Facing The Pandemic With The Support Of The Dharma 11/26

So welcome to this third week.

So,

On the first week we've been looking into,

Let's say we could say broadly,

By getting the mind a little bit more peaceful,

Into using,

Anchoring the,

Our attention on the breath.

Noticing that when.

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There,

There are a lot of emotions,

It triggers a lot of thoughts,

And then there's a,

There's a kind of a dynamic that makes,

That makes us feel agitated,

And sometimes we just have to stop it,

And bring the awareness on the breathing,

For instance.

There are many ways we can also directly go and explore the emotions that trigger so many thoughts,

Also very important,

And also see and try to understand why there is so much agitation.

But,

What we've been looking mainly is,

How to get back to a certain Peace of Mind,

Which is,

I believe,

One of the,

Of main importance in meditation.

But.

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So this week we'll take a different angle,

And explore a different family,

I would say of.

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Of meditation,

And.

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Sometimes there is like the Peace of Mind,

The,

The having less stress,

The ability to deal with the difficult emotions,

All these things,

More clear vision of where we want to go,

And what we want to do,

Our values,

And all these practices,

So important,

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But they are not complete,

In a way.

If we would just practice this,

We wouldn't find the,

The real beauty of meditation,

And we wouldn't find.

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We want to liberate the amount of freedom that meditation can bring.

And we need to add to that,

Some,

Some meditation that includes others.

It could even be that,

If we are very much concerned,

And under.

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It's easy to understand,

But we,

We may be with meditation,

Over concerned with.

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Ourself,

Our Peace of Mind,

Our Emotion and difficult Emotions,

And our views,

And.

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And so,

We need to include in our practice,

The others.

Yeah,

Which is.

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Another way to say,

We need to open up to freeing a little bit Love,

The,

The ability to Love.

I think it's very important,

It,

It's always been important,

And practice I'm gonna speak about is thousands of years old,

Because it's always been important.

But again,

In this period,

Maintaining or,

Not only maintaining,

But develop,

Developing,

Making Love grow in,

In us,

Is vital,

I think.

It's not only Peace of Mind,

It's also really feeling in Love,

Feeling in Love with us,

With ourselves,

Feeling in Love with what's around,

Loving Life,

Loving the Planet.

If there is not a very strong amount of Love,

Then the difficult situation we're in now,

Because we're in the difficult situation,

No need to mention why,

Like it's so clear,

We're in the difficult situation,

If there's not enough Love,

Then we won't find the way out.

It's not Peace of Mind that will do it alone.

It needs enough Peace of Mind,

But it needs Love,

Because this is Love that will bring engagement,

Engagement,

Not only if there was not enough Love,

Especially now I have in mind,

For the Planet,

And for other population,

Other people who are in difficulty,

If we don't feel a human connection and enough Love,

We won't feel enough concern about what's going on.

And if we don't feel enough concern about what's going on,

We may find,

Thanks to meditation and other ways,

A certain way of being Peaceful,

But that's not complete,

That's not enough,

That's not the aim of meditation,

Just to be Peaceful.

To me,

As I understand,

It's more that we aim to be more resilient to suffering,

To the difficulty,

So that we can open more to it,

Not hide from it.

Sometimes in meditation we can just come back to the breath,

Leave the difficulty behind,

Come to a deep space that we can feel within ourselves,

And that's so precious,

That's called a refuge.

It's so important to have the ability to do that,

But only that becomes with time quite meaningless.

So it's a double way movement.

One way is to really be able to come back to Peace,

Regardless of circumstances,

So that in that there is regeneration,

There is digestion of the difficulties of our life,

There is resilience,

Because in this silence and in this coming back within,

There is resilience,

There is digestion,

So that we can embrace more and we can be more,

We can find more our place in this world,

Not just staying Peacefully inside.

That would be a very selfish way of using meditation.

So,

It's an intention that we want to hold to meditate,

Yes,

So that our quality of life benefits from it,

But not only to meditate also in order to be more able to support and help.

And there is also a way of meditating,

And there is in Mahayana Buddhism,

There is one beautiful tradition,

Which is called the path of the bodhisattva,

And that tradition is it's actually taking a vow,

And the vow you take is,

Usually it's monk,

But not only,

It's people who assert that they will dedicate their life to,

I would say,

Sort themselves out,

Work the way towards more freedom in order to be more able to help others.

