Let's try to be perfect I have tried many times but I didn't I didn't succeed at all so I will remain imperfect and I will remain imperfect cause my hair is a mess as you can see I'm late to post this recording and I don't want to wait I don't want to wait to be perfect because life doesn't wait for me life waits for me to stay imperfect I will remain imperfect I haven't spent enough time with my kids I haven't gained enough weight I haven't lost enough weight I'm not where I would like to be I don't love myself enough I'm not calm enough I'm so imperfect I haven't meditated all the days since the beginning of the year and that's imperfect Dear Wong,
Where are you running?
Why are you rushing?
Perfection is not something you can reach by going quick by wasting time on trying to reach some fake goals that don't really align with your time because your time is not something that is a running it's not a competition it's just accepting your rhythm.
Imperfection mmm so much guilt so much shoot so many times you check the list so many times you just want to throw the to-do list and to forget it and what about looking for peace I just learned that in Hebrew the question how are you literally is translated by how are you with your peace how is your peace today mmm how is my peace today well just checking in and saying that okay my brain my mind would like so much to have achieved all these things I have been thinking about from weeks since weeks since days and a part of me just recognizes that I need time I need time to unfold I need time to meet myself I need time to experiment I also need time to let go to make some trials to make some errors because otherwise I can't learn I can't grow right learning failing falling rising again trying singing enjoying life as it is human perfection to me mmm it means being completely human so being incomplete because each time I try to accept what I judge as imperfection then I let life a chance to meet me up I let others a chance to bring me something to complete my experience so I need to remain imperfect for that to let others meet me where I am and for another reason that is so important to me in my work too and in this recording especially is to let others witness and see my imperfection so that they can allow themselves to be imperfect and hopefully not with adding more shoes like mmm I should try to be imperfect I should try to tease my imperfection to you know showcase my imperfection that would sound so fake and it might be quite trendy nowadays to be vulnerable to be perfectly imperfect but I just want to be alive I just want to breathe breathe in breathe out breathe in imperfect moments breathe out perfect moments because words are just words and being imperfect doesn't prevent me from trying to reach progress trying to succeed trying to attain some goals trying to be efficient doesn't prevent all of that not at all not at all because life is not something where you have to to choose between one thing or another that seem opposite no nothing is opposite here I can be imperfect and still try to mmm to seek the absolute and with this word absolute I come full circle with my last recording that was in nature too if you remember where I have shown you the pillars around me and I have talked about this this quest for the absolute and the notion of perfection so without I just hope that you will find your own way to approach imperfection to see imperfection in others and just to be creative with that could be through silence could be through action no matter what and I like the fact that I will remain this completely imperfect with many sounds around me and maybe I will be banished from inside timer because my recording is not perfect and doesn't match the rules but I'm just alive and I love it so bye from someone who feels alive perfectly imperfect
