Why Our Lives Aren't Exactly The Way We Want....

Well,

Hello,

All of you.

Bless your hearts.

Thank you for coming.

I've been,

You know,

So looking forward to this.

I had a big wave of Kundalini come up my back a couple of days ago,

Which for me means a step up,

You know,

Rising.

And so that will also apply and include you as well to as much as you wish.

But if I feel it,

Then it's also for everybody.

You know,

There's quite a lot to say about this topic,

About,

You know,

Why,

Why isn't my life the way I want it?

And there's,

There's a lot of levels that I'm going to be speaking at and hopefully levels for everybody.

And also,

If you listen to it in a few months,

You might hear even more than you hear today.

Anyway,

One of the things I want to talk about is,

You know,

Sometimes we ask the universe for something and,

You know,

Months pass and,

You know,

Finally it comes and it gently gets woven into our lives.

And we almost don't even notice and it just becomes the new normal.

But it's actually a big gift.

So I think this happens a lot.

I think we actually get our dreams woven in.

But it's almost like when we can be neglectful,

We don't kind of acknowledge it.

And if you think of a,

You know,

Of a child of how you were with your children or with other children,

You know,

Children of other people,

If you do something for the children,

And they ignore it,

But don't say thank you and everything,

You're not as likely to make the effort to do it again.

To keep giving them things as much as you are if a child expresses gratefulness.

You know,

And really my experience,

It's the Creator,

It's the same.

And that's why,

You know,

Basically all the teachers right across the board say,

Gratefulness is the most important of all the virtues.

If you get that,

If you keep that alive in your life,

That will soften your heart and open you to receive.

Because really,

In my experience,

And you know,

It's what the sages say,

Again across the board,

The Creator wants to give us everything.

It's just we have to be ready.

And what makes us ready is kind of this attitude of gratefulness.

And another thing that makes us ready is an attitude of service to others.

Yeah,

So I just,

You know,

I just wanted to shine a light on this,

That we can get huge dreams coming true,

But it had happened slowly and organically.

And then we're kind of,

Yeah,

We're kind of yeah like,

Meh,

You know,

So what,

Meh.

But really,

It was something that we really,

Really wanted,

Maybe for months and years,

And it's here,

You've got it.

There's so much I want to say.

I've got all these words sort of in my head,

So I'm just going to look at my nose.

So I've got everything.

The other thing is,

You know,

On another level,

Like,

Is your current life so bad,

Really?

I mean,

You think of all the people,

You know,

Who are getting really bad news today,

You know,

Who've lost someone,

Or they've got a diagnosis,

A serious diagnosis,

Or,

You know,

They've woken up with COVID,

Or their child ran away,

Or,

You know,

They lost their money,

Lost their home.

There's so,

There's so much human heartbreak that,

You know,

We forget this,

Though,

And we focus on sometimes the minutiae of things that we think are wrong with our lives,

And we can blow them up,

So it's like making a mountain out of a molehill,

You know,

With something that's not quite right.

So again,

I wanted to point that out,

That we can lose our broad vision,

And we can get sort of caught in looking at one single thing that's not the way we want it to be,

And making that a point of focus.

You know,

We're alive.

We're alive on this planet where Amma says that,

You know,

There's a huge desire to live on Earth.

It's like a very coveted thing to get,

You know,

On the Earth program,

And actually,

They've stopped,

New souls stopped coming to Earth now,

Where our evolution is progressing enough that there are no more new souls coming,

And just the ones who are here will,

You know,

Be working towards graduating.

So,

You know,

This actually may make our evolution speed up if there are no new souls coming in.

So it's sort of like,

You know,

When you walk,

You can walk faster if you're not carrying a baby or walking with a toddler.

It's the same principle.

You know,

We're the richest,

Really,

That we're living at the richest time.

You know,

We've got so many needs that are met,

Physical needs.

And,

You know,

Even if the West is emotionally fractured,

You know,

By doing this work,

Studying with,

You know,

Other teachers,

Seeing Amma,

Seeing Mira,

We can help heal the fractures of the Western consciousness.

And that is just a tremendous,

Tremendous,

So instead of being hostage to the blind spots of our culture,

We can rise up and heal ourselves and our culture.

So we are blessed,

Utterly,

Utterly blessed.

I can feel all of you now.

I'm beginning to feel all of you.

You know how it works in this and I work with you all.

Yeah.

You're all working with getting your feet on the ground more,

Getting your feet on Mother Earth more,

Which is a very common need for Westerners.

Because we can get caught in our heads and off the ground,

We get ungrounded.

You know what ungrounded is?

It's when you're scared of your thoughts and feelings,

When you're scared of how you really feel about things.

So you sort of jump up off the ground to try to lose connection with yourself and with Mother Nature,

Basically.

Because,

You know,

If you go in the woods and you're walking along,

You can start to feel yourself more and you can relax and accept yourself more.

That's it.

That's what all of you need to do,

Actually,

All of you right across the board is actually put your feet on Mother Earth and move into more acceptance.

That's what's going to make you happiest.

That applies to everybody.

That is actually the key to this session,

Although I'm going to be talking about a lot of different other threads.

Some of you are feeling a little rebellious.

I get it.

I was the same.

It's like sometimes we want to be helped,

But we don't want to be told how we are.

We don't want to be told what to do.

That's it.

Okay,

Good.

See,

I'm just acknowledging,

You know,

Some of your thoughts and feelings.

And so as I do that,

Then the battle stops.

And this is for yourself,

Too.

This is key to learn how to just go into quiet and acknowledge your own deeper thoughts and feelings.

And then the war within can stop and you can feel peace more.

Yeah.

Yeah,

You know,

There's this real hesitance to really come down and put your feet on on the ground and the on Mother Earth.

You know,

We're taught you've heard me say so many times that as little munchkins in the gaps where our parents were not fully self realized and could not love us like 100% they loved us through their egos.

So as little kids,

We disowned parts of ourselves and we went up into our heads to try to figure it all out.

