Isn't it comical?

It's a comedy,

You know.

We're like that.

We're kind of like,

I want to live in truth.

And then it's like,

My feet hurt.

Why am I doing this?

And so just embrace it.

Embrace it and just,

You know,

Give it over.

Give it over.

You know,

The kundalini is weaving the creator into your bodies.

All the people who've turned up at the satsang,

All of you have had your kundalini activated.

Oh,

It's a creator in you.

It's doing it.

It's doing the whole thing.

You've just got a choice with kind of your attitude,

Really.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And then remember,

You know,

When the resistance comes,

It's going to be intense.

Do what you need to do to help yourself.

You know,

I really needed hugs from Amma.

I don't see how I could have done this without hugs from Amma.

But again,

You know,

I'm very,

Very physical.

I get stuff through the body.

So it might be my way particularly.

Or that need may be very heightened in me.

Because there are people who grow just knowing Amma.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I read something that struck me.

It's like,

You know,

You take care of the possible and let God take care of the impossible.

And that is a really good thing to keep in mind because when we feel like,

Oh,

It's an impossible situation or it's an impossible challenge,

That means that it's for your soul.

Do you see what I mean?

It's only solvable by your soul or by the Creator.

It's kind of the big flag that says this is an accelerative period and let your soul do it because nothing else will work.

Your ego can't solve it.

How could your ego solve it?

Our egos are like,

You know,

Emotionally and intellectually challenged little figments of our imagination.

They're the thing that we have to outgrow and get over.

So,

You know,

Their problem-solving abilities are a bit limited.

Yeah,

It's your soul that solves things.

So there's a need for reassurance here,

All of you guys.

Energetically,

I feel that this one is working too hard and it's been the lifetime vulnerability about working too hard to reach people and this can actually stop people from stepping forward.

Not stop them,

But prevents them from seeing the need that they have to step forward.

That's it.

This is good.

Yeah,

You know,

It just feels to me that maybe consciously just think to yourself that you're opening to your true energy to the divine because I'm seeing this.

It's kind of a fatigue.

It's kind of where you're stuck in your ego and you don't know how to get out.

So this,

Yeah,

Just even make more room for your kundalini to operate,

Think.

Open the door to the creator more,

To Amma.

This is taking a step up the mountain,

You see.

Yeah,

I feel all of you all of you would benefit from doing this.

Yeah.

It's as if I can feel it's like as if many of you are facing that you've been here before,

The place where you are,

That you've been here before and you can't really see how to get out of it.

It's a matter of letting the,

Your true nature wash it away.

It's like letting your mind see the lie to the storyline that you're running.

It's that.

You guys,

Virtually all of you,

You all need to see the lie of it,

Of what you're running right now.

It's not true.

Okay,

Good.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah,

You gotta make room for the higher understanding.

See,

If we believe our storyline too tightly,

This walls off our truth.

Yeah.

And yet we need compassion because it's like these body-based conditioning that we had.

You know,

It seems really true.

It seems like we need three meals a day.

You know,

But they,

You know,

All over the place,

We get proof.

You know,

I heard for years when I was growing up that,

You know,

You have to drink water within three days or you'll die.

And if you don't eat for a month,

You die.

And it's like,

None of this is true.

You can go way farther than that without water.

There are all kinds of stories of people who survive.

In fact,

Abraham,

Part of his,

One of his trainings,

He was put up on a mountain for six weeks and there was no water.

He said he licked the dew in six weeks.

I never knew him to lie to us.

I spent five years or 10 years in close association with him.

I never learned about any lie that he said,

So I think it was true.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's sort of like the awkward marriage of a human being and a divine being within ourselves,

You know?

And as we get clearer and clearer,

It turns into a sacred marriage.

You know,

What happens is the,

You know,

Our male and female aspect,

When we're in our ego,

Both our male and female are contaminated with misunderstandings.

So when we come together with another person,

Often that's our experience.

There's like,

We might love this person,

But the emotional garbage that each one is carrying prevents a real sense of union and understanding between them.

But as you evolve,

Internally,

What happens is your inner masculine,

Inner feminine,

Whichever sex you are,

They get purer and purer.

So your relationships with the opposite sex and actually with all other people get clearer and purer and easier.

And at the point where the inner male and inner female marry,

That's a sacred marriage,

And that's that illumination that happens.

That's that illumination that happens.

The crown chakra is cleared.

Yeah.

Some of you are tired.

The thing I really wanted to emphasize was the kundalini,

And that what you're experiencing is the rise of the kundalini,

And it's clearing your misunderstandings.

And to do what you can to support this process and remember it,

Even when things get bleak,

And that something beyond you is evolving you,

And it's a physiological process as well as a transcendent one.