So,

They take a very clear intention and direction,

This is the meaning of the last week,

Was our direction,

What is really important,

Which direction do we choose and do we give in our life.

So,

They came with a very,

I think the biggest project you can find,

They just decided and they commit to be rebirthed,

To be reborn,

Because they have reincarnation in their tradition and philosophy,

To come back life after life as long as there is suffering on earth.

So,

That takes place with an idea that is there also in Buddhism and Hinduism,

That the whole process,

The aim is to get out of the circle of reincarnation,

So to not come back and take a body.

So,

That's the thing you would really wish,

Taking a body is suffering,

So the aim is to get out of the circle of reincarnation.

And these people who take the vow of the bodhisattva,

They say,

No,

I will come back again as long as someone is suffering here on earth.

So,

That's quite,

You know,

It's quite a big thing to commit for people who believe in reincarnation.

And actually,

For you and for me,

It's not in our tradition.

But how would it feel if we would already like really sit and commit to work in this life,

Trying to be more and more free,

More and more open and more and more loving,

More and more sorted with our little traumas and all this,

To solve this so that we can help others for the benefit of ourselves and the benefit of others.

It's quite a direction.

And that was in the very beginning in Buddhism,

In the story of the Buddha,

That's the reason why he left his kingdom.

He left his kingdom because he saw so much suffering around.

He wanted to find the end of suffering.

He had decided that there must be a way to end suffering.

Suffering can be understood as even as resistance,

Dissatisfaction with life.

Anytime there is dissatisfaction,

Friction,

Tension,

A sense of separateness,

All this is under this big dramatic term of suffering.

So in the story,

And we don't care if it's really true or not,

The story means the understanding of the practice,

Meditation is practice so that we can be of use and help to others,

Not only for our own sake.

And that's beautiful because when you have that spirit,

It gives you energy.

When we practice meditation just for ourselves,

At some point,

It loses a dimension.

It becomes a bit narrow.

But if we have this understanding and this feeling that there is so much suffering around and we can help so much if we can take our place in this life,

If we feel that,

Then it gives a tremendous energy to fight our petty desires that we know they're destroying another part of the planet or the ecology making children work or making us like in bad health or all these desires.

If it's just me about me,

It's difficult to resist to that.

But if we have a big picture of the suffering and of how much we can take place and help and support,

Then we'll have much more energy.

So meditation in this understanding is making,

Creating the space needed so that we digest the difficulties,

That we grow into freedom more free with a free heart,

Freeing the heart,

Living with a fearless heart.

That's a beautiful project.

That's a beautiful project.

Having a heart,

Not being insensitive,

Not fencing it,

Having a full sensitive heart and not being drowned by our emotions.

Usually when we're very sensitive,

Life becomes very difficult because we sense the difficulty and tensions of people around and we're affected.

And for some people,

It's just a nightmare to be that sensitive.

And with meditation,

We're looking into how we can feel more,

Not feel less,

Feel more and be at peace with it and find our way with that so that we help.

To me,

This is the magnificence of the spiritual path.

It is much more than dealing with difficult emotion or coming back to the spiritual path.

It is much more than coming back to the spiritual path or coming back to quietness.

So this needs to be incorporated in our practice and that's what I'm going to speak about today.

That's what I'm speaking about but I will speak about the practice itself.

The practice that I'm going to introduce is called metta and some of you know it and some of you may practice it.

And it's a very important practice.

It's that important that in one talk the Buddha said like metta,

So metta which is let's say a practice of compassion and he said wisdom which is self-knowledge,

The ability to know what's serving me and what's not serving me and coming back to peace and much more than that understanding.

This is wisdom and on the other side is compassion,

The qualities of the heart and these are two families of practices and he said there are like the two wings of the birds.

The bird cannot fly with just one wing so we need to practice these two approaches not only coming back to silence but also developing these feelings and well-wishing towards others.

So I'm going to describe the practice you'll see it's quite it's quite a big thing because the instructions and the way is it's not so easy to remember as just come back to the breath and drop the thoughts.