So that's what all of you guys are doing.

You're kind of going up into your heads energetically and trying to figure it all out in your lives.

And you know,

Our lives aren't solvable there.

That's it.

Good.

Okay,

Good.

Good.

I can feel you agreeing with that.

Good.

Right.

I mean,

How many sort of loops have we gone around trying to figure things out with our heads?

And sometimes when we try to figure out our lives with our heads,

It even makes it worse.

Yeah.

So my experience,

You know,

When I went to study with Abraham,

I got my feet on the ground in a big way.

I mean,

It's easy to get your feet on the ground in Hawaii,

Let me tell you.

It's joyful.

And actually,

That's what I'd like to help you with,

Help you get your feet on the ground.

So you've got roots and wings,

So that you get your feet on the ground,

You can have your roots right down to the centre of the earth,

And then have your wings and have your,

You know,

Go right up to the stars,

So that you have the grounded consciousness,

But you have the really expanded consciousness that can access other dimensions and if you wish.

But to do that,

You have to be very solid rooted on the ground.

Just this talk will help.

But I can feel you pretty much all of you coming into your bodies more.

Your power,

You access your power through your body and through being in the present moment.

It's like I said,

I had that wave of Kundalini come at my back.

It could happen because I was present in the moment and I was aware of my body.

That's it.

One of the things that after this talk,

You could ask yourselves,

And seriously ask yourself,

Why?

What is the resistance to putting your feet right on the ground and coming into a relationship with Mother Nature and your true self?

If you ask that question,

Seriously,

You will,

The answer will bubble up over weeks or months.

And if you watch for it,

You'll see it.

Some of you feel you can't do that.

It's,

It's you don't want to do it.

It's okay.

I get it.

Like,

You know,

It's you don't want to,

Because any of us can do that.

We're God in human form.

But it's,

It's okay,

If you feel you can't.

You can keep coming to the Zooms.

But I will say that Krishna Murti was talking about how some people,

You know,

Listened to him for 30 years.

But I don't think you guys are doing that.

I'm teasing you.

But I'm also saying,

You know,

Don't put it off.

You know,

We're here,

We're in this really valuable life.

And it's a time where there are a lot of avatars.

So it's actually far more easy to get information than it is in other eras.

Because when the avatars are here,

What it does is it strengthens the power of the love.

And so,

You know,

It's easier to achieve spiritual mastery.

It's easier to grow.

And when they leave,

It's sort of like,

Then we're the humanity,

We're thrown back on ourselves.

And then we have to put into practice the lessons that we learned at their feet.

You guys need more love.

Actually,

You kind of need more love for me right now,

Too.

Actually,

My love for you is infinite.

But I can hear myself being a little instructive.

That's it.

That's it.

That's good.

That's it.

I'm seeing some feet getting willing to touch the ground.

You know,

When you root on the earth,

You become much more powerful.

You can't really be powerful if you're ungrounded.

That's it.

And the only thing that keeps us ungrounded is we're scared of our thoughts and feelings.

And once you put your arms around yourself,

You can come down to the ground.

I mean,

That's what being with Abraham did for me.

I could put my arms around myself and slowly come down to the ground.

Yeah,

There's kind of a deep hesitance to do this,

But to come,

You know,

To root on the earth.

But I mean,

Some of you won't know what I'm talking about,

Maybe,

But some of you may.

You know,

Just this,

What we're doing will help dissolve any complex or belief system that makes it hard to root on the earth.

I mean,

Perhaps a key one is a belief that came from early childhood that you cannot have your true energy and be here on the earth.

But you can.

Sometimes that can be very strong in women just because of historically what's happened with women.

You know,

They learned that they were property first and that it wasn't safe to have their autonomy.

So we can be carrying those old patterns even though right now it's safer to move through any withholds about feeling that you can't have your energy here because you can.

It's just choice.

And even if your hair stands up on end for like a few days,

Oh well.

It's not,

It's just fear.

It's not real.

Okay,

That's good.

You're getting braver.

That's it.

That's it.

If you can face,

If you can,

If you go through enormous fear,

Even just once and see how it's just illusion,

Then that will strengthen your muscles so that you'll be able to step forward serving love more.

I feel women need to get really good at it.

You know,

My experience,

It always comes down to what are the women doing?

You know,

It's women carry the most,

The heaviest burden raising kids and stuff.

And really with this shift we're making,

This evolutionary shift we're making,

It again,

It comes in through the feminine.

All the freedom and the new shifts come in through the feminine.

So and you know,

It's in men too,

The feminine.

They have the female within.

But we're conscious females.

So we're the ones who feel the pull of this shift the strongest.

So really kind of morally I feel we're responsible to,

You know,

Just do the best we can.

That's it.

That's good and be very gentle with yourself if you feel like you're not able to do your best.

And at the same time,

You know,

It matters.

So just keep at it.

Because I can feel tremendous heart in you all that's wanting to be released.

So you can express it,

You can express your full power.

It's very strong.

See,

You can only really express your heart energy when your feet are solid on the ground.

I mean,

That's that's how it is.

This isn't the way I thought the talk would go.

But this is what happens,

Right?

It's,

It's,

It's,

It's sort of steered by who,

Who joins us and what's most needed to hear.

That's it.

There's tremendous heart capacity,

All of you.

All of you carry unusually large capacities of the heart.

I assume it's why you're you're drawn to this work.

Because that is so strong in it.

But you've got it too.

That's it.

Remember to ask,

Do an inquiry,

Self inquiry into what is preventing you from really putting your feet solidly on the ground.

Okay,

So it's funny,

It's sort of like that is the end of part one,

I'm getting.

So we're just now going to move into part two.

So I'm going to look at my notes again.

Okay,

So,

You know,

When we think of whether our life is the way we wanted or not,

We often think of things that are external,

Like,

Have we have we,

What have we achieved?

What are our possessions?

How is our business going?

