This is a guided audio journey to assist you in healing the belief in not being enough.
Before beginning,
We're going to set up the space so that you're as comfortable as possible.
You can sit comfortably,
Or lie down.
If you fall asleep during the journey,
That's okay,
But you're going to get the maximum benefits by listening consciously all the way through.
So if you do fall asleep,
Just return to the audio another time.
You can even take this journey sat with a journal and write down what comes up as we work through.
In this journey,
We're going to be accessing memories that might hold a lot of emotion for you.
This is absolutely okay and what we're here to work through.
But if at any point the feelings are too intense,
You can keep something comforting that helps you feel safe nearby and stop the audio at any point.
Begin by taking one full deep breath down into the belly and gently letting it go.
Feeling yourself relaxing down and easing tension.
We're going to do that one more time.
Taking one full deep breath down into the belly,
Feeling it expand and gently letting it go.
Relaxing down even further.
And a final time,
One full deep breath down into the belly and then letting it go with a sigh.
Now visualize a bright white warm bubble of light forming all around you.
Think of this light as offering you protection and keeping you safe on this journey.
To start,
It's helpful to explore what the fear of not being good enough is.
This belief is often at the base of many issues we face in our adult life.
It can drive our self-sabotaging behaviour,
Our insecurities in relationships,
Stop us from taking risks and generally hold us back from living fully.
Often these beliefs are formed in our early childhood and teens.
If you have this wound,
You might have had experiences in which your worth became tied to external factors.
For example,
How well you performed in school,
Your physical appearance,
Or how much you felt liked by other people.
Or you might not have received sufficient care,
Love and attention within an attachment relationship,
Or may have experienced harm within these relationships.
As a result of these experiences,
The belief of not being worthy enough begins to form subconsciously and becomes our framework for how we experience the world.
This is why you might feel as though you have lots of other memories that support your belief of not being good enough,
Because you're seeing these experiences through the lens of your subconscious belief.
I want you to know that as hard as it's been to have this belief,
It's okay,
And given your experiences,
It makes sense that you feel this way.
My hope is that through this journey,
You'll learn new information to help you understand that as much as this belief feels true,
It isn't the truth,
Or at least open you up to this possibility.
The belief of not being enough can take many forms,
But usually there's a sense of being defective in some way.
Take some time now to think about which words resonate for you when it comes to not feeling enough.
It could sound like there's something wrong with me,
I'm unlovable,
I'm damaged,
I'm a failure,
I'm a bad person,
Or there's a bad shameful part of me,
I'm stupid,
Or I don't matter,
Or any other words that resonate for you.
Take some time now to think of the words that best capture the sense you have of not being enough.
So when you have the words,
Take a moment to drop into your body and notice what happens when you're thinking of this belief.
Where is it living?
Does it have a texture,
Colour,
Or a specific sensation?
Turn the dial up on this feeling,
And really allow it into your body.
As you feel these sensations,
Know that as uncomfortable as they might be,
They are safe and okay to feel.
Now let your mind float back and land on the first memory that comes up when you had this feeling.
Hold this memory in your mind now,
And allow the feelings into your body,
Whatever your feeling is okay.
Now you're going to enter this memory as your adult self,
Ready to hear what the version of you in this memory has to say.
While you approach the past you,
You're going to be as open and understanding as you can,
Knowing how vulnerable you were at the time.
What's your younger self now?
How are they feeling?
Who are they interacting with?
Whatever they have to say is okay.
Now what does this younger part of you need from the adult you in this moment?
Do they need you to do something?
Do they need to hear something from you?
Or do they need you to listen to them?
All is okay.
Just notice what's happening in the scene,
And allow all feelings to be felt.
So we're going to wait here in this memory until whatever your past self needed from you in this moment has brought them to a state of calm.
Now you're going to thank this past version of yourself for helping you through this time.
Let your younger self know that given what happened,
You understand why they believed they weren't good enough.
Right now,
You don't have to be burdened by the past any longer.
In the present time,
Where you are as an adult,
You get to choose places,
People and things that feel good for you,
Relationships that are loving and nurturing.
You get to do the things that you enjoy.
So when your younger self is calm and ready,
You're going to hold their hand and gently walk them out of the scene and into the present moment safely with you.
Welcome this part of you with love.
The emotion of love is felt in the heart chakra,
Which is located in the centre of the chest and is associated with the colour green.
We're going to focus on this area now as we sit with all parts of yourself,
Allowing them all to be there.
Visualise a warm,
Glowing,
Green light surrounding your heart centre.
Remind all parts of yourself that you don't have to be burdened by the past any longer.
You get to choose the kind of life you want to live.
You are deserving of love.
It is safe to express yourself.
You are,
And always have been,
Enough.
Let these words radiate through you,
Filling every cell in your body.
If you've been in a meditation for this practice,
Gently bring yourself back into the room when you feel ready.
Wiggling your fingers and toes,
Opening your eyes,
Feeling content and whole.