It's a practice of visualization which means we will in our meditation we will bring back to our memory someone we start with someone we love a person we love and we will let emerge some positive feelings towards that person positive wishes and we'll look for what do I really want to wish to that person and we'll try to feel and we'll take the time to do that with a few persons so that's not easy to do already because there's a lot of a concentration needed it will be exactly the same you'll notice you will go into thoughts and stories and you will come back oh yes remember come back to that person and keep wishing again gone to thought again back to that person maybe you go to another person yeah but there will be this on and off it's not it's not at all easy to have a continuity with that practice there's a lot of breaks because we're distracted if it happens to you don't freak out just come back to the practice all the time just by a little touch and then after we'll do the same thing with ourselves and now we fall back on something we've been doing already before which is first we will have to feel what we want to wish to ourselves and that's what we you've been doing this last week so it's the continuity of this what do we really want to wish to ourselves and when we feel when we have a clear feeling of what is important and what we want to wish to ourselves we're going to wish us that out that to ourselves which again for some of us is not easy at all there's directly the inner critic that comes and will will say oh no I don't do this will will say oh no I don't deserve this or I will never be able to do this that's not for me or I'm too much like this or I should stop eating like this or I should do this or I should not do that so the inner critic comes when we start to wish ourselves something beautiful not believing it not us yeah so if if this happened to you then see it because you have the chance in this moment to see your inner critic it's just blah blah don't believe it you have the chance to have a bit of distance usually we believe these voices that say we're like this and we're like that and that's part of our of our sorrow and these voices that keeps us small yeah they may come in this moment when we wish ourselves beautiful things if you see them be at peace with them don't trust them keep pushing yourself we can wish ourselves whatever we want we have the right to wish ourselves whatever we want then this practice will flow I will guide all this and you'll have the recording after so you don't have to remember all the steps right now yeah but the understanding is quite important so the next step will be to call to mind some people that we sometimes see here and there but we have no specific interests like it's not my child my parents my friends my partner my this my that it's no it's just a bus driver a shopkeeper or you know something it in reality we we think it wouldn't really matter it wouldn't really matter whatever happens to that person wouldn't change anything to our life it's not in the circle big circle of our like our center our ego world sometimes our ego we we can see the ego world also as all my things yeah part of the big circle so it's outside of that circle people we don't we normally we wouldn't really care what happened to them and there we so you'll have to think about some people like this you know their face you maybe see them regularly have no contact especially and trying to see if it's possible to still with the feeling wishing to that person beautiful things it would be more general wishes not so specific like some time with people we know we can be quite specific in what we wish but for more unknown people it's more generally we will wish good health for instance which everybody's happy with good health and we will wish happiness or you know or to be free from suffering or to be to live a secure life you know and then we can go deeper we can go deeper into that we can start to wish that person to awaken to one's own light so everybody has to find his vocabulary but wishing something beautiful to to an unknown person that's already quite a revolution because we're actually in this practice we are training our mind to feel concerned about people that are around and not just by me and mine and my friends and we we are training because it's just a training of the mind it's the mind that prevents the heart to love it is the condition put by our systems that prevents human connectedness so we have to in my understanding change these restrictions and this lack of interest for what is not me and mine and open up the question that i'm raising here it's a big topic the question that i'm raising here is is unconditional love possible i think we all heard about this notion of unconditional love is that possible is it realistic is it desirable would it be a good thing or is it good to have conditions to love so the question it's difficult because what the word love is already quite loaded by love i we can love our partner our children our animals we can also love friends it's different loves all this we don't love our friends like we love an animal and we can have love on a more open understanding would be just feeling connected with another human human connection you know in which there is respect there is also an expression of love and then there is care when there is love there is care you know we care for what we love and we care for what we love we care for what we love so we can love also nature we can love the planet you know so so the question that i'm raising is how far can we go into loving now i'm where we're at being more careful which is an act of love to care we care for what we love to be more taking care of people we don't know and then still on the question this is still the meditation then we will flow to people we have some difficulty with that that's fun then we go to uh the meditation that that's fun then we go to uh what i would advise is you don't choose people if you have traumatic experience with some person you don't go there now maybe one day and you choose little people with whom you have some little difficulty it can sometimes even be with a friend or in your couple or something happened and you and there's a residue of a anger and and of a resentment yeah and then maybe just seeing if you can again feel the love or feel