You know,

Maybe we're wanting our business to be sort of self propelling,

So we can relax and lie on the beach,

Whatever our,

Our dream is.

But,

You know,

The truth is that it isn't an outward thing you're really wanting,

You're actually wanting a feeling.

This is what you're all chasing,

A feeling that you feel is that's not there in your everyday life.

But the thing is,

You can get the outer thing that you're wanting,

I don't know,

New clothes,

A house,

Whatever it is,

More lucrative business.

And you might not necessarily get the feeling that you want.

It might not come anyway.

I mean,

You think it's going to come because you're actually chasing a feeling that you lost in childhood when you sort of shifted up to your head to please your parents.

You know,

This is why,

You know,

People,

They achieve their dreams and they go,

Yeah,

Meh.

It's because they still feel the lack of the feeling that they wanted,

Whether it's a feeling of like,

Being okay,

Of being connected up,

Of being peaceful.

You know,

Sort of,

Oh,

If I'm successful,

Then I can just be myself and relax.

Or if I own a house,

Then I'll feel like that I am somebody,

That I've got some status.

But the thing is,

You know,

A three year old child feels totally confident within themselves,

Unless they're,

You know,

In terrible,

Terrible circumstances.

But a normal three year old will have enormous trust in themselves.

And they won't feel they're lacking anything.

And those three year olds,

You know,

They have their feet on the ground.

And they're connected to Mother Nature.

They're connected to their hearts.

And they're also connected to,

You know,

The stars.

I mean,

They'll see their grandparents,

Right?

Or,

You know,

All those are,

Or the child knows some,

And has died before the phone call comes through.

We know this.

I mean,

This is a state actually you're wanting to return to.

That is really it.

But the thing is,

We can,

You know,

Go out in the world and struggle really hard and never ever make any forward motion on where we're actually wanting to go.

Which is back to the how we felt as children as little kids.

We felt very complete.

Very safe being here on Earth.

Somehow,

The more love needs to be communicated to you somehow.

More love needs to come into my voice to communicate to you.

I'll just ask the universe for help this way.

You guys,

You need an experience of being loved somehow.

There's a little bit of shame in some of you that you haven't got it all sewn up.

And the shame is just the,

You know,

Ego coming up actually to be cleared.

Just be with everything.

You're just beautiful the way you are.

Just helping you with the next step.

Remember,

Think of me as that you're,

You're listening to an aspect of you.

You know,

Everything's one.

So you are listening to an aspect of your own self.

I'm not separate,

Just like you guys aren't separate from me either.

You're part of me.

I'm just working with aspects of myself.

And you're doing the same thing with me.

That's it.

So remember,

If you have an awake teacher in your life,

Then you have a channel to your own.

Being you know the fact that we can teach you in your life.

Some of you have more than that,

More than just one.

It's a reflection of what's going on inside you.

That you have access and communication and a relationship with your true self.

It's one of the things you know that you can use to see your progress is,

You know,

Like in the West,

We're not that great at self inquiry.

We're not.

So it's,

It's easiest for us just because we're,

You know,

They call they consider us kind of shallow in the East.

But it's easiest.

We're,

We're also good at externals and we were good at recycling,

But lots of stuff we're really good at.

So we can get the same place by looking at our external world and seeing it as a metaphor for our relationship with our soul.

That's it.

So I know someone who,

You know,

Works with a homeless and lives in assisted housing and this person hasn't quite found his own home within his heart.

I feel he's,

He's sort of working a little bit on the outside of himself.

And so that's how his circumstances are reflecting this.

And when he finds his home within his own heart,

When he moves into more self acceptance and self love,

Those circumstances will change for him.

Just like a kaleidoscope changes.

You're okay,

You know,

All of you,

You know,

In the old days,

I used to really start working really,

Really hard when I encountered resistance in others.

Now I don't do that anymore.

I kind of take a step back.

Because you guys are the only ones who can get through the resistance.

I can't do it for you.

Just like I have to deal with my own resistance.

And you know,

Every human being who's on the earth is working through something.

You know,

If you have any negative thoughts or negative judgments about yourself,

Particularly just know that that's your ego.

It is not your soul.

Yeah,

Be brave,

You know,

Be brave.

You know,

So my experience in life over and over again is that nobody else could save me and I had to save myself over and over and over.

And finally,

What this brought me to is a very deep lodging on the inside.

And women are good at this.

You know,

It's way easier for us to do this than men.

Most times.

So I please be braver you guys.

I mean,

Really,

If women don't become braver,

I don't know.

I don't know what's going to happen.

Because we're,

We need to be the leaders of the shift.

We need to model it.

You know,

I'm a says the biggest need right now is for women to wake up.

Yeah.

That's it.

And there's,

You know,

More pressure on things like appearance and false values than there's ever been in my experience and it's just,

It's all baloney.

So just like,

Yeah,

Don't pay any attention to it and just,

You know,

Work with being authentic.

Moving into truth and then work with self forgiveness and self compassion and just keep doing it.

I mean,

We get criticized no matter what we do,

So we might as well move into truth.

Is anybody got any comments or questions because we're,

We're a little at crossroads and I can't get through a level of resistance.

I mean,

I can keep talking at you and everything,

But there's some some shift that needs to happen.

So maybe somebody can speak up with what's on their mind or or question or something to help shift this.

I promise you.

You had emailed me yesterday about this being a dream that we're in a dream.

We are.

And so,

This is the first time I've really sat and listened and actually been kind of making notes,

And I've never done that.

I've always just sat and listened,

And I actually think that that was because of fear in a way that writing it down would mean,

Well,

I have to do something,

And just listening,

You know,

Like it's like not as responsible.

And so what's come across in the last few days is that this really is a dream that we're responsible for our,

For our waking up for our,

You know,

With everything,

And it has been so incredibly orchestrated.

And,

And I can just tell you that the being grateful around that just when you're speaking in the beginning about the gratitude around things happening to you and you're not quite realizing it.

Yeah.

