Welcome to this meditation for times of turmoil.
I'm Crystal.
I'll be your guide.
When we're in a chaotic state,
Dissatisfied with the hand life has dealt us,
Everything within us resists the things that are healthiest for us at the time.
Like our meditation practice.
Darkness can have an enticing pull,
A soothing voice coaxing us to surrender to it,
To give into indulgences,
Instant gratification,
And hollow pleasures,
To give up on ourselves.
But to surrender to it is to live in a constant state of discontentedness,
In misalignment with our authenticity,
And to know in your heart that your actions are not aligned with your values feels like throwing your soul into a cage,
To wither away from neglect.
Find a comfortable seated position.
If sitting still isn't cutting it for you,
You're too restless for it,
Start to sway your body from the tailbone up.
Put your whole spine into it.
If zen feels unattainable,
Too unrealistic of a goal for this meditation,
That's okay.
We'll pivot a bit.
You're at a point in life where you've given away every last fuck you had to give.
It happens.
But can you set an intention to sit here and face all of those fucks unabashedly?
No more casting them aside or avoiding them.
Today,
We're working towards facing our discomforts so that we may ultimately release them.
Take a deep breath and push it out with an audible sigh.
Stick your tongue out for that exhale and shake out that and shake out that merciless energy coursing through you.
One more time with me.
It's raw,
Wild,
And seemingly untameable.
But I promise you it can be subdued with nourishing tender care for yourself and a bit of self-discipline.
Getting your shit together requires an incredible amount of honesty.
It's not easy to acknowledge the ways in which you've contributed to your own suffering.
It's certainly uncomfortable,
Painful even.
That's a sign that you're growing and breaking free from unhelpful patterns and habits of the past.
Tap into that ripening energy with the following affirmations.
May I release all energy that is no longer serving me.
May I accept my own humanity and the imperfections that come with it.
May I be open to healing,
Letting go,
And new beginnings.
May I have the courage and strength to pursue my highest self.
Healing's not a linear process.
There will be times when this wave comes crashing back in,
Threatening to pull you under.
But whether or not it actually does is a choice.
Will you stand firm and face it or give in to the pressure?
But before you make your decision,
Keep in mind you can be healing and feel broken at the same time.
You can feel the full range of your emotions without becoming them.
Simply observe them.
Give them permission to exist.
Graciously accept the messages they are giving you and allow them to pass through.
They will pass.
I hope you choose to face your discomforts,
Your fears,
Your shadow,
All of the parts of yourself that you have deemed unworthy and unlovable.
No matter how dark it gets,
The sun will rise again.
And when it does,
I hope that you'll recognize your growth.
Healing looks good on you,
Dear one.