the connection to that person yeah but maybe it's also with someone you have uh not a good relation with maybe a neighbor or you know someone at work and then is it possible although you don't have a good connection with that person there's some tension in the air there's some maybe some competition comparison is also good good example is it possible to which that person well and to which that person to find freedom and happiness and whatever will come to you that's a that's an interesting proposal i think it's one this kind of proposal we have to reflect upon is it really good and why would we do that people who have some tensions and difficulty with starting to wish them like positive things have some some positive feelings towards them that's a very different difficult part of the practice usually when we have attention with someone so you bring that person to mind and directly you will be gone into the story straight away so when i come to this this moment in my practice before i start i just remember okay here i have to be very alert i don't want to slip into the story i just want to feel the presence of that person within me and to wish whatever i want to wish to that person so i i'll give a few ideas of why i think it's it's a good thing to do that but there are more and before we do so especially with the difficult ones we need to understand why we do that first one thing to remember is that when we wish to someone to be free from suffering it doesn't mean that we agree with the way he he he is in the world or we don't validate his attitude these are different things we don't mean that we're happy with his attitude we just say regardless of the attitude i wish you to find happiness safety whatever so what happens when you do this and definitely the people who do it and who practice it's really practicing it's a regular thing to do the people who do this will find that when you have a conflict with someone you're more able to not transform that person into your enemy which is it's a problem when we create enemies yeah people we we strongly disagree with may become our enemies and then we are part of the problem when we do that so we become able to still relate to that person that we disagree strongly disagree with or suffer from even we still have a human relation and respect on the basis of a human and on that basis we go and speak and express to that person with clarity one misunderstanding about this practice is especially those of us who fear conflict is that we start it's like everybody is good we start to have this feeling oh everybody is good at the bottom of their heart everybody is good everybody is nice everybody's a good person so we we kind of try to make peace with the person within so that we avoid conflict and that's not the idea the idea yes it's avoiding conflict but certainly not to hide from facing that person that person one example that comes to mind is a Gandhi he had a disciple that his name was Lanza del Vasto and this Lanza del Vasto one day he was living with Gandhi and and one day he was in south India with the Gandhi and they were in tents and Lanza del Vasto had to leave for a long journey and because Gandhi was kind of an activist he was always under surveillance of the British army so was Lanza del Vasto Lanza del Vasto had a permanent army man watching him in front of his tent and everywhere he would go and that day he knows that he will have to move for a long journey and he goes to Gandhi and he said listen Gandhi ji because I have to live long do you think I should sneak out of my tent at night so that my guardian will not know and I can escape and Gandhi looked at him and he said no I think you should tell him now so that he has enough time to get ready to pack his thing you know so what British were doing at that time in India were there was really really ugly stuff there and Gandhi was really confronting the English government in India at that time he was going very far and putting his life in danger and he was very clear in his message towards the the English Raj as they call it but not making them enemies he would always have human relation with them you see so I admire this ability I admire and also I believe this is the way to go in conflict and I think this is very relevant to learn and to practice in these days because we have many reasons to be unhappy with how things are and we could have very easily many enemies in for instance in the people we see keeping that keeps destroying the world for their own profit for instance and there's many other examples of this but so how will we speak and act is of major importance and this practice helps us to embody a new way maybe a more mature way of saying I don't agree so it's not about feeling all is okay everybody is lovely no no that's not what the meta or compassion practice is about it's feeling concerned feeling love and so I'll keep my my the process of the meditation but it's feeling love for the others it's feeling love for the planet it's feeling love for humanity and acting this meditation meta meditation in my understanding is what will help a meditator to engage without this meditation of a compassion and opening the heart then a meditator could live a beautiful life letting things be as they are so this practice keeps on to we can envision a group of person can be us here can be like a country your country for instance and wishing that the country goes through this difficult time with a dignity for instance you know finding a way a way that I wish that this country finds a way to deal with the situation a new way and so that human is respected and the planet is respected and we find that all the population of this country finds a way to go to move forward in this situation from a human to go to move forward in this situation for instance you know you invent whatever you feel like and then we can go for the whole humanity so that becomes very conceptual but we can understand when we wish something to all humans it's actually the image that we hold in us of what humanity is of what humans are and for many of us you know there's quite a lot of people who prefer animals and we say humans they're just like you know there's quite many of us that things that were humans they're lost or they're just parasites on the planet and what we just need is all to die or so this image of humans