So,

Just,

And I know many people have no Ama here.

And so this is a bit of an Ama,

It was is an Ama story.

But my,

I have had to come to the realization that what other people see as a narrative for life.

I have a choice whether I decide that that's the narrative as well.

And so,

I was told that my niece was not going to live for another for after two more months,

Two or three more months that was it she's going to go.

I kept feeling underneath that this was a replay the universe is bringing back something for me to experience again.

And then I felt an overlay of what happened to you actually with your son,

When he was younger,

And people not believing it.

And there's a whole lot of other things that the universe kind of brought to me.

My soul brought to me to show me this.

In the last few weeks.

Yeah.

Okay,

So.

And so I asked.

I asked my soul for a sign,

And I said please show me something that I can hang on to that I can believe that what I know to be true is true.

So I asked for two things.

One was kind of a silly light thing I said I wanted to see this,

My niece's favorite dog.

That day I said I want to see that dog today.

Want to see that today,

I will I want to know sign.

Yeah,

Talking about box and how that was a sign for you.

And so I,

And I said,

And I want something else,

Really something important.

That's going to make me hang on,

Be able to hang on to this.

So at seven o'clock last night I saw this accordion with a dog that she loves so much when I was coming back from my walk in the forest.

And last night I was out very very late,

And I had told a very close friend of mine about this,

And could she please tell the satsangs,

What was happening and that they would pray for her.

I came home at one o'clock last night to find that she had told the swami in California who had just showed up,

I'm ready to Tory had gone to the satsangs and I said to tell me that she was praying for her.

Oh,

Oh my goodness.

Oh,

Everyone's hearts up to see that.

It is in siding with your soul in siding with this,

In siding with what you know to be true,

Even when everyone around you was saying,

No,

That's not true,

That's not true,

To side with that and know that it's the truth.

And it's the most powerful force in the world,

Like that's what Amma says like innocence like that siding with your true nature moves mountains.

I mean,

I just think that's the best news.

That's just like,

Oh my goodness.

It's talk about getting big guns on your side.

Well,

You know what I,

It's again,

The orchestration I was taken to a court to a string quartet,

The other night,

Which I have never been to in my life.

And I had decided before I went that I was going to listen and use that as prayer.

And as I sat there and listen to this music.

I could feel a healing story.

I have never experienced that in my life.

I could feel it because I know two strings is very much the energy but the language right of the universe is through right is through this inspiration.

And so,

Sitting there and I can feel the healing story it was the most incredible experience I've ever had.

And just,

You know,

Went by like boom.

And I thought,

Oh,

I was so present,

And I was so moment of healing,

It was just incredible.

Yes,

So that's what you did,

You were present,

And you,

You made that movement inward so that you made space within by being present,

To be able to,

To,

To experience the healing story and it's like,

Actually you experienced your own love power.

It's like when you step back and become present in yourself,

Your soul can show you who you are.

I'm talking about.

Yeah.

And we women are really good at it.

We can step inward like this easily.

That's it.

Oh,

Andy I like this is.

I'm gobsmacked I mean,

I was too.

I was too.

I was.

That's it.

I mean,

This is what we're so scared of you guys.

I mean this is why we don't want to put our feet in the ground and bond to nature and want ourselves because we're so scared of this love power to joke.

And then we spend our lives going let's run with my life right because we're not actually doing our duty of learning how to let this love in.

That's it because it is a duty and if we don't do it this time off to do it next time.

That's it.

But you know Andrea,

Andrea has been at this a while so it takes time,

Right.

And it takes it takes time,

And you do it when you're ready.

Yes,

You do,

You do.

Yeah,

We do it when you're ready and you and you also hear things differently at different times you know like this is what I mean by not even making the connection with,

You know,

I mean I know there's a reason not to write things like that I know that but also I realized with myself with my own journey,

But that was a bit of a barrier of like not really taking to action or taking to heart,

The things that I was hearing.

It was a bit of an avoidance right and so there's,

You know,

There's no avoiding them right so and but you know I've known you for 20 years I mean it's.

I know,

I know,

But,

But,

Yeah,

You know,

Look how long it's taken me to so and you guys,

Not everybody has to write,

It's just,

It's just what what Andrea needs to do for her soul right now is to write it down.

But some of you might just have to be fully present and let let this energy work with the cells of your body to do you know what I mean there's no particular right way.

But in your case,

Andrea that's really good that you're taking it more seriously right it's like honoring yourself and honoring this process,

That's it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And part of why I think it's taken so long for you know this,

This woman teaching because actually it is its integrity on teaching.

You know,

So it's not a quick fix.

And it's,

It can be lonesome and difficult.

But the upside is just the most wonderful life that you can imagine.

Thanks,

Andrea.

Not that you should Hi premise it it's Stephanie here.

Stephanie.

Thank you so much.

Um,

What you're saying about feet on the ground.

It definitely resonates where I'll feel like I want to go out into nature but then out there'll be all these excuses of career all these other responsibilities that seem like it's not important,

And it's like,

I don't know,

I guess I kind of feeling that,

You know that choice between the material world and then the actual choosing of the soul of,

Like,

What's more important in life is connecting with nature and coming down to ourselves like you're like you're saying is the simplicity of it is something that I'm struggling with,

And I guess for me,

My question that kind of came up was,

You know,

Going out in nature is a good way to ground.

But are there any other,

And not a how to but you know is it just going within more or how to connect and just allow that grounding,

But you're actually asking me how to.

Yeah,

How to but you're asking me how to.

Yes.

I mean,

I think your problem is that you see a split between the earthly life and the spiritual life and there's no split.

In fact,

You take care of your deeper impulses,

The deeper truth,

Then everything will go well.

And if you don't take care of them,

Then nothing will go well,

Then you will feel stressed.

Yes,

Thank you.

Yeah.

Okay,

Stephanie I'd like you to like,

Think about things a bit like there's some step into authenticity you could make.

