Good morning,
Creative awaken.
I say that as if it's a question,
Of course,
Of course,
You're here to awaken your creative self.
This is day 21 of our 40 day exploration through this desert of creative inspiration,
Replete with growth,
Things popping from the deserted soil.
Today is especially fallow for me.
I'm tired,
Worn out,
I've put a lot of energy into many things,
Mental,
Physical,
Emotional for the last week,
And I've just come to this day ready to do nothing,
But nothing's a very difficult thing for me to do.
On days like today,
The shoulds,
The coulds,
And the musts tend to want to run roughshod over the time,
Yet time is what I have.
I don't have to assess through those filters of shoulds and coulds and musts.
I can stop and breathe and do the what ifs instead.
So that's what we're here to do today.
The shoulds and coulds are always going to want to run through the brain.
Society and culture have kind of programmed us to think that they should hold dominance over our time,
But I argue for another case.
Today let's start with just a deep breath.
I like to close my eyes for a moment when those voices want to,
As I said,
Run roughshod.
It helps me close out for just that moment of eyes closed,
The external world.
Helps pull me back.
See those voices marching right through rather than stopping to poke their finger at me.
With eyes closed and a deep breath,
I can stand more balanced,
Firmly in my own beauty,
In my own strength,
Even when weary,
And in my own honesty.
With a deep breath and closed eyes,
We can see the simplicity of trusting ourself.
All of these opportunities,
The creative explorations,
The tasks that need ticking,
The routines that will get fulfilled,
Can sit still.
On days like today,
Where weariness rules the body,
The beauty,
The integrity,
The courage,
The strength,
And the trust are still the foundation.
It amazes me anymore,
It brings me tremendous peace,
And more often than not,
Joy,
To realize all of this,
The shoulds and coulds,
The weary and depleted,
And the recognition of strength,
And beauty,
And delight,
All exist at the same time.
I've had days,
And months,
And even years,
Where I couldn't recognize that the joys and pleasures were all there alongside the massive to-do list or the overwrought anxieties.
Yet today,
I can sit here,
Exhausted,
And still smile at the pleasure and joy that are existent in my life.
This may be the best lesson I have learned in my time on earth,
To recognize all of that existence within myself,
And be able to choose what I get to see for the day,
To choose what will be my dominant modus operandi for this day.
So today,
As you awake and creative,
Do it weary,
Do it enthusiastic,
Just do it with the wholeness of you.
Go create.