Yeah.

Are there any questions or comments I would love to hear?

Yeah.

And remember,

Anything is okay.

Just think we're all goofs,

You know?

We all,

Like,

You know,

I always think we're bumbling idiots,

You know?

So let's just,

You know,

Say what comes up to be said.

Don't stress about it.

Just let it rip.

Can I say that?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Because of course what you're saying speaks so deeply to what I am going through right now in the thick of it.

And because the story,

The story is I need to speak the words of officially ending marriage.

And I'm noticing that the resistance that is there is so much stronger than any resistance I've had in the past.

As in normally,

I'm quite good at saying,

Well,

I know I need to do this,

And so I kind of,

You know,

Get through the feelings again.

But it's so strong this time.

Yeah.

So,

Sweetie,

I think that this process is trying to bring you into your heart more.

And we've talked about how,

And you've said yourself,

Right?

The headiness,

Right?

You know,

If the resistance to speaking is strong,

Stronger,

You're basically just going to have to be with it and take the emphasis off taking an action.

Okay?

You don't have to take an action immediately.

Your head may think that you need to.

So that you can get it all solved and everything.

But if you're feeling a heavy resistance to it,

It might be wiser to contemplate this.

Like,

Ask where this resistance is coming from.

What is it?

You see,

It's like I feel your soul is asking you to deepen,

And you're looking at it like a warrior.

Well,

I have to do this.

And it's like,

But you're still saying,

I want you to come into more self-awareness and to deepen and understand yourself so that when you take an action,

That it's totally congruent.

You see,

There's part of you that is not thinking the way that your head wants you to be thinking.

It's a part of you that you've left behind.

You're going to have to embrace this resistance.

Embrace it.

What can you do with it?

Okay,

So where are you,

Bhavani?

How are you feeling about what I'm saying?

And be really,

Really honest,

Please.

It's a relief.

Because I'm not,

I mean,

Of course,

I'm noticing the warrior part that says,

I got to somehow power through this and do it.

And I'm noticing that that's a shallower level.

And I'm feeling where I want to be.

I can say where I want to be with this whole action.

And I'm feeling that there's the discrepancy of those two sides.

So it's actually a relief to hear that I don't have to take an action.

It's giving guidance to embrace the resistance and kind of try to be with it more instead of push through.

Yeah,

Really.

With this agenda of this action you think you should take,

It's like,

I'll tell you,

That is a big red flag of the ego.

It's your ego that's saying,

You have to take this action.

What's the matter with you?

You got to take this action.

That's your ego.

And your heart's saying,

Yeah,

Drop down,

Be deeper,

Get interested in what is this resistance?

And fears from your early childhood may come up.

You might be fear of like,

Oh,

Can I face the world on my own?

Whatever it is,

Just,

Yeah,

Just be very gentle with yourself like you are with your son,

Bhavani,

Please.

Will you do for yourself what you do for your son?

I mean,

What a step that would be.

Yeah.

That's what your soul's wanting.

Oh,

Sweetie.

Yeah.

You know,

This one was very unfixable.

So all the stuff I'm telling you came out of like,

Being in similar circumstances,

Having an agenda I thought should happen,

And then feeling resistance.

And I finally just realized that it's endlessly embracing yourself,

Endlessly,

Endlessly.

Being with what is,

Being with where you are.

Yeah.

Right.

Okay,

Good.

So you're accepting the space.

I'm very pleased with this,

Bhavani.

You're accepting the space to be.

This is a triumph.

This is very good.

My hat off.

Yeah.

Thank you,

Premasutha.

Yeah,

You're welcome,

Bhavani.

Bless your dear heart.

And Benjamin,

And one day I'll remember your name,

But Benjamin,

I'm not good with Indian names.

But I'm sending huge love to you.

Okay.

Okay,

I'll get it.

It's a little bit of a.

.

.

Anyway.

Okay.

So blessings to you all.

Has anybody else really come forward?

Ladies and gentlemen.

Very dear.

Hey,

Guys.

Premasutha,

Maxi speaking.

Sorry,

Who?

Sorry,

Who?

Maxi.

Oh,

Maxi,

Yeah.

Oh,

Maxi,

Good.

Can you hear me?

Because I'm in the car and I don't know if the audio works good.

It's good.

Yeah.

It's good.

Yeah,

I'm sort of kind of like Bhavani.

I can feel like I'm at the end of getting my divorce finished.

And I can feel a lot of resistance about this topic,

Too.

So it feels like nothing.

.

.

It feels like it can't be finished.

There's.

.

.

Yeah.

I was just inspired by Bhavani about feeling the resistance.

It kind of feels the same to me right now.

And it's not only about the topic of getting the divorce done.