Right about yeah I think,

Yeah,

I can feel the hiding the,

The working through the automatic responses of like just saying it but not actually.

Okay,

But you can talk about that to the cows come home and you're good at that.

So,

Just shift.

No.

You know what happens if we go round in like being inauthentic and we're aware of that what will happen if we keep doing it the bottom will follow.

The universe will either get depressed or the universal like fire you or something you know something will happen because it's not allowed.

You cannot do a spiritual training work and say you're on the path,

And not,

You know,

And play too many games like that.

So put up with it for a bit.

You know,

There'll be a,

We get sharp shocks and I can tell you this from my own experiences,

It's not,

It's,

It's the most loving thing the universe can do,

Because it's it's actually helping us.

And sometimes we don't listen to we get a sharp shock.

When I've had many I hate to say,

But I have the feeling you know better.

And anytime you can,

You know,

You can just,

You know,

I want you know,

It's very brave of you to talk and I do you know and I'm,

I'm not wanting to go after you but I,

I can't go along with the level that you spoke at.

So,

How are you feeling right now.

My stomach's turning a bit but I feel my feet are tingling my hands are tingling,

And I feel uncomfortable in my body but I also feel waves of like peace and relaxing.

Yeah,

Like I feel like it's almost a relief you got almost a relief that.

Yeah.

Yeah.

This is it.

Yeah.

You know,

It's like a comedy.

Yeah.

That's good.

That's good.

Thanks.

Yeah,

You're welcome.

You're welcome.

I said I'm feeling,

I'm feeling better.

There's things are being loosened up it's really good.

I'm really happy.

You guys what you're all scared of is there's,

You have a lot of power,

You got a lot of love power and you're just scared of it.

And so it's being loosened up and you're these two women who have stepped forward it's kind of like,

This is how you do it.

It's just kind of like,

This is how you do it.

I was welcomed for the first time by Mother Earth.

And the next day I was walking on this ground.

And what came up to me was,

If I just,

If I just was plainly able to walk on this ground every day you know just go for a walk.

I felt I would be taught everything I need to know,

Nothing in addition just,

I would be healed just by itself.

And so I just get this feeling of connection with this native ground again now in this moment.

And often when I'm here in this big city.

I feel having a hard time to really reconnect with nature I mean I do,

Not so much not in the same intense way.

Maybe I feel the disturbances in the,

On the ground because of the war,

I don't know what it is.

Maybe I'm more in my head or whatever,

But it has been far more easy for me when I was in an unspoiled nature,

So to say.

So I just wanted to ask maybe if you have anything to say about it how I could find my connection.

Well,

You know Abraham did say one time the Hawaiian Kahuna,

He did say that,

You know when land hadn't had a lot of people on it,

It was easiest to,

You know,

Grow when there weren't like lots of people around or,

Or even in the past,

You know,

Lots of people living in the wrong way.

But on the other hand,

You have access to divine will,

Atiba,

So you know it's kind of like if you invoke your soul's will,

You know it's like,

You know,

Praying for not my will but your will God creator,

You can tap into a power that will help you become more grounded no matter where you live.

Yeah,

There's nothing stopping you.

I mean,

I know you have a sensitive nervous system but like often I'll tell you what we do.

We sensitive women can like we focus on the disturbance,

And it makes it bigger than it has to be if we focus on the power of love.

But the disturbance will become smaller,

And you'll feel the love in the ground.

And I have the feeling maybe walking by a river might be helpful with the,

With the flow of the energy.

Atiba you've grown a lot like so you're doing something right so I wouldn't worry too much.

Do you know what I mean,

And if,

If you can be returned by just this talk and be returned to how you felt walking on the ground and that the information you needed would just come to you.

You didn't have to fuss or fight for it if you've been returned to that,

Then your soul is really able to speak to you.

And that's an achievement,

Atiba,

Like that is huge achievement.

So,

So just focus on the positive a little more you know a little bit more like premise sudah you know what I'm like,

Copy,

Copy.

You know I've got,

You know that from my hips I you know I use the crutches and you know I,

I would go along at 90 miles an hour and I totally ruined my shoulders but so you know I said to my GP I should get a x ray and the x ray came back with severe severe severe arthritis,

And you know I have no pain.

None.

And I don't focus,

You know if I get a twinge it,

You know twinge at nighttime sometimes I don't even focus on it.

And what I do is I make sure that my muscles are fit.

Do you know what I mean so I mean my GP I mean this is why she comes to me for sessions because she's never seen anybody handle pain this way but you know what I mean,

It's just my soul coming through me that does it.

Right.

And a T but you have a really really strong soul in there.

You've come miles.

Yeah.

And you've done,

You know,

You've been doing the work of centuries of lifetimes.

And since I've known you,

And you know it's just,

It's just going to get better and better for you.

My feelings.

Yeah.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Well,

My hat off.

Yeah,

Some of us come in with a heavy load you know I came in with a really heavy load,

So I recognize it.

Now you guys are so adorable.

We're all so human.

We're all so powerful though.

Just final call for comments before I resume Is there anything that you know if something's coming up and you feel like,

Say it like don't suppress it.

You know,

Risk,

Feeling like a fool.

Really,

But maybe nothing's coming up.

Okay.

Okay,

I'll just continue them.

Okay.

You know,

Life really,

You know,

I would say life is hard.

I wouldn't have wanted to say this before,

Like I have spent years running from this fact but my experience of life is it's hard.

And it takes everything we've got,

And it's,

You know,

It's love based so we can learn how to tap into this huge,

Huge love and compassion that's within us but you know sometimes it really is climbing the mountain and we might have a really rocky patch.

And we,

You know,

We can't see anything except the rocks of this bare face mountain we're scared of falling and we're struggling struggling and then we,

You know,

We finally climb up to the next level,

And suddenly there's a beautiful field of wildflowers,

You know where we can rest a while.

Yeah,

And we feel like in the positive pull of our personalities we start feeling like,

And what enlightenment would feel like.

