Welcome to Season 1,
Journey to the Center of Me,
Part 1,
Grief.
Grief is an emotion that we all experience at certain times in our lives.
And we should have a space where we can express it rawly and completely.
So in today's poetry reading,
We will be discussing a point in time in my life where grief was the predominant emotion that I was experiencing.
And at the end of the reading,
We will do a meditation to release.
Thank you so much for joining on the journey with me today.
So the title of this poem is successful.
Ironic,
Right?
Successful.
Haven't felt this low in a while now.
Can't explain it.
Can only feel.
Each feeling forms itself into these abundant,
Translucent tears that carve their tails of wool into the caverns of me.
She asked,
Well,
Since you asked,
These stories tell of the failure I'm becoming,
Whether this is fact or catastrophized fear.
This pit in my stomach remains.
Once I feel I begin to grieve and mourn the things I cannot be.
And the most guilted truth of all is that I cannot be me.
In addition to grief,
Within this poem,
There is also addressed the theme of failed expectation.
And I know that I am not alone in this feeling.
So while those feelings were felt acutely,
This is now an opportunity in my journey that I am choosing to let it go completely.
So if you would,
We're going to take one big cleansing breath together.
We're going to relax our shoulders,
We're going to unclench our jaw,
Unfurl our brow,
Stretch our neck.
And fully be in this moment.
Now,
As we breathe,
We're going to inhale some eternal truths and exhale these temporary feelings that we hoard at times.
So the first is we're going to inhale,
I am love.
And exhale,
I hoard grief.
Next,
Inhale,
I am light.
And exhale,
I hoard expectation.
Next we're going to inhale,
I am created in the image of Abba Father.
Exhale,
I am a conglomerate of who I'm expected to be.
We're going to do one final breath in and one releasing breath out.
Words are powerful.
And interestingly enough,
Words and feelings,
Unreleased and unaddressed,
They lodge themselves within our bodies,
Further pushing our bodies toward disharmony.
Thank you once again for joining me as we walk along this journey of fully feeling and fully releasing.
I look forward to seeing you on the next bend in the road.
Thank you.