Also,

Everywhere in my life,

I can feel like nothing is working.

And at the first point,

It always needs like a third or a second run to get things finished.

So,

Yeah,

I can feel those resistance,

Too.

Yeah,

I can feel how you don't want to be in your body.

I can feel how you're running from yourself.

Even the way you're talking.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Maxie?

Can you look right in my eyes?

Can you.

.

.

Yeah,

Look right in my eyes.

Yeah,

Sweetie.

Yeah,

Come.

Come to mama.

Yeah.

Right.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

Like,

Engage with me.

Yeah.

Okay,

So I need more words about it.

What you said was kind of vague and.

.

.

It feels like I don't really want to be like in the present moment.

It's always.

.

.

Okay,

Are you driving,

Maxie?

Are you actually.

.

.

You're driving.

Okay.

Yeah.

Okay,

Sweetie.

Like,

Hello.

Like,

You're going to have to stop.

You can't.

.

.

I'm not going to talk to you when you're driving.

That's so.

.

.

How could you do that?

Yeah,

I understand.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah,

This is not kind of to put in your pocket.

This is.

.

.

Come on,

Sweetie.

You know better than that.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay,

Here it is.

Example.

This is.

.

.

Yeah.

This is what we like.

Yeah.

Mm-hmm.

Okay,

So,

Maxie,

Are you pulling over or what?

I'm trying.

It's.

.

.

Yeah.

Here I am.

Here I am.

Are you stopped?

Yes.

Yeah.

Actually,

I'm a little shocked,

Sweetie,

That you would do this.

Like,

That you would be so cavalier.

Yeah.

And I say this with great love.

I'm not.

.

.

It's not criticizing.

I'm not blaming you,

But I am putting a flag of.

.

.

For Asad saying,

Hello,

This is not just a coffee clutch.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah,

And you know better,

Maxie.

And I'll tell you,

It is this part that tries to trivialize not only this,

But your own soul energy that is your biggest obstacle,

Because part of you tries to trivialize it and trivialize yourself.

Yeah.

And that is your problem.

And that's what you got to put your arms around and go,

I am a divine being.

I am a noble,

Brave woman.

Mm-hmm.

Right.

And that's what you don't want to do.

You want to keep on going,

I'm just a little.

.

.

I can't.

.

.

I'm just a little woman,

Or whatever it is.

Every woman knows it,

What I'm talking about.

We do this.

It's a patriarchy.

We do this.

We're just.

.

.

We're just nothing.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Right.

And it's this that you haven't wanted to face.

Okay.

And that's also why you come and go with me a little.

It's the same,

Because I'm going to say,

Hey,

You're somebody.

And if you have trouble hearing that,

You're going to want to play games with me.

And it's.

.

.

I'm not going to do that.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Mm-hmm.

Right.

Right.

It can be very hard.

I mean,

It's hard for guys.

I just know the female thing of learning to actually take yourself seriously in a substantial way was a big training ground for me too.

Mm-hmm.

Right.

But this is a lifetime.

Alma's here.

This is a lifetime to do it.

Right.

You know what I love about all of you guys?

You let me bust you without getting too hurt feelings about it.

Like you come along with me.

You go,

Oh,

Yeah,

Like I see.

Yeah,

I'm doing it.

She's right.

Like it's very cool.

Okay.

I'm still shocked that I have to do it,

But I'll get over myself.

I've just forgotten.

I've forgotten about what it was like for me when I was younger.

You know,

What I was like.

I'm good.

Okay.

So how do you feel right now,

Maxi?

How does your body feel?

My body feels more relaxed.

Like something that you pointed out.

It's some kind of relaxation I feel.

Yeah.

Okay.

Big bulletin.

When we hear truth and we accept truth,

Our bodies relax.

We drop resistance.

Okay.

It's so simple that we.

Forget it.

But anyway,

Yes.

So you move,

You got confronted.

And you shift it.

Into more truth.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Maxi.

Yeah,

You go girl.

Yeah.

It's a very humbling process.

Isn't it awful.

It's horrible.

Yes,

It is.

Right.

I know it's like a comedy.

Right.

That's good.

So Maxi,

You know,

There's something beyond you.

It's like.

It's,

It's like your mind is so busy.

That it stops you from.

Praying more.

It stops you from asking for help and opening to help.

Okay.

Yeah,

You're going to have to.

Like,

Ask for help.

To get this.

Deeper level of understanding to come in.

You're going to have to ask for help.

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And sweetie,

This is what you're having trouble with.

So how do you feel right now?

What's coming up to be said to me?

Thank you.

And it's honoring the alma in me,

The inner soul within me,

And it's not about the doing.

And I,

On some levels,

I know this,

And I'll feel that guidance to do something off the beaten path,

Like take a break.