And,

And then you know,

We have to,

You know,

We can't stay there forever so we have to climb again and maybe we hit another rocky patch,

But we're farther ahead than we were in the previous rocky patch.

We're higher.

We're more skilled.

We can see farther a higher perspective.

I just want to say,

Andrea,

You know the fact that Ama is praying for your niece is that's a reflection of your power,

Your love power,

That when it finally gets expressed,

It has a lot of oomph,

And that it's far less painful when we're carrying a lot of love power to express it than to try to put a lid on it.

This is the thing,

This is what's so painful is when we've got big love power,

And we try to contain it.

Yeah.

And that's what our culture is doing right across the board.

So it's tempting,

It seems to work but it doesn't.

Okay,

So just going back to the mountain so,

You know,

Life is some really uncomfortable sometimes,

But the more you can just fight with it when it's like that,

The quicker you can get through it.

It's like motherhood,

I,

You know,

I may have told you this,

I was having this really bad day.

And I remember my mom saying,

You know,

With the two little guys,

They're about like two and four,

Three and five or something.

And I was just really struggling.

And my mom said just pick up the burden,

Just stop fighting it,

Just pick up the burden.

And I stopped fighting it,

And I was like,

Well,

I'm a mom,

They're my kids,

You know,

This is today.

And if the day got much later,

And we started having fun and it was just because I stopped resisting them.

And you guys because we're in our heads so much.

We're often carrying the secret resistance we're fighting,

What's in front of us.

It's if we can put our arms around it and just pick it up,

Just pick up the burden.

Then we come into the present moment,

We come into acceptance,

And the circumstance change.

Circumstances won't change frequently until we accept them.

It's the thing when people,

You know,

They want to find their true love,

Right?

They keep looking and looking.

It's when they give up and they're not even thinking about it,

A person appears or somebody who wants children adopts and then they get pregnant.

I mean,

It's woven in so clearly into our experience that when we just accept and,

You know,

Things will change because when we accept,

We become present and we relax and we come down to the ground.

Okay.

You know,

The habit of self compassion and doing Hana Pono,

Like,

You know,

I've had a lot of Buddhist life,

So the self compassion bubbled up,

But truly it is without that,

I don't know what I'd be like without that habit of.

When I couldn't do anything else,

I would just lie in my bed and focus on self compassion.

I'd imagine angels hugging me.

I'd imagine,

You know,

For hours and hours until I found peace again.

And once you have the experience,

You can go back there before you can really feel the compassion coming into your body,

That it's hard,

But once you feel it,

Then you know you can do it and you can just keep turning that way.

But again,

You see,

You have to become present in order to feel the compassion come to your body,

Which is built out of love.

Your body is made out of love and compassion.

Because everything is energy,

But we don't get that this energy is God.

That's the thing,

You guys,

You see,

Most of us,

And especially women,

We feel threatened.

And that's why we feel like we can't be on the earth and be in our true energy.

But there's no threat.

The threat is in our heads.

There's no threat.

It's like how,

You know,

Master can walk through a jungle and nobody bugs them.

You know,

The lion comes and is friendly.

You know,

It's like that.

The more you love,

The safer you are.

Yeah.

The importance of being present is sometimes I'm walking along and,

You know,

I mean,

This happened a while ago and I remember this feeling of being threatened left my body.

I just left my body and I went,

Oh,

That's relief.

I said,

There is no threat.

It's just what our minds believe,

Whatever our minds believe will make true.

You know,

They've done studies that if,

You know,

So somebody shown that sort of there's a picture of black and white,

Somebody points to the white and says it's black.

They've got studies with,

You know,

University educated people and they'll have like 30 people point to the white and say it's black.

And the person,

The university educated person,

After 30 or 40,

50 people say that,

They just say the same thing,

Even though they're looking at something white.

So if you just keep affirming that you,

You know,

That you're safe and that you can,

Feet can come down to the ground.

And you can join this movement of the divine feminine energy that you can live it out to.

You will.

That's it.

That's what it is really.

It's the,

It's the purest of the feminine that I'm talking about.

It's the purest,

Most divine energy of living it out.

And he's invincible.

It's why I'm here to tell the tale.

It's like,

It's what pays my bills.

It's like it takes care of me.

I live it,

You know.

And it requires great purity of heart though,

To work.

And that's where sometimes we like to hold on to our like our,

Our negativities because we think it's us,

But it's not.

Or we think our negativities,

Like our anger gives us power and it doesn't.

I can feel you all.

This is it.

It's like getting,

It's this divine feminine in all of you.

I can see all of you are like relaxing and kind of coming down to the ground more.

That's it.

It's like me siding with my son.

It's life and it,

The whole universe turned on that and look what Andrew was talking about with her niece and Amma's prayed.

It's like,

I'd say problem,

You know,

It's likely to be solved.

I mean.

Right.

The divine feminine can do anything.

That's it.

That's it.

I don't know what I've said,

But you,

You kind of,

You've kind of pulled your feet up again off the ground.

That's funny.

OK.

I want to talk to you about thoughts because they are the things that have a lot of power in our lives and sometimes we're,

We're hesitant to deal with them.

So,

You know,

Every negative thought we have,

Like it hurts us.

And it hurts the person.

And it's the person we're thinking about.

It darkens their aura.

And it darkens ours.

Do you know?

So.

I mean,

If we really knew what we were doing,

We wouldn't do it.

And when we let our minds run that way.

We're just setting up.

It's just we're going to get the karma of it.

And at least observe your negativity or,

You know,

Cancel the thought within eight seconds.

But observing it nullifies it a lot.

You know,

Supposing your mind,

You're clearing a complex and so your mind's got a lot of negative thoughts coming up.

You know,

As the complex is cleared,

I mean,

Even just observing it.

That's good enough because if you're allowing the complex to be cleared,

You're allowing your vibration to rise and you're allowing God into your mind and body more.

That's pretty much as good as a human being can get.