we have in us we we need to transform it into a more loving image it's not going to work for the future with this this image and then we can also feel and express concern and love for the earth and nature and animals so you can also check and feel how you feel and what's the the response right now within you when you hear this there might be all kinds of there might be all kinds of response from unease to excitement to to some something being touched or some critic you know and or some questions so how does it feel so for me this practice the way i'm using it is is a i do often when i practice meditation i start with this it's very good to start with this for two reasons my understanding some people put it at the end also also it's it's also like you can test and then you will find for yourself i start with this because one it makes a strong focus it takes a lot of concentration and that helps me to start my meditation focus because sometimes i notice i can with the habit i can come and sit and after 10 minutes realize i'm sitting since 10 minutes and i didn't start yet my meditation it's like i just was still in my stuff didn't really start so with with this practice it just fix my concentration because it asks a lot of concentration it just fix and make the shift between my daily life and this time dedicated to awareness focus meditation the other good thing is it brings a feeling sometime when visualizing people with love or even others at some point it brings a feeling of love what our experience is love it's very lovely it's a lovely feeling there is heart and that after pervades in the rest of the meditation it's a very nice way to start a meditation this is very important practice because also it's sometimes called the an antidote practice sometime when we're really down when when life really isn't easy and when we have some some habit with this practice when we know it when we're familiar with it if we just get into that vibe of wishing wishing myself to find a happiness again wishing when we look people around and we wish them to be well and happy and safe and and fulfilled and whatever comes the heart comes back and then there's a lovely feeling of love that comes back and it transforms difficult time sometimes it takes ourself out of that into into a lovely feeling again and back to loving life not that it's what we need to do every time we have a difficulty sometime we need to address and look and feel the difficulty but sometime that's also a way of using the mind that's also a way of using this meditation sometimes there's the misunderstanding that we for some people it's like if i wish some positive things to that person it will be good for that person and maybe maybe i have no ideas about this for me that's not my intention when i practice this i'm practicing me being more taking care i'm practicing my own attitude i'm i'm telling my mind that it's important to not only be concerned about me me me all the time me and my me and my yeah because it's very difficult it's extremely difficult to tune in and really feel and feel concerned about what's going on around and if we don't work in that direction it will not come by itself we may feel some concern but very quickly it's gone so we don't use this opportunity because the concern also may give us the energy for trying to open our mind more and to be more sorted to be more free so that we can more help mother thirisa one day she she said she had a dream and her dream was that she died and went to the paradise and there was a sampierre i don't know how to say in english okay you know you know this guy who who is the guy who is the father of the mother of the mother of the mother of the son who is the guy the saint at the entry of the paradise yeah and the sapiya told him told her what are you doing here there are still some there's no slam here you know because she was working in slam with poor people islam the correct word say like this if he yeah okay so sapia told her but there's no slam here why do you come here so you see in her inner psyche it's the same thing as this body sad vavo i will not stop until someone is suffering that feeling in her dream that was that there's no reason to go to the paradise where everything is beautiful if there there are still some people suffering my place is there how fantastic is that and i had a a friend she died now sister mary and she was in bodhgaya that's the place where the poorest state of india still some people dying from hunger they're terrible government and still like the rich people to control the poor villages when there is a revolt then the the rich who own all the lands they have their own private little armies and they send these men to rape all the women so that it quiets down and they are still attacks on the roads like train attack sometime you know so so it's it's just like you we can't believe that this still exists yeah and sister mary she works there she she used to and she was gathering people a woman in villages and having them to understand that if they they are if they stick together the woman they can face difficult situation like going in bank and ask for a loan when one family is dying for instance or when one woman is beaten by her husband because there's a lot of alcohol of course because the men when when when they are in despair the the very few rupees that they have they drink it so so that the woman's intervene in other houses when there's a drama going there or when there's something really dramatic going there so she was threatened her life was under threat so many times sister mary and she was working with the poorest of the poorest these people have even noticed set a second set of clothes to chant they have skin disease because they just can't wash their clothes they just have one set and she always had a small amount of skin to wash her a smile up to here she was amazing and constantly working there and being under threat from the rich and from the police you know so that's possible and i i think for me this is a star this is this is a direction i think i want to walk in the direction of being more able to embody this kind of beautiful and so much needed qualities of love so in this practice we definitely develop the ability to feel more concerned about other and if we don't develop this it will not just come by itself we will keep being in