And then I feel it's not allowed.

And I block that.

And instead of resting and being with myself.

Okay,

Stop.

Stop.

Stop.

Stop.

Okay.

That will be chronic.

You will feel like a need to take a break.

And that feels like it's not allowed.

Yeah.

That's what it's like.

And so then you notice,

Oh,

I'm feeling like this isn't allowed,

But I know I need the break.

Please help me,

Alma.

You have to then just be with it and deal with that.

You can't just go.

You can't.

Do you see what I mean?

That's the next step then.

And then as you get in the habit of being,

Following this inner guidance and taking a break if you need to,

It will get stronger and stronger,

And you will be more and more able to flow in it.

But if you don't address this,

Stephanie,

How are you going to build your heart muscle?

I went through that over and over again.

This isn't allowed.

This isn't allowed.

It felt like it wasn't allowed to start satsangs,

You guys.

I had to overcome this.

It's not allowed.

It's not allowed.

Nobody's going to listen.

It's chronic through the whole journey that it's not allowed.

We're body based.

We're body trained.

It's hard for us.

You know,

Stephanie,

It's not that hard.

It's like,

If you really love Alma,

Or you really love me,

And you really want to share this work,

You'll get what I'm teaching.

You'll go,

Okay,

I'm going to get it.

I want to help this woman.

You know what I mean?

Just be simple.

It's how our devotion carries us.

We just go,

Ah,

I want enlightenment.

Okay,

I'm going to deal with this.

I'm going to get it.

Yeah.

It doesn't have to be a big deal.

Yeah.

We get stuff when we decide to get it.

Well,

Yeah,

It's a pretty simple thing just to,

You know,

If you're feeling like you're putting too,

That you need to ask me about how many videos to put on,

That you just follow that.

I mean,

It's like,

Hello.

It's whether you want your will,

Or whether you want God's will.

This is a problem.

Yeah.

So want God's will,

Because you'll be a lot happier person.

Okay.

Well,

Good.

Good work,

Stephanie.

Good.

Yeah.

Double exposure,

Right?

You see,

Guys,

It's a messy business,

You know,

Yeah.

Can I just say one?

Yeah,

Please.

A little bit?

Yeah.

I,

You know,

Struggled and gone ups and downs in this yo-yo ride,

And to all of you that are on this ride,

We're all together,

Helping each other.

And I just want to say thank you to everybody who comes to Satsangs,

Because I haven't been able to come for some time,

And more recently,

I've been able to attend.

And I just am thankful that all of you created this,

And that I could join in.

And it's very moving and touching.

The love that I feel,

Some of you I've never met in person,

But we message,

Or just seeing your smiling faces,

And it's so wonderful to be a part of this,

And it's an honour.

And I also wanted to say,

You know,

Keep liking Prima Sudha's videos,

Keep commenting,

Because they all help me too.

When I see your comments,

And I'm like,

Yay,

And then I like to give a thumbs up or like to your comment,

Or we can communicate that way too,

And it helps Prima Sudha's work,

And Amma's work go out,

Amma's work through Prima Sudha,

It's so beautiful,

And we Westerners need this love.

And you know,

So all the likes,

You know,

I always go on and try and like,

You know,

She has three channels,

And if I can,

You know,

Make watching the different videos if I have the time,

And liking them,

But you know,

Find ways to support the love,

Because it spirals up.

And we all know this,

When we give from our hearts,

And support,

Support Amma,

Support Prima Sudha,

Support the love.

It just keeps flowing in us,

So immense blessings to you all,

And let's all like,

Like the love together.

Good.

Good.

Yeah.

You know,

Any action we make to support love,

We receive it instantly.

And yeah,

Comments that will help the,

You know,

The videos go out.

You know,

Comments and likes,

It's really true,

Stephanie,

And it's sort of like,

I've often felt like,

You know,

Sometimes the truth of stuff just stops people in their tracks.

But if you can make that extra effort to like,

Or make a comment,

It's like taking a step up the mountain.

And yeah,

It's work will go out and help people more.

Yeah.

Thanks,

Stephanie.

That's really true.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I know Amma's grace is coming to you for this step,

Stephanie.

So it's all good.

Yeah.

Okay,

You guys,

Absolute last call.

It's almost 10 to 10,

But it's very good,

Solid working satsang,

You know,

Was feels very powerful to me for,

Yeah,

And I want to thank all the people who allowed this self exposure because,

You know,

Exposure is what kills the ego that can't survive in the dark in the light.

When we shine a light,

The ego dies.

Yeah.

Okay.

Well,

All my love to you.

Yeah.

Bye.

Bye.

Bye.

Bless your dear heart.

Yeah.

Bye.

Bye.