Yes,

But never berate yourself if negative thoughts are coming up because just think,

Oh,

I'm releasing a complex.

That's it.

That's it.

There's one of you who's going to get very good at that.

Well,

You'll all get good at it,

But there's one person who really needs to get good at that and they're going to.

Okay,

It's the thing they need to do most and they're going to do it.

Yeah.

That's good.

I feel better.

That's good.

This person's taking,

Willing to take responsibility.

This is good.

Yeah.

It's fantastic.

You know,

If we follow this divine feminine energy,

We become great,

Whether we're acknowledged or not.

That's what greatness is.

When we follow our soul,

We become great.

A lot of the famous people from history were actually following their souls.

Like Einstein.

He got to his thinking through intuition and then he would figure out the math afterwards.

He didn't get through it by doing math.

He wouldn't make these leaps through doing math.

You do it through intuition.

Charles Dickens,

And he couldn't have written The Christmas Carol without being at least somewhat awake.

I think he's more than somewhat awake.

It is actually,

You know,

The key being true to yourself tends to bring you like,

You know,

Fame and fortune really.

You become a great person.

And if it doesn't come,

Oh well,

Who cares?

You know,

Lots of the saints,

You know,

The Catholic saints,

They get famous after they die.

I mean,

This is what we're like,

You know,

It's like while people are alive,

We ignore them.

And then when they die,

Suddenly it's like,

Oh,

They're so holy.

They're so holy and everything.

And because they're not accessible for us to go see,

So we don't,

So we,

You know,

We don't have to change.

Oh my goodness,

It's what the earth planes like.

It's so ridiculous.

How many people walk past Christ?

How many people don't see Ama?

But,

You know,

When they die,

Then they become celebrated.

Yeah,

Because we're scared of change.

But right now,

You know,

It's scared if we don't change.

It's the possible for the kind of brutality of the future for the earth is way scarier than just having the courage to move into your divine feminine a little more.

That's it.

And remember,

Your soul's doing it all.

You know,

Really,

Your soul takes you into difficulties and it takes you out of difficulties.

I mean,

God's doing everything,

You know,

In the higher levels of perception,

You see this,

You see that actually there is no I that God's doing everything.

So the whole thing again becomes a comedy that,

You know,

That's,

What else?

Oh,

Yeah.

Okay.

One of the things that really helped me was I wrote letters to the universe.

Now,

The key was I really meant them when I wrote them.

So,

You know,

When I wrote a letter to the boys at the height of my illness and I wrote that I wanted to be better to pick up the boys within six months,

Then I was brought to that six months I was picking up the boys.

I realized that after I,

Well,

It really worked because I'd forgotten I did it.

And then when I was picking them up,

I thought,

Oh,

I wrote that letter.

So it's a good idea if you can forget what you wrote,

If you can,

But if you can,

That's okay.

But when you forget about it,

The universe can,

It's easier for it to come true because it's like if you plant a plant,

You don't want to keep digging,

Digging up to see how its root development is.

You just let it be,

Make sure it's cared for,

But just let it be.

You guys,

You're all immortal souls,

So,

You know,

All the stuff I'm talking about is very doable.

It's like,

Actually,

It's a done deal in a way.

All you have to do is like say,

Okay,

Sure.

Let's give it a go.

And don't,

You know,

See when you make a mistake,

But don't lacerate yourself.

You know,

Don't be hard on yourself.

Yeah,

Lots of us like pick at ourselves all day long about what we're not doing or how we're not good enough.

And that is probably one of the worst things.

It's like getting an IV full of dirty water.

You don't want to do that.

Please don't do that.

And if you do it to you,

You'll be doing it to all the people around you.

So don't do it.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

Yeah,

You know,

Service to others,

You know,

Accepting,

Focusing on self acceptance.

Praying.

You know,

Being self confident,

But being humble too,

Open to change.

You know,

I'm always getting like corrections from the universe.

Like all the time.

Really,

All the time I'm getting corrections.

I go,

Okay,

I okay.

And self forgiveness,

You guys.

So forgiveness.

Are there any questions more?

We've been going over an hour.

Which I'm happy to,

But I feel like if you can brave enough to come up with questions or comments,

It will help this material integrate.

Even during the session.

You know,

In the story of the Holy Grail.

I can't remember the hero's name,

But the Holy Grail is like symbol for the soul.

And,

You know,

In the story,

The reason it's difficult for him to get the Grail is because his mother gave him the advice of don't ask questions.

And that is a feminine survival skills,

Like I say,

With a bound feed and being treated as property women just they turn off their minds really.

They chunk down,

And they just cope.

They just deal.

And that's the legacy we're all living in.

But you see,

It stopped the guy from getting the Grail.

Stopped the guy from getting the,

His soul was this pattern of female docility in face of darkness.

Just docile going along with darkness.

It is the biggest obstacle,

You guys.

I mean,

That's the patterning.

And women actually need to stop giving this kind of advice.

They need to stop modeling this kind of way to their sons.

And they need to stand for the divine feminine and then our sons can stand,

They can move into the divine masculine.

But I can feel there's a little bit of this docility with not wanting to come forward with comments or questions.

It's part of this,

Don't ask any questions.

And you know me.

Okay,

Good.

Alex,

Go for it.

Hi.

Glad you could come.

Yeah,

Me too.

Well,

What I,

What I thought to say was that in your last Zoom.

I forget what my question was but we talked a bit about,

You know me,

Praying and expecting an answer.

And there was a dawning that I had around that.

And I just wanted to say that since then I've been doing it like I've been really.

Okay.

Really just openly expecting an answer to the prayers,

And I've been so amazed at how,

How they're answered.

Like it,

It just keeps blowing my mind,

And I,

I find that the trust is building each time.

And it's really,

It's so I guess this is just more of a comment and a thank you.

And,

And just that yeah,

It really.

It's like,

It's,

It's working.

I'm feeling the trust more.

Right.

And that's good news.

