This is a guided audio journey to assist you in healing from the fear in being too much,
Or shining your light.
Before beginning,
We're going to set up the space so that you're as comfortable as possible.
You can sit comfortably,
Or lie down.
If you fall asleep during the journey,
That's okay,
But you're going to get the maximum benefits by listening consciously all the way through.
So if you do fall asleep,
Just return to the audio another time.
You can even take this journey sat with a journal and write down what comes up as we work through.
In this journey,
We're going to be accessing memories that might hold a lot of emotion for you.
This is absolutely okay,
And what we're here to work through.
But if at any point the feelings are too intense,
You can keep something comforting that helps you feel safe nearby,
And stop the audio at any point.
Firstly,
We're going to define what the fear of shining your light is.
With this particular wound,
It might feel unsafe to share your gifts,
Your ideas,
Your positivity and your unique qualities with the world.
When we have this wound,
We might find ourselves shrinking,
Not speaking up,
Or sharing our ideas,
And generally not fully being ourselves.
This might mean that we spend a lot of energy trying to contain ourselves and squash ourselves down,
And we might feel a kind of flatness as we go through life,
Or just in particular spaces.
Often,
Unhelpful beliefs are formed in our early childhood and teens.
People with this wound might have heard things like,
Don't be a show off,
You're being too much,
You think you're so much better than everyone,
Or words to this effect.
Or,
Something negative might have happened as a result of sharing ourselves.
For example,
You were taken advantage of,
Shamed,
Or ridiculed.
In general,
We get the message that it's not safe to express ourselves,
And that it makes other people uncomfortable when we share our gifts.
Along with this,
We might fear that we'll be rejected if we share our unique qualities.
As a child,
Our primary need is for attachment and belonging.
So,
Out of survival,
To protect our attachment relationships,
We begin to shrink,
To stay quiet and not fully be ourselves.
It's important to know that doing this as a child was helpful,
And as unhelpful as it might feel now that you hold this wound,
It did keep us safe in these important relationships.
Now,
As an older person,
You might feel as though this wound is holding you back.
You might want to feel more comfortable in being yourself,
Or achieve certain things in your life which require you to share your gifts and talents.
My hope is,
Through this journey,
You'll start to understand that it's now safe to be yourself,
And to share your gifts with the world.
Take some time now to think about the words that best describe this wound for you.
So it might be,
I'm afraid of being too much.
I'm afraid someone will shame me.
I don't want to make people uncomfortable.
Whatever words best describe the wound for you.
Now,
As you think of these words,
Drop down into your body and notice what happens when you're thinking of this belief.
Where is it living?
Does this feeling have a colour,
Texture,
Or a shape?
Could it be likened to an object?
Turn the dial up on this feeling,
Inviting it into your body.
The feelings might be uncomfortable,
But they're safe to feel.
Now as you hold this feeling in your body,
Let your mind float back and land on the earliest memory you have when you first had this feeling,
Along with the words that best describe the wound.
Hold this memory in your mind now,
And really examine it.
How old are you?
Who's involved?
What's happening?
Now you're going to enter the scene of this memory as your adult self.
Approach the younger you with compassion,
Ready to hear whatever they have to say.
How is the younger version of you feeling?
A thumbs up is absolutely okay.
Now you're going to ask this version of you what they need.
Do they need the adult you to hear something?
Or to do something?
Or do they need to hear something from you?
Whatever it is,
Offer it now.
So just notice what happens in the scene,
And allow all the feelings to be felt.
Let the scene play out until whatever your younger self needed has brought them to a state of calm and peace.
Thank your younger self for helping you get through this time by carrying these beliefs and protecting your relationships.
Let them know that the present time,
Where you are as an adult,
Is different.
It's no longer your job to keep other people comfortable.
And you get to choose people and spaces where your light is valued and appreciated.
Take the hand of your younger self now,
And gently walk them into the present moment with you.
Become this part of you with love.
The emotion of love is felt in the heart chakra,
Which is located in the centre of the chest and is associated with the colour green.
We're going to focus on this area now,
As we sit with all parts of yourself,
Allowing them all to be there.
Visualise a warm,
Glowing green light surrounding your heart centre.
Remind all parts of yourself that you don't have to be burdened by the past any longer,
And that you get to choose the kind of life you want to live.
It is safe to express yourself.
You are deserving of love.
It is safe to be you.
Let these words radiate through you now,
Filling every cell in your body.
If you've been in a meditation for this practice,
Gently bring yourself back into the room when you feel ready.
Wiggling your fingers and toes,
Opening your eyes,
Feeling content and whole.
