I'm Maida and this is a meditation and contemplation about forgiveness.
Is there anything happening for you right now that requires forgiveness?
Is there something or someone in your life that you're resisting,
Fighting,
Resenting?
Bringing that situation or person to mind.
And notice how that feels.
What happens in your body?
Does it create a tension or a block or a disconnect?
How does your energy respond to thinking about the thing that feels unforgivable in this moment?
Do you feel angry?
And if you do,
Give yourself permission to really deeply feel those feelings.
Feel angry.
Feel your justification.
Don't use your mind to build a story of why you're right and they're wrong.
But just allow the feelings to flow.
Allow the energy that accompanies the feelings to flow.
If you feel resentful,
Allow the resentment to be there.
Don't try and squash it.
Don't try and push it away.
Don't try and change it.
Don't try and superimpose a more spiritually advanced perspective over the feeling of resentment.
Open yourself up to that feeling.
And ask the feeling,
Why is it there?
What is it trying to tell you?
What does it need?
And what is this situation or this person making you feel?
Are you feeling unappreciated?
Undervalued?
Like you're not important?
Like your needs don't get met?
What is so upsetting about this situation for you?
Even when we have a strong emotional response to a situation,
It can mean that one of our wounds is being triggered.
That the universe is providing an opportunity to look at a block that we have or a trauma that we're carrying.
So now ask yourself,
Is this feeling of being undervalued,
Unappreciated,
Whatever it was that your feeling said to you,
Is this familiar?
Have you encountered it before?
Taking a moment to breathe in energy and space.
Sometimes when we're exploring and contemplating the difficult feelings,
We can kind of close up energetically.
And if you have,
That's okay.
Just feel a sense of breathing in an expansion and again giving yourself permission to be with whatever is,
To be with yourself however you're presenting in this moment.
So coming back to the familiar wound,
What would be the antidote to it?
If the situational person is making you feel unimportant,
The antidote to that might be feeling important.
If the situational person is making you feel unvalued,
Then the antidote to that would be feeling valued.
Is there a way for you to give yourself the antidote?
Is there a way for you to build the feeling that your inner world is really craving?
Can you think of a time when you felt that way?
Something that made you feel important?
Something that made you feel valued?
A time where you experienced the antidote?
Take a moment to reconnect to that experience now.
What else could you do for yourself,
Either in the inner world or the outer world,
To give you the experience that you're seeking?
The other person or situation may not change right now,
But that doesn't mean you're trapped,
Or stuck,
Or powerless.
The reason we want the person or situation to change is because we want to feel differently.
So let's skip the middle man.
Let's go straight to the feeling.
What else could you do for yourself to activate,
To create that feeling for yourself without needing anything from the outside?
How can you activate that experience in yourself?
You have the wisdom and you have the guidance to take you there.
We're not going to try and force ourselves to forgive before we're ready.
Forgiveness isn't something that you do,
It's something that you allow.
We will however practice,
Onopono,
On the person or situation that we wish we were ready to forgive.
So once again bring the situation or the person to mind and then say,
Either mentally or out loud,
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
I love you.
These might feel like difficult concepts to apply to the person or thing that is upsetting us,
But on a higher level with a deeper perspective it's the truth.
So practice them not just in your mind,
Not just in your words,
But in your being.
What would it feel like to apologize,
To ask for forgiveness,
To share love and gratitude?
It's an exploration,
It's an opening and it's an allowing,
It's not a forcing.
So continue that process for as long as feels good.
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
I love you.
Thank you.