our own life we may be interested in meditation and find some ways of getting the mind peaceful but maybe with time we will feel a little bit more and more concerned but just a little bit and if we feel like there is something there for us it doesn't have for to be for everybody but what's your feeling now if it feels like there is something there for you then you can understand that in this visualizing we visualizing being more attentive to someone we don't know visualizing being able to approach someone we have a strong disagreement with a human respect and speak our disagreement on on the basis of a human respect and visualizing like what the what humanity can be and having that kind of dream and working for these kinds of dream and understanding so let me finish this when we practice this and with this visualizing we're actually creating an experience in the mind and that's how we learn we it becomes our concern it becomes our way we will go in the street and we will more notice the people we will be more in touch with with human connection with unknown people and when we are when we feel in contact with other humans that we don't know and that we feel a kind of proximity a kind of sameness then this feeling is a feeling of love a kind of love and we love that feeling i believe we're i believe we always looking for that feeling in our life what we really want i believe check for yourself don't believe anything what i'm saying i believe all what we want is to love not to be loved we're so much busy with our image and what other will think about us and you know it's all of us let's not be shy about it we have a lot of self-concerns about how we appear and how we think about me will they like what i'm doing and you know there's a lot of mind business around that but i don't think we will gain much from that from that we will gain if we become more and more able to love because when we when we do love others and ourselves the inner atmosphere is one of love that and that's what we that's what we love and of course because it's not possible to separate love is just one thing if we are very lovely we if we are very lovely of course people will love us also but it's a different way you see we're not doing things so that people love us or appreciate us or validate our attitude you know we're doing just if we can reach that intention of not helping others because we will get something which is always there's a mixture there will easily help people if we know we'll get something back it's much more difficult if we believe we get nothing back but if we can reach this high fine quality of mind and heart which makes that anybody who needs help will help because we love that we love to support we feel connected to the others and we feel concerned by others then we will live love more yeah more strong and more often so for instance in this week the the intention of the whole week so i will guide this meditation just a little bit after this and i tell you already the intention of the week the intention of the week will be that wherever you are when you think about the seminar when you think about this talk about the meditation you're doing the practice you're doing at this time watch around maybe you're walking in the street maybe you're at work or sitting in the bus and very difficult to do but you know you are walking in the street maybe you're at work or sitting in the bus and very discreetly you watch the people and you start to let emerge wishes not on the cushion now in real life you wish that person that you don't know sitting across the bus there to have a fantastic day it's fun to do you person to find his way or her way to happiness to find the deep wisdom you like you can it's fantastic to do you're sitting in the bus and you watch every person and you wish for instance that i wish that you find your touch with a deep wisdom within yourself and that read radiates onto everybody around you you know and you wish that to everybody in the bus and then what you feel it's this playfulness there is love and when people get out of the bus you want to say goodbye you feel connected you feel connection so that's the practice of the of this week it will be to remember to watch around and wish beautiful things to the people that are there that you see another thing that you can experiment with is if you have difficulties with someone you will see during this week you can specifically during the your meditation take the time to let's say it's someone you meet and usually there's an argument and you never find how to respond to that person in in a useful way so now on the cushion you can you can imagine visualize the scene and see how you would like to be and practice that way and i've been doing that a lot like with different people and with the same people for many years and it's really transforming because you really like practice on the question how you would love to appear how you would love to answer to that difficult moment that happened from time to time when someone says you something with a lot of a aggressivity for instance you know and then you don't know how to respond at this time and then you walk away and then you say gosh i should have you know these kinds of things now with this meditation when it comes to wishing a person to be well a person with difficulty you can wish that person well and you can also it's a little bit a side practice you can wish that person well but also it's a side practice that i'm proposing you can also imagine the situation and how you would like to answer to this situation and i promise it may take years but one day you'll find yourself very quite in front of someone who usually you you could not be quite in front of and responding with clarity with no heartbeat no more than usual you know it just works we can practice that way that's another way of using meditation so that's anyway when you will come to the people you have difficulties with then probably the people who will come to your mind if people that you have around maybe not probably but maybe and if that's the case you may also see if when you meet in real life that person if it changes something that you're practicing this way i hope this is clear it's all experimenting yeah that's the spirit experimenting it's not that do like this and it will work just experiment and try to notice what changes