You see,

We're,

We're divine beings and the thing is what I mean,

You can hear it from me,

Like the people that listen to Krishna Murti for 30 years or whoever else is talking,

Or,

But there's this moment where you step forward and you start doing it,

Which is what Andrea was talking about and Alex,

You too.

It's fantastic.

That's it.

That's it.

There's nothing like the empirical evidence of your own experience,

Right?

I mean,

That's what convinces us.

I mean,

Yeah,

Right.

And it's,

It's funny how I catch myself,

You know,

Sometimes I'm thinking like,

Well,

This is probably too silly of a thing to pray for,

Or this is too big of a thing.

But,

But kind of taking a more experimental approach to it,

Like,

Well,

I'll just try what happens for seeing.

Great.

That's where this leads or keep getting more nazed.

So that's it.

It's the,

It's like the scientific approach.

That's,

That's,

You know,

The scientific approach propelled by some heart behind it.

You know,

But like experimenting with it,

Like,

Is this work?

And then,

And then seeing that it does,

It's fantastic.

That's it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's like going,

Me too.

It's like if you have a teacher and everything,

Just go me too.

I want this too,

Me too.

That's great,

Alex.

I'm very happy.

And that's exactly what I'm talking about,

About that little bit more mince,

A little bit more,

You know,

Less docility,

Like just across the board for us women,

For we women,

For us women.

Yeah.

Good.

It's great.

Yeah.

Okay.

Thank you.

Oh,

Thank you.

It gives me a big smile in my heart to hear this,

You know,

To hear your feedbacks about the changes and how it's woven into your life.

Yeah.

Because this is where it started from.

It's like John got better.

That was my empirical evidence.

You know,

That's why I can't stop shutting up about it because he lived.

Therefore,

This works.

Yeah,

It's good.

Yeah.

So what's interesting with people is this mixture of being soft enough that everybody feels safe,

But then also being,

You know,

Strict enough or demanding enough that there's forward motion because,

You know,

I've had so much experience with,

You know,

Too much experience with playing in the confines of where people's egos wanted me to teach from.

And it's like,

I just don't do that anymore.

They used to be very,

Very patient,

But I'm not so much now.

It's kind of like,

Do you want it?

Here it is.

Yeah.

And if you want to do it.

Yeah.

It's just like just what Alex was talking about.

No,

Just working with your own prayer.

I mean,

As I say,

And another what I said about this person who's willing to like witness their complexes and start seeing that their complexes are intruding on their life more than they thought,

And that they can learn how to let them release.

And when complexes is leaving,

You guys,

You know,

The aura darkens and,

You know,

We can feel heavy and lost and despairing and everything in it.

But it's that it's that this is just a complex.

I am moving through this and it's just praying anyway.

And then you get through it.

So you get lifted up the mountain.

You know,

When you clear a complex,

All of a sudden you kind of get lifted up and you're in this lovely plateau for a while.

Yeah.

And the only thing that really works is the innocence of the fool,

The really sincere person.

Yeah.

But,

You know,

Sometimes we can't be sincere,

So we have to like circle around and see what a big fake we are and how horrible it is and how it gets us nowhere.

You know,

Like that's OK,

Too.

But just get through it as soon as you can.

Because,

You know,

Really,

We're facing the world war.

It's like,

Do we really?

How much do you want to hesitate?

I mean,

You know,

Because I'll tell you,

If enough people start moving into truth,

This war would stop.

Yeah,

I mean,

Are we more scared of war or love power?

That's kind of it,

You guys.

I mean,

We can't control what other people do,

But really,

If enough people wake up.

Things would become very,

Very peaceful.

So it's like,

What's your excuse?

And,

You know,

If you're having trouble with yourself,

Just give it over and imagine,

You know,

Self-compassion.

You know,

I think the thing that was unusual about what I did was I sided with my son so drastically,

But then after that,

I sided with myself so drastically.

So I was able to forgive stuff that people would find pretty unforgivable or would find it hard to have confidence in themselves.

But I just kept siding and honouring myself.

And,

You know,

If I was really stuck,

I would,

You know,

You know,

Okay,

Okay,

I know I'm stuck.

Please help me God.

I mean,

Really,

In the old days,

I used to go to Ama and ask her to bend the rules for me.

Can you imagine?

What a goof.

Bend the rules for me to make it easier.

Sure.

I don't think so.

You know,

So I forgive my foolishness.

So please forgive yourselves.

Like,

There's some of you,

There's one person who's kind of lodged in lack of self-forgiveness and it's like,

What's the point?

Just forgive yourself,

You know,

Right alert the universe.

Total self-forgiveness in six months.

Just do your best,

You guys.

There's times that I've been really stuck and times I've acted badly and times where I've been incredibly saintly and powerfully good and just,

You know,

We're going to be all over the place sometimes.

So just,

No matter what,

Forgive yourself,

Side with yourself,

No matter what.

If you start negative thoughts,

Start,

You know,

Start a mantra.

Especially if you start negative thoughts about yourself,

Start a mantra.

Don't let yourself do that to yourself,

Your divine beings.

And pray to recognize truth when you hear it.

It feels all of you guys need to pray for that.

Recognize truth when you hear it on the inside and the outside.

Because when you're present enough with your body that you can recognize truth,

Your journey gets easier and faster.

Yeah.

There's one person who's getting more stuck the more I talk,

So I'm putting my hand out to you and I'm surrounding you with love and compassion and I'm asking Ama to help you.

So just say yes.

Just say yes and me too.

Even if you don't feel it,

Just say it.

Me too.

Yes.

Uh huh.

Because sometimes we're trying to fix ourselves and there's no fixing ourselves.

We just have to step forward.

Yes.

Me too.

Okay,

That's good.

You did it.

That's good.

Okay,

You guys,

I'm going to I mean,

If there's no questions or comments,

I'm going to head off and.

Thank you for the honor.

It's just been such an honor,

You guys.

And I am so fond of all of you.

My prayers come to you.

Okay.

Blessings.